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ramblings of a young adult

*Tired*

Just came home.. Aww~ Meet my sweetie.. Hur hur, wasted the whole afternoon at Tampines Stadium.. With sickness run~ lOL~ So wei dai eh? No lah, actually the first event was acutally my event. And first event can be dismiss from school at 12noon! And that's why I go for my event.. The truth is that I don't want to attend the stupid chemistry lesson! Its SO BORED!!

Waited for my sweetie for around hours ba.. Was at stadium since 1pm till last event was around 5+. Then my sweetie Maths paper start. I went to TM and CS walk around. Then my Sweetie called! Which was around 6pm~ Walk around TM for his shoe.. He said that Bata shoe look sucks and in the end he still bought it! lOL~ Pass his silver paint and some brushes.. I think is most of my brushes I have at home for art ba.. Hmmm... Sweetie, better fast fast do finish all your projects wor. =P

Just reach home not long ago.. But still miss him alot! Haha.. On the way home, he said: "give me your blogger password." Of course I will sure asked for what right? He said: "Cause I can edit you English." INSULTING!!! Make me feel so~~~ Err.. What should I say? Hmmm... Make me feel so dumb! >.<" Like as what he say, Noob -_-"

Anyway, this picture is taken yesterday when I was playing my laptop and my stupid sister took it.. The black one was actually the laptop. Yeah.. Nice taken? I suppose ba..


Oh yah, the background is my sweetie do de.. So nice hor? =D Hahaz, at least he do something for my blogger.. ONLY ONE!!! >.<" Sweetie, must tag more wor~ *MuaCkS*

-=][Playing][=- Baby - Ai Qing Bu Nen Zuo Bi Jiao Its a really nice song. But not suitable for me and sweetie. =D

Raining Day *Fall sick le*

Eyes are heavy now.. Have a bad day at school.. Art lesson was great. My final compo already out. By next week should be able to start cutting. [I hope so if I never slack around should be okay.]
This morning, that stupid DM.. *Shake head* ask all the upper sec to gather around the atrium before go for reccess. So IDOTIC!!! Like that never mind. She dismiss all at one shot and all the stores are so damn crowded. Can't even find a table to sit.. Lucky is that we manage to find one table. After reccess, she still want us to gather again! To check those who didn't go for assembly. Shit her man! So ma fan.. And the SUN~ Wah! So hot, she doesn't feel hot at all she's taking her own sweet time.
Can't describe the feelings inside my stomach.. Those jealously.. Argh~ I hate it.. I think as what hunnie say must be "da fang" Haiz, don't know what to do.. And I actually tell him that I will accompany him to buy presents for her.. =| Maybe, I just can't accept it ba.. I don't know why am I thinking this way.. Argh~ Hate it!!!
I go rest le~ Hao xin ku~ ='(

Lalala~ I'm back to update what happen.. Then we chatted with each other through SMS this morning and afternoon. He like nothing happen leh.. >.<" No fun de..
My dear hunnie lovely sweetie lao gong~ Change his friendster profile. *blush* And he upload the stupid picture of mine.. Oh my God! The one in Pink and skirt.. -_-" Aiyo.. So ugly but he like that one a lot leh.. I can't find the negative to give to him the picture. And he even have in inside his computer as for me? loL~ Can't remember when I deleted that. loL~
Lalala~ I miss him alot~ Yes I do~ =D I think I miss my hunnie also.. My cutie.. *HugS* Everything will turn out good for you! God bless..

Just change my blogger song to Liang Jing Ru - Wu Tiao Jian Wei Ni
Hmmm... This song have meaning de.. Haha.. Dedicate to my Dear hunnie lovely sweetie lao gong~ *blush*

Yesterday night chat with my sweetie. Then I tell him not to use this words again "Noob, mofo sheng jing bing" then in the end he said "You noob" I hang up the call.. LOL~ =X 1st time hang up his calL! The feelingS~~ WoooOOOO~~~~~~ =X I waited waited and waited.. That idiot didn't call.. Wait till I fall asleep -_-" Kaox.. >.<" I though he will call back ASAP but in the end never.. Haha, he called around 1+ and 2.. I already in dreamland. Actually to be frank, I did feel vibration. But I don't want to answer~ LOL~ =X

Lalala... Update later.. I afk first~ >.<"

Was out yesterday with my sweetie.. Took my birthday present from Felicia at around 3+. [My birthday was around 2 months 11 days ago!?] Then was alone! -_-" She also damn "cute" one.. Cause the next place she's going was actually CHANGI AIRPORT! >.<" Which is so damn near my place. And she make me travel down to Town to meet her!!! And I was alone all the way till my sweetie meet me which was around 6?
Watch Scooooooooooooo BeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =X Hahaz, a nice show worth watching.. That silly sweetie don't want to watch at first. Then his friends asked him, he then agree.. Wah.. Not only 1 electrical bulb, its ALOT more~~ >.<" Went to play pool~ But I don't know how to play. [To be frank] =X I sit down there.. Only saw sweetie play one round.. Wah.. Saw one of his friends damn look like Recca leh.. Charater wise also. Quiet quiet type, then his hair -______-" Gold color, then highlight~ *Faint* At first, I though I saw Recca. But can't be, cause of the dressing.. lOlx..
As usual, my zhi lian sweetie took my phone and take picture. Then keep complain about the lightening? But hor, see here see there still the same silly face leh.. =X lOlx.. And I left my stupid KEYS with him~! Till now haven't take from him.. HahaZ =X
This morning woke up at 0640!! Cause my stupid phone!~ With the stupid alarm didn't off!! I though I won't wake up by that, but I'm wronG!! >.<" Then I off one, got 2 more!!! Which was around 0645 and 0650!!! ARgh~~ I get knock out, and woke up again! >.<" Hate it!!!
Hmm... I realise I did nothing today.. =D Go sleep again not long ago.. Haha, then just wake up.. Aww... Sunday is a boring DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I miss my sweetie lots.. I miss my hunnie lotS!!! Hunnie, yesterday got enjoy yourself anot!? *MuaCkS* I hope you really did!

Hmmm.... Just update my blogger.. Wah.. Redo the skin till I very pek chek.. >.<" The tag box lah.. Over take everything.. KNS!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, how was it? Nice har? Cool? Yeah?

Today school was great! First time I ever say great. Cause ART teacher never come. lOL~ Then we have 2 periods of recess~ Guay chap~ *YummY* Then that relief teacher collect our file.. First time I never get scolding during art periods~ lOlz~ I like my final compo man~ Nice~~ sweeee~~ But I think I need alot of time to do my paper cut ba~ Hopefully Victoria will help me so that I can faster finish my craft! Oops! Forget about color skin~ That's the part I hate the most~ aRgh~ Cause I'm not good in colors? Haha..

After school went to buy Ice Cream.. Yummy~~ 1.5L de.. I finish around 1/4 of it =X Thats why I AFK from IRC for so long ba.. Around 5hrs? Heavy rain.. I like. Went out for a walk.. Cool~ So liang~ God above cried for me perhaps? Cause I'm =( till he cried.. Silly girl.. *Bish*

I went missing to him.. Cause I want to be alone ba.. Really gonna be crazy le.. Maybe because of yesterday, and I can't believe that I say those rush words that I want to end this relationship.. My mentally my physically gonna break down. And I gonna fall.. Like what my friend told me. If happen I fall, will he catch me up? I never answer his call, never answer private number, never SMS him, never reply anybody sms.. *Sigh* maybe I really want to be alone ba.. =(

A 'Love' Story


Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived. Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others, including Love.

One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment. When the sland was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help.

Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere."

Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." "I can't help you," Vanity said. "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."

Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now."

Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, "Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him.

Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder.

Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" "It was Time," Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?" Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of
understanding how great Love is."

Change my blogger song to Simple Plan - Perfect

Today is a REAL boring day.. Early morning got 4 PERIODS OF CHEMISTRY!! If you guys know me well, I hate Science.. So bored =( And my butt hurts.. Sit on that stupid chair made of WOOD!! Not only that, the stupid teacher gave us a good scolding.. 1st PERIOD OF THE DAY!! ArGh~~ >.<" Spoilt our day man =(
I'm so hungry~ Yet raining leh.. -_-" Lazy le.. Wanna order Pizza eat.. But if order then my weekend money burn~ I rather don't eat then have no money for weekend~
My eyes are heavy now.. Going to sleep le.. But gonna stay awake for my art.. But I feel like sleeping leh.. Sleep le, then tonight then do.. Sound nice hor? But I'm sure that if I sleep now, night time also can sleep de.. >.<"
Wow, I'm waiting for my next CIP trip! Which is next Friday!! :D Going to Children home!! =D I guess I gonna enjoy myself.. The last CIP we went to some older place to give foods to the poorer people.. I guess I know where am I heading after my O level[If I still hold on].. Perhaps doing some social work to help others with what I can ba.. :D Yeah.. See them so ke lian, I'm lucky that I'm heathy. Not poor. Still can afford my 3 meals.. Haha..

Simple Plan - Perfect
Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I'm wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't
Care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good

Enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing alright

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect

Nothing's gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this
Right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect

Aww~ miss my sweetie alot~ >.<" Yeah, the only thing that I can describe him is..
-=DeaRiE LoVe sWeeTiE=- He’s someone turning me to insane, someone I really want to cherish, someone I don’t wish to lose, someone I can’t live without, someone who I can really trust, someone voice I wish to hear every night without his "good night, sweet dreams, sleep tight, honey dreams and love you" I can’t sleep, someone trying to change to a better me, someone whom I pour all my loves at. I never regret pouring all the loves at him. With kind hearted, patience with me, can stand my laziness, can stand that I loves to sleep, although sometimes argue with each other, but arguments make us more close to each other. He’s a nice guy. Whenever we were facing problems, he will always be the one asking if there’s anything wrong.. Nice right? :X Sweetie[sound ro ma =X but that’s the way I call him *blehx* what can you do?], although the time we spend together is not long, but every minute and every second that we spend together I really cherish it a lot.. Every thing that you do, I really trust you. =] Hope you will do the same to me too.. Sorry that I place my friends before you. But in my heart, you're always my number one.. The one and only Sweetie.. Lastly *muaCks* I love you and I cherish you! -=DeaRiE LoVe sWeeTiE=-
Yeah.. Although sometimes I'm unreasonable. And we kept arguing with each other over small little things, but I still cherish him alot.. Not only that, I hope to change to a better me for him =D Yeah.. Gonna go sleep le.. Mean while, waiting for my sweetie call~ good nite :D

I read this article from some where. I find it very meaningful. I love it..

There was once this guy who is very much in love with his girl...

This ROMANTIC GUY folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl... although, at that time he was just a small fry in his company, his future doesn't seemed too bright, they were very happy together...

Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she couldn't visualize any future for the both of them, so they went their own ways there and then...

Heartbroken, the guy agreed.But when he regains his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of him....

Finally with all these hard work and the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company!You never fail until you stop trying.

One rainy day, while this guy was driving,he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella the rain walking to some destinationEven with the umbrella, they were still drenched.It didn't take him long to realize those were his girl's parents... With a heart in getting back at them,he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan...

He wanted them to know that he wasn't the same anymore; he had his own company, car, condo, etc. He made it!

Before the guy can realize,the couple was walking towards a cemetery, and he got out of his car and followed...
and he saw his girl, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone and he saw his paper cranes beside her...

Her parents saw him. He asks them why had this happened. They explained,

she did not leave for France at all... She was ill with cancer...

She had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want to be his obstacle!!... therefore she had chosen to leave him.

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again... he can take some of those back with him..

Once you have loved, you will always love... For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever...

The guy just wept...

The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them..... hope you would understand...

Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person whom you thought meant nothing to you..

Change my blogger song to Chuang Wai. No special meaning! I just love this song.
Aww~~ I'm back~! Manage to talk to sweetie about us.. And I know that he cherish me! So do I~~ :D That's why my mood so good ba..
Yesterday night.. Haiz, he angry, and he hang up the call again.. 3rd time le sweetie.. -_-" I know its my fault.. But why he can't understand me? We nearly ended this relationship.. But lucky that both of us manage to think twice before decide the ending.. =] And this lesson, this chapter, I start to learn to cherish him more.. [I hope he do too]
He went to his aunt place to cut his hair.. I haven't met him since Saturday.. And I don't know how his hair look like.. But this silly boy MMS me his picture of his back! Aww~~ I love it alot!!
Hmmm... My room is in total mess~ Argh~ So messy!! Yesterday night chiong the assignment till 12am+. Aww~ Too tired to pack. And I'm lazy to pack~ I want sleep~ >.<" I love you man William! You're a great pal! Guess what he did? He help me write Chinese compo~ lOL~ I gave him the question and he read out what am I suppose to write~ Aww~~ =X In the end, he nearly vomit blood.. Hahaz, so many Chinese charaters don't know how to write! He so bad man.. Ask me to go take CL-B.. dOtS! Win liaOz lor BF!! >.<"
Anyway, uploading new pictureS!!

OMG, I didn't know I so hiao!! >.<"
This taken during CIP. Can't remember the date. My good male Malay friend. Hur hur~

Oops! Under 18 please close this window NOW!!! Naked!! *shY*

Gonna go do my assignments le.. >.<" Miss my sweetie alot~
Dear, although both of us always argue alot over the phone and SMS. But I really cherish you alot.. I hope that you know that when we argue, my heart bleeds. I hope that we will have lesser and lesser argue as time goes by.. Sweetie, no matter what happen, I wish to stay by your side.. Cause I really cherish you.. =] Lastly, I love you sweetie..

Hmmm... Today is a VERY BORING DAY!! aWw~~ Still doing my stupid holiday assignment! And guess what!? Tomorrow is Monday =( Gonna finish by tonight no matter what~~ =|
Miss my sweetie alot.. And alot alot of wonderings came up my mind~ I really don't know what happen to myself.. Just feeling very tired.. Days didn't talk to him cause he didn't go home.. If not once reach home, he knock out.. Very tired that why didn't call me.. *Haiz* Wonder if I've did my part as his girlfriend anot~ Aiyo.. Enough le.. I have to rush my assignments le~ >.<" SchooL~ SucKS!! YuCkS~~
Sweetie, I love you!! *MuaCkS* I really hope to spend forever with you.. Every second and every minute that past, I really cherish you!!

Wo hui lai le!! Too long didn't update le.. My stupid brother lor.. Bring laptop to school.. Don't have the chance to use.. He came back, also don't let me use.. so idiotic!! aRgh~~
Sweetie bought me Shin - Hai Kou Tian Kong disc~ Aww~~ *muaCkS* thaNks wor!! I really love it!!!
Wednesday just had a small fight with sweetie.. It's my fault, but yet he still give in.. *sigh* I have no idea when I will totally "grow up" and really think about this relationship. Yes I love him.. So what? Did I play my part as his GF? I don't think so.. Always he's the one giving in. And I'm the one waiting for him to give in.. Show my "xiao jie" pi qi.. Then he sure give in.. Why like that? Have I really take him for granted? I think I really did.. ='( Always he the one call me.. But did I ever call him to ask him if he had taken his lunch/dinner? I don't think so.. He's the one who did that.. Haiz~ What happen to me!? Why like that de? I, myself know that I don't want to lose him, but why I didn't play a part as his GF? *Haiz*

This 2 pictures taken on Wednesday with Michelle.. 30 shots at one go.. This is what she scan

And this is what I've scan

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Monday, March 15, 2004 ( 3/15/2004 06:48:00 PM )

Blogger song just change. Please don't turn the volume till very high.. Shin - Si Le Duo Yao Ai

Feeling damn pek chek now.. Don't know why also.. =( Feel like scolding or scream out~ But I can't.. Haiz, don't know what happen wor.. I think maybe after answering the fucking damn call and my friends keep asking me things about friendster. Like I very pro like that.. Talking about friendster.. Damn.. So lag not only that, after typing a long testimonial, it says "Can't add" IDIOT!! ANGRY LIKE HELL MAN!!!
ARgh~~ Sometimes really wonder who am I!! Feel so pek chek about everything.. Damn, wanna do somethings well also hard! I'm tired of this life man! Nothing work except work! I wanna quit school! But he don't allow my parents also! Damn, I have no interest in studies, why should I be holding on? I wanna give up! Really! I can't take it.. Those impacts~ argh~ Stressing me out! Damn, I want take back my pictures from HIM!!! But fuck man, I message him in MSN always don't want reply.. CCB~ So long already still don't want to give me back! I HATE IT!! ITE life very busy meh? Kaoz, took so long to reply!? I want my pictures BACK!! IF YOU READ THIS BETTER GIVE ME BACK!!! NOW!!! ARgH~ So dulan man~~
Sometimes just wondering who am I to you.. Friendster profile put single.. The wrods that came out from your mouth.. Make me have so much wonderings.. Who am I to you? *Sigh* Always tell myself not to think so much.. But in the end? You manage to change your picture in friendster, but not abit more of your profile? Damn~ Don't feel like talking!!!
ARgh!!!! Just leave me alone!!! LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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( 3/15/2004 02:42:00 PM )

Hmmm... Apologies~ Sweetie, yesterday didn't pick up you call.. Can't feel the vibration wor~ =( SOrRRY!!!! Anyway, I already promise that I will post up the picture of the thing I give my sweetie~~ Here it is! I carve de~ Carve till hand pain pain~ =( But glad that he like it~~ Ta xi huan jiu haO :P

Hmmm... These are the photos that I took on my Mei's baby man yue.. So ke aI *Pinch*

Hmmm~~ Anyway, I love this picture the MOST!! :D

Lalala~~ I think too much pictures le~~ Hur huR~ Sweetie face forever so cutE~~ *MuaCkS* =X Love you! Yeah~~
I find this song nice and meaningful..

Human Nature - Don't Say Goodbye

How can I go on
When I know I gave it all
Have I given too much?

Something inside your heart is pushing me aside
And it seems so un-you baby
But it's so hard on me

What is it I'm seeing in your eyes?
The story that I'm reading says goodbye

CHORUS
Tell me baby where did we go wrong?
How did we lose a love so strong?
What can I say to make things right?
Baby hold on- don't leave tonight
There's no reason why this part of us should die
Don't say goodbye

Searching for answers
But they're oh so hard to find
'Cause I'm still loving you, baby
Oh, are you still loving me?

Baby don't you turn and close the door
Is it you don't love me any more?

CHORUS

Don't leave me now
All alone
Don't bring me down
'Cause I'm not that strong
I need your love to carry on

CHORUS x 2

There's no reason why this part of us should die
Don't say goodbye

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Sunday, March 14, 2004 ( 3/14/2004 10:10:00 PM )

Hmm... Today didn't meet sweetie.. Cause he has to do his project. Then I have to look after my dad place~ *yawns* so tired.. Just went to my uncle house, saw my granny.. *shake head* Don't feel like talking about it..
Anyway, these are the pictures taken yesterday with sweetie~ *pinch*



Hmmm... This one taken last week de..

I log out le.. Sweetie, I miss you!!!
Oops! Forget to talk to hunnie~~ Hunnie!! Glad that you enjoy today!! Make sure you rest well tonight =D see him in dreamland okay? *hugS*

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( 3/14/2004 03:18:00 AM )

Hmmm.. So tired.. Just finish talking over the phone with my dear.. *yawns*
Today went out with sweetie.. We went to Aljunied to see my friend.. *pinch* so cute the baby.. Hahaz, was stuck there till around 9pm.. Then we took cab down to Bugis.. Yeah =P Take picture again.. Walk around Bugis Village..
Have a nice conversation with sweetie.. Talk about everything.. The past, how I know him blah blah blah..
*yawns* I'm tired~~ I go sleep le~ I've no idea what to write too~ =X Find my sweetie in dreamland le *muacks* ..
YING YAN!! ITS 14th MARCH 2004!!! =P

Message To Sweetie
Dear, although we know each other not long, and we don't really know each other well.. But dear, trust me.. I will try my best to play my part as your GF. I really do cherish this relationship with you.. I regret what I've said last time that I only will walk pass your life. But now, I don't want to walk by.. I wanna play a very important role in your life.. Cause I know that you're the only one that I can lean on.. Lead off with my life.. You bright up my life.. =] Hope that you will continue doing that till the day when we are going to part.. But I hope that day won't come.. Cause I really wanna spend forever with you.. =] *sHY*

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Friday, March 12, 2004 ( 3/12/2004 10:09:00 PM )

Hmmm... Today Sports Day heat.. SMS cutie before I left home.. Reach there around 2+ *Sianx* first event jiu sianx le.. Long jump I think got 3rd. I can't be bother also.. Then haiz, stomach cramp~ =~ *cries* Don't talk about that le.. I think today 3 event can get in to final ba.. Hope so lor.. -_-" Haiya, sometimes when I need him, he not by my side.. Just like just now. My stomach cramp till very jialat, how I wish that he's by my side.. But in the end, he's not there.. Both of us are busy with our stuffs.. Yes I know.. Just that I feel wired de lor. haiz, never mind. *bish* think too much le..
So long didn't update my blogger.. Wednesday moody.. Then sweetie nearly broke up with me.. ='( He don't like people to bottle up feelings.. But, when I can't take it anymore, I will then start to share.. He's so understanding.. We manage to talk things out.. =P Yeah.. Thanks God.. No more those question mark things in between us le.. =] I'm happy now.. Yesterday have a wonderful chat with him.. This time I didn't feel tired.. =D Lalala~~
Thursday PTI[Parents Teach Interaction?] Yah I suppose. loL~ Then sweetie pei me go take results.. Hahaz, actually he wanna be my "brother" for that day, but hor, he say he think that teacher will know lor.. Hahaz, in the end I called my neighbour to take for me.. Pretend as my uncle.. Hahaz -_-" So rubbish man.. No choice, who ask all my subjects teacher change? Yeah! My results were "wonderful" which makes my sweetie and my neighbour to nag nag nag nag nag at me.. -_-" I think you guys should know ba? Hee heez.. Yeah, tomorrow is Saturday le~~ Meeting my sweetie ba..
No idea when I took this picture.. Hahaz..

Yeah, as promise =P The words is I add de.. Not him..

Hmmm.. I upload one picture tomorrow or the next time I online okay? About the thing that I going to pass to him tomorrow *pray* Hope I remember to bring out! Hahaz, if I post the picture now, no suprise le~ =P

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Wednesday, March 10, 2004 ( 3/10/2004 05:06:00 PM )

Teary Eyes
Haiz, have no idea what happen to me.. =( This morning, Jason took the wrong file. In the end I scold him.. "For what fuck you take my file.." Haiz.. Then come to PE.. So excited.. In the end, spoilt by a Bitch of my class. Haiz, this is what happen.. She claim that she have alot of experience in Relay.. Right from the start I didn't ask her to join.. She over hear my conversation.. And she "Big hole" again.. Saying that she won what what what ar.. This this this ar.. In the end? Guess what? PE that time the teacher teach us how to pass Baton.. What the fuck? She can't even hold the baton well.. Fuck man.. Not only that, she can't even run..! She "big hole" again say that she too long didn't run.. Wah.. So piss off by her man! She even start to jog before we went down from hall to atrium.. Damn her ass man. Keep on arguing with me about the place to practice. I keep saying that the Teacher is going to talk to us at atruim.. In the end? Walk around the school find a fucking ass damn that suits her.. She keep saying "don't run here lah.. paiseh sia.." Now I know why she said that man.. She don't want others to see how clumsy she can be.. Fuck man..
My classmates asked me what happen.. I just kept quiet and ignore them.. Walk away.. Haiz, those who don't know what happen just kept quiet.. And they don't even dare to ask me what happen.. Once they ask, I gonna shut them up.. Sorry guys if I've ignore you..
Haiz, because of this argue with sweetie.. He wanna meet me, but I don't want.. I don't want him to see my long, black face.. I can't smile.. Although I want him to be my side to cheer me up, but.. Haiz =( He find this thing small.. But to me no.. It's a big thing.. I want perfect for my class, perfect for my team.. Perfect for everything especially in Sports.. I want to have something to think back when I left my school.. This year will be the last year, I don't want to regret.. Sports that's the only thing I'm good at it. Last year some more. I don't want to regret.. Really..
I haven't talk to sweetie till now.. I have no idea why.. ='( I saw him online, he didn't message me, I also didn't message me.. Now he already offline. And I'm still here.. He SMS me, but I didn't reply.. I have no idea what to tell him.. Those disappointment inside my heart.. Haiz, will anyone understand my part? Maybe what I want is just too much. But that's me.. Why can't he understand me? Yes I did said that I want to see his smile everyday.. But, I don't have my own time to do my own things, to slack around at home, to IRC.. I don't even have time to post CC forums.. I not trying to say that it's his fault or what.. But I want to do my own stuffs.. To have my own time.. Why? After with sweetie, I don't have my own time.. Sleep during lessons.. Late at night talk to him.. Sometimes no idea what to talk about, just keep quiet. I really have no idea what to talk about.. He was gaming.. [Not saying that he's rude or what] I just scare that I will bored him, that's why when he game, I didn't say anything. Haiz, in the end he said that I'm not the me that he know.. I'm chatty but when I'm tired, I just wish to be alone. I don't want to hang up the call, I want to talk to him. Yet he still misunderstood me.. Haiz, I have no idea how long can I hold on.. I'm tired.. Mentally and Physically.. I have no idea when I will fall.. ='( No point crying right now.. Crying over sweetie or whatever.. Haiz, I'm scare.. Scare that one day the story will end some where, some time.. I don't want that day to come, I didn't even did my part as his girl.. Haiz.. ='( I just wish to be alone..

Britney Spears - Everytime The song that accompany me today

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...
After all...

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Tuesday, March 09, 2004 ( 3/09/2004 03:59:00 PM )

1 day didn't update blogger le.. Laptop is always not at home on Monday..
This morning, granny called around 0715am, she said she was in great pain.. Haiz, till now I still don't know what happen.. I haven't called them.. Yah, I will called after writing today and yesterday blogger ba..
Yesterday, suppose to come home to sleep. Yeah, skip stupid SPP again. Nothing new anyway.. When I was having lunch, XiaoYi called.. She asked me to come out to eat.. -_-" In the end, still come over my place to eat.. Then, she stay till around 1745pm cause her BF came ma -_-" Make me so the~ Haiz~
Went to White Sands to meet sweetie.. In the end rain + late. (No comment) Saw Randy.. Hmmm.. A nice guy worth knowing. =]
Yesterday have abit of misunderstanding.. Still wondering am I the one who is the one in fault or is he the one who can't understand me? I know that both of us are moody.. But why can't he just give in abit? Haiz, but the great thing is that both of us give in.. He apologise to me, and I did.. =] I hope this will go on ba.. =D
Hmmm... Just meet sweetie.. Took photos together.. I have no idea if he allow/agree to put the pictures anot lor.. >.<" So.. Ask him lor :P Lalala~ Although together not very long, but I really cherish every second and every minute that pass by.. The way I want to stare at him~ Oh~~ *faint* so nice.. So xin fu de gan jue~~~ The power of love? I think so ba..
Although sometimes it is hard to understand him.. Just hard to understand sweetie.. Haiz, wonder what to do.. But I suppose that time will help me to understand him more.. =D Trust me sweetie~

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Sunday, March 07, 2004 ( 3/07/2004 07:46:00 PM )

Hmm.. Was out with sweetie yesterday.. Now then update cause yesterday reach home was very tired. *MuacKs* Really enjoy myself~ We watch "The Haunted Mension" Nice show, worth watching! Or is it that I watch it with my sweetie? *shY* Went to Bugis, then to Suntec.. Walk around~ Lalala~ I really enjoy myself wor~ >.<"
Hmm... I reach home already we only SMS.. Then he ask me to go sleep.. =X I said "You didn't wish me good night how am I suppose to sleep?" Guess what he do~~ =X oh man, he actually called me to wish me good night~ *blush* Then when he reach home around 5am, I actually wake up and SMS him =X Then we chatted over the phone.. But awhile only.. Cause he's tired.. So am I~ Lalala~ I love him alot!! =XxX *MuaCkS* No idea what to write le~ Just so happy!! =X
I miss my sweetiE =X AlotS!!!!

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Saturday, March 06, 2004 ( 3/06/2004 02:11:00 PM )

Just now CIP went to Mei Liang Street? No idea if the street is correct anot.. Saw alot of old folks.. Those who are really weak and really need help.. I didn't really talk to them because of my stupid partner!! >.<" Then I heard from my friends that some of them are really very poor thing.. ='( I heard that got one old Malay lady, one of her eyes is blind.. She could hardly see.. When my friends went up to talk to her. She told them about her past. And I can't believe my ears.. Her own children visit her once a year.. Sometimes even once in 2 years.. Not only that.. Because of her eye is blind, she has diffcuiltly walking.. Sometimes when she's hungry, she asked her neighbour for food.. The neighbour charge her $2 for a little bit of rice.. Can't you guys believe it!? Why Singapore don't have nice people whereby they will help those needy!!! I don't understand.. Haiz..
Yesterday talk to him over the phone.. Then I hang up go sleep.. He called again.. -.-" Then we chatted till 4+am.. *yawns* so tired~ Later meeting him~~ :D Lalala~~ I miss my sweetiE~~ :X
Will be updating when I'm free~

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Friday, March 05, 2004 ( 3/05/2004 07:21:00 PM )

*Haiz* Just have a small little quarrel with him.. I have no idea if he's going out with him friends to watch movie anot ma. Cause haven't comfirm lor.. Then how I know in the end he said he didn't meet them.. Then actually wanna meet up with him.. Haiz, because of this argue with each other.. The time and the place can't even comfirm.. He wants me to decided.. But I can't lor.. I just don't know where to meet. Somemore tomorrow got CIP till 1pm.. Have to report at 7.30am.. *Sigh* Then somemore I later meeting my friends to study ma.. [Its true okay?] I don't know lor.. I very luan, very fan.. ='( Want to cry le..~ *Sobx* Is not that I don't want to meet him, just that my time is very tight.. ='( Haiz, if happen you read this today, sorry okay? Hope you really fit yourself into my shoe and think about my part.. ='( I'm sorry sweetie..

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( 3/05/2004 03:55:00 PM )

Da xiao jie fa wan pi qi le~ >.<" So I'm here to update what happen.. Hmmm.. I think nothing really happen except that I change abit of this and that in this blogger.. If you guys realise enough, I change the poem again and the song playing from Zhou Jie Lun - Gui Ji to Kelly Chen - Lover Concerto. Find this song so nice.. The lyrics..
He sick today, didn't went to school.. [Or is it didn't want to take that stupid Jap test? I still wondering..] Planning to meet him after my lesson, then accompany him to see doctor.. But in the end, my dad kpkb. Ask me stay at home.. Haiz, then he now alone at clinic, and there so crowded.. He's alone.. Haiz, so guilty, can't accompany him.. Not only didn't accompany him to see doctor, I also miss a chance to eat siew mai that he steam! I told him I be going his place, that's why he steam for me. In the end, I didn't go.. Haiz, ='( Miss him badly..
Yesterday night didn't talk to him, cause I happen to miss his call! Twice! Oh man.. I'm sleeping like a pig.. Wonder what time he slept yesterday? As late as usual? Alone? Haiz, ususally I always accompany him to talk until he say he want to hang up cause he's tired.. But yesterday no idea why can't feel the vibration of my phone.
We are still friends.. Normal friends.. Nothing happen.. I guess you guys must be wondering so close to each other why still friends right? Hmm.. I also wonder about this question.. Never mind lah.. If happen he's mine, sure to be mine one day.. Just wait for that day to come lor! =P I'm sure that day will come ba.. God isn't that bad to me afterall? After having so many fail relationship, I hope that God will give me a chance eh? Agree ma?
The greatest failure in life is not participate.. Stupid Ernest Wong teach one. But after all, sound logic right? Hmmm~~ I decided to give it a shot! Called and said "I love you" Duhz, no lah.. Hinting will do~ Later he run. Get shock right? loL~
Oh man.. Miss him badly~~ Lala~~ One of his favourite song~ Lin Jun Jie - Dong Jie. Nice wor~ Should download it~ ^^v Lalala~ Enjoy calling him sweetiE~~ Just like what Ying Yan call me~~ =X Hmmm~~ Ying Yan ar, find a new nick for me~~ =X
Hmmm... I'm not jobless le~~ I'm working under PanPan Pte Ltd =P But the pay sucks.. Over all, the Boss Pan Pan is a NICE MAN!!! lOL~


Took this photo when I miss him~ =X



Kelly Chan - Lover's Concerto
How gentle is the rain
That falls softly on the meadow
Birds high up on the trees
Serenade the clouds with their melodies
Oh!See there beyond the hill
The birght colors of the rainbow
Some magic from above
Made this day for us,just to fall in love
You'll hold me in your arms
And say once again you'll love me
And that you love is true
Everthing will be just as wonderful
Now,I belong to you
From this day until forever
Just love me tenderly and I'll give to you
Every part of me
Oh!Don't ever make me cry
Through long lonely nights without us
Be always true to me
Keep this day in your heart eternally
You hold me in your arms
And say once again you love me
And that your love is true
Everthing will be just as wonderful

Read this article from Jess blogger.. The Power Of Love~ :D~

This woman recovered from a coma after 30 years and entered a strange new world. During her coma: her grandchildren were born, one of her siblings passed away, cordless phones and microwaves were invented, the Vietnam war came to an end, Neil Armstrong walked on the moon and color television was invented and took over black and white. She fell asleep as a YOUNG WOMAN and woke up an OLD LADY. The world had changed beyond recognition, but her husband's devotion for her remained as strong as ever.

"They tell me I was watching a news report about the shooting of President Kennedy when I suffered a stroke, threw my hands in the air and collapsed into a coma." For two years she was totally paralyzed with her eyes wide open. Her loving husband put eyedrops into her eyes every four hours around the clock to prevent them from drying up. Then after 30 years...her husband shares: " We were in bed when she suddenly sat up and said: 'what's on television?' It was like a dead person come to life."

The couple appeared on television shows and viewers worldwide wept with compassion as the husband explains why he cared for his wife for so long. "When I married her, I pledged to be with her in sickness and in health - and I stuck to my vow."

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Thursday, March 04, 2004 ( 3/04/2004 05:18:00 PM )

You're the world to me
There's no one really love you
Like I do
You're the one I really love
The one I want to touch
I give you my heart and soul
And I need you so much
Offer me with your sweet dreams
Fill me with your wonder light
sow the aching heart
And hold me through out the night
The mere of your voice
Sommons deep emotion within
Like old familiar song
Like the comfort of a friend
When you're near
I'm lost to thoughts of love
As you touch me with your magic
that's a grand as the bright stars above
I want to hold your hand
I'm hunger for your kiss
Offer me sweet tidings
Of true love's tender bliss
I promise our love shall soar
Carried out on the wings of dove
So give me your heart
And bless me with your love

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Wednesday, March 03, 2004 ( 3/03/2004 04:15:00 PM )

I've change the background music to Gui Ji mp3 instead of midi. A song which express my feelings perhaps? Hmmmm....The wordings below is a poem. No idea where I found, but I like it.. Maybe describe my feelings?
Hmmm... As usual, tired~ Physics test just now, guess what? Hmmm... No idea what am I writing?
Yesterday went totally crazy I suppose.. Say out those real funny things.. In the end, he have no idea what to reply.. Very tired le~ =( Didn't saw him for 2 days already.. He told me that he's going to Orchard.. Hmm.. Having to SMS him a lot.. But this time round, no idea why took him so long to reply. Maybe because of the craziness that I gave yesterday? Or maybe I too sensitive le? I suppose that later these few days won't be updating.. Very tired~ Everyday almost happen the same thing.. But that having high and low.. If really something BIG gonna happen.. I'm sure I will update..
Mean while, wish to be alone ba..

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Tuesday, March 02, 2004 ( 3/02/2004 06:38:00 PM )

Bored, Tired.. Haiz~~ Tomorrow got paper.. Have no idea where to start.. -.-" I only know I want to sleep.. Very sleepy now.. Although I slept during assembly, but.. That 1hr is nothing~~ Very hungry also~~
Miss him so much~~ =X Hmmm... Its raining.. I wonder have he reach home? I suppose ba.. He told me that his lesson ended at 5pm.. Now already 6+pm.. Hmmm... Actually got meet him de.. But in the end he say he going home. Cause his friend ask him to accompany him home ma.. If not say "pang seh"
Maybe I was wrong about yesterday.. Just over sensitive ba.. I actually SMS him telling him that "I think that you haven't forget about her" Oh man, what am I doing? Just a few days, how can he totally forget about her right? I'm so silly.. Really silly..
This questions keep coming up my mind.. I was wondering who he treat me as.. As an extra or a friend? Well, perhaps I shouldn't said good friend ba.. Every night talk to him over the phone, ended up I'm very tired.. Mentally and Physically.. Really very tired.. I not saying that its his fault or what.. I just don't want to be someone that he used[If happen that he did] to forget her.. I will kill myself if he did..
I really enjoy myself yesterday. Just hope that this thing will continue. Even as a friend, I will also be happy.. Even if both of us didn't have any chemistry, I hope that he will find his real love soon ba.. And also all thoses worries, sadness etc will not impact on him.. =) Cause simply I love him? *blush* Haiya, he got those "kong ju gan" with belly piercing.. Hmmm~~ Wonder if this stupid girl here should remove anot?

This picture taken on 29th Feb 2004 before I went out..

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Monday, March 01, 2004 ( 3/01/2004 08:49:00 PM )

Have a nice time I have with him~~ :D So happy wor~~ *cry* happy till cry le..

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( 3/01/2004 04:06:00 PM )

Hmmm... Yesterday have a wonderful day~ :D The more I think the more happy I went.. But I don't want this thing to happen for a short time.. I want this thing to continue forever.. *blush* Maybe as a friend also can.. Never expect that he will happen to me mine.. =P I'm not a nice girl.. Low self-esteem I know.. But its true what.. =\ Its a fact, everyone know.. Haiz..
Chatted over the phone with him yesterday till 3am.. Ended up overslept this morning. Woke up at 7am. But manage to reach school on time.. Hur hur, anyhow bath, then rush to school. Lucky that I did pack my bag yesterday night and did iron my uniform.. If not sure *shake head*
He's a really nice guy.. I just like it~ Lalala~ No idea what to write already.. Meeting him later at my house void deck~ Hmmm~~~
My Belly =X


Hmmm, the first 3 were bought at Thailand by my Gan Korx2 Benji Leong. Thanks kor :D The others I bought at Singapore yesterday [29.02.04] I like it.. With the word "le" which means happyiness and the other one with angel =P The last one is over all pictures over everything.. Haiyo, realise that my skin colour is different? haha!!! =X

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