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ramblings of a young adult

Don't know why am I feeling this way. Things didn't come at the right way. Maybe due to
listening to those damn sad songs ba. Right now listening to Baby - Ai Qing Bu Neng Zuo Bi Jiao.
Some mood swing that I have. Maybe because I just think too much. About yesterday night had a small argument with Andy over the phone. Just because he didn't call me at 93opm? Its a small thing I know, and I don't know why I went screaming at him even until just now.
He finish school at 9pm, and you reach home at 930. And ended up I'm the one calling you at 10pm? And you even ask me about why am I calling you at 10pm when I reach the door of the house? Why are you so unreasonable? Why you cant ask yourself why you didn't call me the moment when you reach home?
Things might be easy to read, but the feelings of fuck up, you can never sense it. I hang up the call because I know if I didn't hang up, I will continue argue with you till don't know when. You ask me why, I thought you know why. Shouldn't be having this way of thinking.
Really fuck up now. The disappointment.. I manage to find time to call you. I call you after my school. That's what you said. I call your house, not once but twice. Ended up you're sleeping? I call your HP, you ask me call your house. I didn't say much things and I didn't call you. You said you will call me when you're having your break today. But did you? Not even a SMS from you.
Tears keep rolling down, not because of you. Because I cant believe that how silly am I to accept you back then. I don't know why am I feeling this way. Things go out well, but not now. Maybe I'm used to be alone, being single. Being independent. Don't ask me why am I feeling this way. I'm not hinting or saying anything.. I just.. Fuck.. Whatever..
I dig out time for you, I travel down to City Hall just for an hour for you. Tomorrow got badminton for 2 hours, you don't even agree to come down. I won't ask much from you anymore. I just have enought that's it.
And I think I need time to cool down or whatever shit. I want to be alone.. Left alone.. And don't TAG at my board either SMS me. Thank you. PS: I'm refering to EVERYONE


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That's the boliao us..




Kelvin

Chun Wai a car lover..

Izwan & Nabil. Gangster..


He being rape. The .... of our class..


Here come the 3 bitches.



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Alfiyan


Fiziah & Me

Alfiyan & Me

Ong & Me

Actually is a group picture. But look at that Izwan -_-"

Here we go..

Naz & Shirah

Ming Yu, ChunWai & KaiSheng

Muhd, Izwan & Kawrul

STupid Ong & Yong



School was good today, cause there are 3 free periods? Haha.. And I'm sleeping like a real pig in class. Thanks to Gary. Damn, woke me up 3 times!! Si02 how to draw!! =_=" Chemistry~ *shake head* At least I still can remember with those pure BLUR face. Haha..
Anyway, they have those video shooting. For no idea what shit. And was actually shooting during English period. And in fact, we're having test. =_=" Can you imaging that first few questions all of us were discussing? *lol*
After school, head stright home. Took a nap. And I over slept :x By the time I woke up was in fact 1545. Pack my stuff, have a shower and head out.. Pass my craft to KaiSheng. Went to City Hall to meet him. *shY* He's late. I thought I will be the one late. Cause at 1700 I was at Bugis. And he said that his lesson end at 1700. =_="
Then I walk around for 15mins, he called. Went a level down to find him. Head towards MS. By the time we reach MS, its 1730. =_=" And his next lesson starts at 1800. Omg~ 30 mins how to eat.. Trying my best to eat damn fast. :x And yes I did it in 20mins. *lol*
Head back to MRT, send him to school, then I head back to Bugis to meet Gary. AND HE SUCKS!!! Suppose to meet him at 1815 at Bugis MRT. And in the end, he reached there at 1830 and said that he already reach. And he's at the toilet. So I ask which toilet. He said LAVANDERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR =_=" Can you imaging the feeling of trying to kill him!?
And he walk DAMN fast until I bth.. Withdraw money and head to Fancy Paper. Then bought the paper for $17.45 Shock man. He actually bought very little yet so ex. *lol* Actually I bought 3times. And the total was around $25. =X
Went to eat after that. Saw 1 group of Ah lians walking. *lol* I can't ta han but keep laughing. Don't ask me why, I just do. And I saw one guy from "FunLand" trying to cross the road, but he so scare. *LoL*
Feeling so damn sucks. Recently headache are getting more and more jia lat. *shake head* then things are not pilling me up, isn't that a great thing? Ha, but no idea why my head still pain.. =(
Perhaps some mood swing here and then ba. *sigh* But I didn't show any attitude to anyone I guess. Oops.. I forget to say that if you just message me to request me for things or ask me things, please fook off. Don't think that I know you very well. Oh well.. Whatever~ Things are not going my way.. WhateveR~ Headache~ Waiting for his call~~ lallalala~~~~
*tagboard*
hunnie: I never hurt myself le.. No longer that silly.. =D
xiang: Hahaz, I thought I always cute? *lol* :x My tounge ar? No pain le, but got mark at there.. Look ugly but no one can see. :x
jasmine: For me to know, for you to find out.
Summo Tay: Thanks man.. :D
joseph: Never mind about it. I already forget about it. And anyway, the age for driving is still 18, until the next batch. Meaning 1988 onwards then 21. =) And I've always visit your blog waiting for you to update. Take care pal~ Oh yah, your medicial check up os on Thursday right? Update me hor..
lingg: Yap. I will. =)
Natalie: I WILL KILL YOU BABY!! Tomorrow upper Sec concert end at 1055.. =( So late. Tmd~


Yesterday was fun. Went out with that Bitch *loL* Planning to go study, in the end we can't stop ourselves from shopping. *haha* then we ended up shopping.. :x Take pictures, then meet Nisa chilling out at Coffee Bean. Chatted alot about school. Cause Nisa quit school..
Before Nisa meet us, we went to Metro to look for gown. *lol* I look REAL sucks in it. And Maziah even took pictures of it. *lame her* And I look REAL fUnnY!! I still think that the pink one look good with my skin! :x *lol* Then both of us keep singing that song~ 1st Ladi - Never Be Replaced. :x


After that we head to take pictures.. Hmm.. Not bad anyway. :x

And I swear that my lips touch her cheek *shY*

These are while waiting for Nisa to come..

She look funny man, cause she's missing her crush~

This is the boliao me, look sucks *lol*

Then head to Pasir Ris Park, Singa Festa. Saw Jek and "gang" on the bus. Chatted alot of craps. Then saw one of his friend who look like 16.HE IS SHUAI, TALL, CUTE. But in fact, he's only 13. I saw his Ez-link. There stated that he's 13. Born in 1991. I can't believe my eyes.. *lol*
Then I went to have my dinner with my dad, then they change place to sit, I walk there, I put my stuffs and head back to find Jek and talk crap. *lol* 2 of us were talking about SEX then the others -_______________-" Cause they're under 17. :x *muahaha*
Reach home around 1+am, shower, and chat over the phone until 2am.. And here I am typing all these craps. Alright gonna go.. =D


Headache man.. Cause I've finally get to pack my messy room! *lol*
Some pictures that I took before and after!! :x [Before is on the left, After is on the right]





Sometimes really hate packing up my room. Not because of the mess, but because of that box that I have.. Left hand side of my cupboard. No one see that box before, but me.. Used to wrote alot of stuffs during lessons or when I'm bored.. It contains alot of emotional stuffs.. *sigh*
I want to get out, get out of this house. I want to get married, get married with someone I love.. Ok whatever. Time to slack and do my art. ANOTHER BORING WEEKEND!! *BOO*


Feeling so headache noW!! -_-" No idea what's wrong with me. Maybe because I rush abit here and there ba..
My toungeeee!! So sucks, cause I've remove it, and its so damn bloody painfuL!! Until I can't endure the pains.. Not only pain, but so ma fan.. How to eat? And I talk like a duck, everyone keep laughing saying that I'm having short tounge. -.-"
Meet my precious boy this afternoon. Head home put my stuffs. He got shock when I carried the big BIG bag, its damn BIG! That's what I can say.. Can actually put my craft, my boards, my file, my everything.. =P We went to Bugis, bought my art stuffs, met William. Talk cock, shop shop.. AND THEY JUST KNOW EACH OTHER AND BOTH OF THEM ARE BULLYING ME!! *CRIES* Anyway, William left at around 4+ cause he's heading town to meet his friend.
As for both of us, head back to Pasir Ris. Cause I've to go for night class so does he.. Then we took MRT to Bedok, and took 17 back home. -_-" He so boliao de.. =X I nearly doze off man. I really very tired, when I was about to sleep, he talk to me. Haha, but in the end also never sleep..
Reach Pasir Ris meet my sister, head to mac, sit down. AWHILE only, then we left. What the helL? Didn't even order any food to eat, she's there complaning and stuffs.. -_-" And on the way home, planning to go back to school, SMS flooded said that school closing at 1830. Is not I didn't want to study, is just that school CLOSED.. *boo*
Hmmm.. Actually tomorrow morning planning to go play badminton with KaiSheng, Darren, Izwan, Johnathan, Chan and Ong. They tried to book the court at Tampines, but got event going on during noon, so we can't book it. Next they tried Pasir Ris. But fully book! Hello!? Its 7am in the morning and its TOTALLY BOOK! @&^#&*&#*^&@# *lOL* But good what, can sleep more.
*Sians* Tomorrow saturday.. Still thinking want to pei him go play tennis anot leh.. With his uncle leh.. =l I don't know how to play leh. :x
Just meet MaySze.. Haha, she's a very cute girl.. =D Nice, i mean someone nice to chat with. I think after period gonna go her house there and SWIM! Sit down, nua nua an hour or so.. Then left le..

*tagboard*
sAm: Hey, I've remove it le.. SO pain!! *cries* I should have believe in you and not to be VAIN to pierce! =(
Natalie: Haha, still having a hard time to find my bloG? *loL*


Feeling so hungry right now. Haha.. =X
Yesterday just pierce my tounge.. Thanks Kelvin. *lol* I guess those who don't like piercing might consider taking knifes and chase him. Haha, he help me pierce during free period which is English. Took less then 5 mins to get it it. *lol* actually not pain at all de..
I think belly is more pain. Haha, cause I took around 1/2 hour to get it pierce my belly... Hmm.. Everyone in class especially MRS SIM laugh at me.. =( The way I talk. Cause I can't pronouce S -______-" Make me feel so funny right now.. Haven't even enlarge the thing. Cause I'm lazy and hungry. :x Puting thumb nail.. =D
Yesterday went to eat the 7th month thing. Wah, eat till half raining.. *Sians* The food sucks lor. All always chicken. Hahaz, is it because now got bird flu, that's why all chicken? So that when chicken ran out, we've the memorable of it..? *lol*
My smile is never wipe of since morning.. *hugs andy* thanks for that..
The very tired face of miine. Taken some days back during night class..

Take yesterday at the dinner.. My sister block it, but I think it's nice taken.. =D

And this is my tounge.. Haha..

Extra one.. ACT CUTE!! *lol*


*tagboard*
hunnie: I so worried.. I thought you don't want me le.. But the moment I saw your tag, I really smile.. *phew*
Rodneyy: Haha, is not the first time you know. I don't teach blog. =P
bubu: Haha, nice one lah sista.. =D


Just came back from school.. Oral.. English. Can you imaging that I was the last person? Which leave the hall at around 1700? And sat there since 1430. Lucky I fall asleep. :x I'm really very tired.. :x
During English, everyone seems to be complaing with the best we can about the Physics teacher. And the things that we don't know was actually that was the ass Principal idea. *damn him* Everyone complain, but he's just too much. For the past 7months, he only teach 3topics? Short topics, and for no reason, throw us a stack of worksheet, and wanted us to complete it by the weekend. *Damn him*
Seriously, he's the most sucky teacher I've ever encounter. Is not that he didn't teach us, just that I'm piss off because he act like Dr. Ernest Wong. The guy who I went for SuperTeen early this year. Keep pushing us, forcing us to face the wall.. Damn him! I'm not refering to Dr. Ernest Wong. He used the wrong way man.. __
Anyway, oral.. *sigh* kinda ok to me. Haha, the passage was acutally about blindfold. The entertainer blindfold and he was acutally blind. And a kid ask him why, he said that he want people to concentrate on what he was performing rather then staring at him..
Picture.. *buang man* The main focus was actually a guy who was about to fall or to step onto a pack of water on the ground, with some balls on his hands. Then the background is SENTOSA!! *lol* I recongise it.. :x
And then, the conversation.. *muhaha* I think I do well, cause is about beach!! xD the question was actually telling them about spending a day at beach.. Then I told them about recent one. Sentosa.. Then the next question was, what plan you make on that day that doesn't go well.[Related to qns 1] Of course blame the stupid weather. Ha.. Cause it rain? Hmmm.. I guess I should be able to do well!! =P Cause I feel that way? *lol*
Oh yah, got back my Maths Mock paper 1.. I got 48/73.. Which was actually a B3.. Some careless mistake!! *BISH* Paper 2 here I come!! *lols* crapS~ Alright, gonna shower and prepare to go back to school..

An article that I saw at ChilliCrap.. :x
I'll be there: If you have ever had to call a friend in the middle of the night, to take a sick child to hospital, or when your car has broken down some miles from home, you will know how good it feels to hear the phrase "I'll be there." Being there for another person is the greatest gift we can give. When we're truly present for other people, important things happen to them & us. We are renewed in love and friendship. We are restored emotionally and spiritually. Being there is at the very core of civility.

I miss you: Perhaps more marriages could be saved & strengthened if couples simply & sincerely say to each other "I miss you." This powerful affirmation tells partners they are wanted, needed, desired & loved. Consider how ecstatic you would feel, if you received an unexpected phone call from your spouse in the middle of your workday, just to say "I miss you."

I respect you: Respect is another way of showing love. Respect conveys the feeling that another person is a true equal. If you talk to your children as if they were adults you will strengthen the bonds & become close friends. This applies to all interpersonal relationships.

Maybe you're right: This phrase is highly effective in diffusing an argument and restoring frayed emotions. The flip side to "maybe you're right" is the humility of admitting may be "I'm wrong". Let's face it. When you have a heated argument with someone, all you do is cement the other person's point of view. They, or you, will not change their stance and you run the risk of seriously damaging the relationship between you. Saying "maybe you're right" can open the door to further explore the subject, in which you may then have the opportunity to get your view across in a more rational manner.

Please forgive me: Many broken relationships could be restored and healed if people would admit their mistakes and ask for forgiveness. All of us are vulnerable to faults and failures. A man should never be ashamed to own up that he has been in the wrong, which is saying, in other words, that he is wiser today than he was yesterday.

Let me help: The best of friends see a need and try to fill it. When they spot a hurt they do what they can to heal it. Without being asked, they pitch in and help.

I thank you: Gratitude is an exquisite form of courtesy. People who enjoy the companionship of good, close friends are those who don't take daily courtesies for granted. They are quick to thank their friends for their many expressions of kindness. On the other hand, people whose circle of friends is severely constricted often do not have the attitude of gratitude.

Count on me: A friend is one who walks in when others walk out. Loyalty is an essential ingredient for true friendship; it is the emotional glue that bonds people. Those that are rich in their relationships tend to be steady and true friends. When troubles come, a good friend is there indicating "you can count on me."

I understand you: People become closer and enjoy each other more if they feel the other person accepts and understands them. Letting your spouse know in so many little ways that you understand them, is one of the most powerful tools for healing relationship. This applies to any relationship.

Go for it: We are all unique individuals. Don't try to get your friends to conform to your ideals. Support them in pursuing their interests, no matter how weird they seem to you. Everyone has dreams, dreams that are unique to that person only. Support and encourage your friends to follow their dreams. Tell them to "go for it."

I love you: Perhaps the most important three words that you can say. Telling someone that you truly love them satisfies a person's deepest emotional needs - the need to belong, to feel appreciated and to be wanted. Your spouse, your children, your friends and you, all need to hear those three little words "I love you."

And now, the most important of ALL three little words ...GOD BLESS YOU!
lastly . . . I need You . .

I'm not a perfect person, as many things I wish I didn't do. But I continue learning. I never meant to do those things to you, and so I have to say before I go. I just want you to know, I found a reason for me. To change who I used to be. A reason to start all over new, and the reason is you.


Hmm.. Yesterday all the teachers were having PMS eh? Just assignment didn't do, screaming and yelling at us.. *Sians* The first period was actually Maths. He gave 2 worksheet, but I only manage to do 1. :x And who knows that the one I didn't do, he actually check it.. -_-" Can you imaging how suay am I?
After that was Physics.. -_-" Another lecture session.. He said those who didn't complete it or didn't bring or whatever bull shit you have, get out of the class.. Hahaz, only left 2 classmates in class. 1 is expected one.. Dong Hui. Cause his physics is PRO, and he look and do, just like writting essay like that.. Then Marcus was because he was absent from school..
Hmmm... School like that lor.. =/ After school head home.. Nua awhile, planning to sleep, then bubu ask me to go TM with her.. So I accompany her.. Went to TM, bought her CD, took cab down to Bedok, return my books WHICH ARE OVER DUE -_-" Then head back to TM again just to take pictures. *haha*

Then William came down.. Took pictures again. :x

*lols* GF = Good Friend, BF = Best friend. Don't get misunderstood k? :x Then we walk around TM, looking for stuffs to eat.. Then we went to CS to eat Billy Bomber. Ok, the service is great. But the food.. Errr... No comment.. *lols* Then went to buy boxer with him. Wah piang eh.. Ask me choose. Of course choose white. :x With the word "please" all over the boxer.. Haha, lame him!!
Shop for gown.. Hmmm.. $119. Reasonable price.. Is buy, not rent. Anyway, silver and black.. The other colors are like baby blue? and Pink? Haha, not my type.. I think doesn't suit me too.. =D Can't wait for prom man!! 30Nov~ Hurry come~~ :x
By the time we left Tampines was around 8++ then I head back to school was around 830pm.. Didn't study at all.. Went to accompany Izwan to smoke, sit down, talk cock.. Talk alot of things about Love and Relationship? Yah, I then realise what Marc said is true, cause Izwan also agree with him. "loving someone alot isn't everything in relationship."
They are right, really right.. =) Finally I learn about what Marc said to me. Hahaz, he is he, me is me.. We have no relationship at all.. Get on with my life. Find a new guy that willingly to be mine.. *lols* crapping here..
Anyway taken some pictures from John's GD88..
Kelvin and Me. Haha, he's hugging me. Cause we saw John's wallpaper.. He hugging his GF. Then in the end Kelvin and I disturb him. Then set this picture as wallpaper. *lols*

Ong and me..

Fazil and me.. First time take picture with him after 4years of classmates. :x


*Tagboard*
Hunnie: I miss you alot.. You working, you've no time for me.. ='( Hunnie, I miss you alot!!!
maysze: Yeah, take care too girl.. =D
bubu: Hur hur, I saw the pictures.. I've upload too.. Anyway, I saw this skin before we went out yesterday. Then when I reach home, I change awhile then sleep. :x
lingg: Haha, she's just some ass? :x *OopS* Who doesn't have a nice pair of eyes.. *damn her*

Ok, kinda tired.. Nap nap awhile ba.. ^^v
hao xiang hao hao ai yi ge ren..

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