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ramblings of a young adult

about 6 more hours to PROM!!!!!!!! OMG I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Well, saw something funny.. Hunnie and me can't stop laughing when we're talking about.. *lols* look like someone said "you dont come my blog, i don't go your blog" or whatever shit, but look like he/she keep replying what i type here at her/his blog? *lols*
brainless or too narrow minded? Whaha.. You don't care why still read my blog and answer what I type? Omg.. You're trying to confuse me man.. *shake head* if you guys want the link of the person, feel free to find me alright.. *lols* i can't stop laughing man..
like what you say, everyone remember me by my teeth? good right? everyone remember that there is this girl without a straight teeth name call "EBEL" well, i always have a good impression on you AH LIAN. *lols* back in school, everyone told me that upper sec class got 1 guai lan kia. Now I know who.. *lols* was wondering why you're attach? maybe you're good in sex? *oops* who cares anyway..
i always think that you're someone nice.. back then people keep telling me that you sucks. now i know why. because your attitude SUCKS. Oops. did i say anything bad again? i think i did.. no one is perfect in the world. if you think you're perfect, maybe you should ask your surrounding friends.. oh well.. who cares, FUCK OFF alright? =]

I can't help it, this song is just so nice...!

LoneStar - Amazed

Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spent the whole night in your eyes

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

Bought everything within $50. =D How wonderful.. *lols* So tomorrow be a busy day for me after 3pm I guess. Anything just give me a call. But the bad thing is tomorrow is TUESDAY!! No where to go after that.. -.-~ Anyway, counting down to PROM NIGHT!!!!!


Finally!! Tomorrow is PROM NIGHT!! Wait for that day for a very very very very very very long time.. *run around*
Later be doing last minute shopping.. Gonna buy some nail polish[my house one for fair skin *blame myself*], foundation[my house one for fair skin again *blame myself again*].. So yah, gonna do some shopping later.. -.-~ Gosh, wallet open one big hole again. This time borrowed money from mum, can't wait to start work.. Can't wait for cash to flow in my pocket.. Wah.. The feelings so great. *lols*

*tagboard*
Sam: Haha.. You're right.. Just a kid anyway.. Older then me still make those childish comments.. *pweh* lucky not my close friend. Why must I care? But I believe that my close friends won't do this type of thing hor? Sam?
joyce.joyce: Long time since you step in. This time your nick no big small big small? *lols* Maybe I should continue to type more about myself rather then some idiot out there.. =]
sweetiehun: I don't mind coming out to talk, but I think that person out there just like some humji kias.. Or maybe she call her DAR out.. Wah so scared.. -_-~ And hunnie, I think I should just drop the topic, because like what Samuel said, not mature enough, so yah.. You get me? *lols* Hunnie, glad to have you by my side.. Oh man, maybe she's just jealous about it.. Meaning, she doesn't have female or male friends that call her darlings, hunnies, whatever.. Ok maybe I should shut up. =X
J Ying: Like what I say, My sister + myself comfirm going.. Now I think what time + where the most important thing.. So yah, comfirm already bug on my phone!!
alan: Thanks a million kor! Lucky we didn't meet up that day.. Haha.. *boo at my brother friend* Took the BACKSTAGE PASS AND RUN AWAY!!! *scream*
summotay: Oh.. Now I understand how you feel... *sigh* That's life man. Some bitches/bastards just trying to make our life more "colorful" *lols* Anyway, see you at prom!!
bubu: Nah, I shall let the matter rest. Just some pest that make my life more sucks. *yucks*


Change back to the previous tagboard.. I prefer this rather then the old one.. Alright..

Damn the bitch out there? Haha.. Loser.. You're right, you don't even know any single thing about tagboard. So just shut up alright? I might be some bitch or slut out there.. But I ain't that fuck enough to do those things to break the friendship. Check out with my friends or even Bubu? And thanks for the nick you gave. =] Too bad, someone already gave me that nick.. Maybe you can think of a new one to give me? people call me bitch, slut, whatever before. but i aint those type of bastard whereby will snatch my friend's BF.. But hey, maybe you can look at your bf.. he ain't that type i will cry my heart out for.. *lols* or pour my love at.. he just make my hair stands..
sorry to be so straight forward, i can't help it, i just wanna say whatever out.. *lols* if i sound ain't nice, maybe that what your deserve, i cant help it too. you're the one who make me pissed, but i aint gonna scream or yell at you. perhaps maybe you're my senior from my school? or maybe you're too dumb for me to scold? *lols* oops.. sound bad i guess.. but who cares right now? you're the one who start all these craps here, why must i be the one who apologise? if you want me to shut up, you should be the one apologising..? lalala~
next time please dont assume alright moron? maybe like what you say, you're too dumb in blogging.. i should forgive you? hmmm... should i? should i not?


So bored.. Actually got ticket to Jay's concert. But YM can't locate his friends. So I stay at home nua till now. No one at home now.. What I planned to do, I already done.. Mop floor, vacumm floor, clean + pack my room.. Already done.. Just so bored..
Next week Sentosa already comfirm with cousins. But no idea what time to meet or meet at where.. -.-" Look like everyone seems to be out today.. MSN is rather bored + quiet. -_-~ Help! SO BORED..! Didn't plan to go out today.. Realise that I've a week didn't stay at home.. Always head out and slack with friends.. But *sigh* never mind.. Have tones of VCD waiting for me to watch. Some already have dust on them.. *lols* my mum rent those VCD.. been putting them since before O level.. Lalala~
Was so bored until I read my past post.. My acheivements. The past, my memories. Every single thing I do, I wrote, the way I react.. Maybe shouldn't be the way.. I learn, I cry, how much I hate myself for having those attitude reactions and stuffs.. maybe that's really what i deserve right now.. those hurts and pains.. *sigh* tagboard always flooded with those envy look.. but not now.. look like things go wrong, and i shouldn't be the way i want to be..
*sigh* doesn't know how to continue.. maybe i should do some soul searching..

PS: I know who the fuck is that asshole being tagging at my board. don't be so childish alright? or maybe i should say you're brain are small? tagboard will only give you uncomplete IP. which means all SCV user are having the same IP. example: 202.156.2.* can you see that there is a * there? [if you don't believe please click onto your own tagboard whoever that use SCV] which means they doesn't give you any FULL IP! stop thinking that i'm that asshole who tag at your board. PLEASE GROW UP AND DO SOME THINKING BEFORE YOU THINK I'M THE ONE WHO TAG AT YOUR BOARD. so what if i'm single? i don't care who the hell is your bf. i don't think your BF is cute or handsome enough that melts my heart or whatever shit.. who cares about breaking you up? ph.. please shut up, and fuck off alright?


Alright, yesterday was fun.. Went to Sentosa with Karen, Qing Qing, Sharon and her BF. So total there are 5 of us. But in the end, Lester came along, Sharon's BF,Kelvin's friends came along. So total there are dont know how many of us. And it rain. -_-~ That sucks. So in the end we came up around 2pm plus if I not wrong.. Walk around Sentosa as usual..

Came out of Sentosa, reach Marina Bay at around 515pm.. Jie Mei was there waiting for us. Hardly can recongise her.. So total 6 of us sitting down chatting and slacking. Talk about the past.. *lols* find it so silly by talking about it. Remember how childish we were and complains about teachers and stuffs..

Bradon came along with Jia Fang, Victoria, ShengYong[Daniel]. So total 10 of us.. Head towards bus stop. guess what? i saw my xiao shuai shuai~ *faints* he called me, I don't even recongise him at all.. its like a few days didnt see him? *lols* too cute, i cant resist. help!!! Alot of things to chat about. The past, the sucky 6 years of primary school life, the 4-5 years in secondary school.. and poly, jc, ite.. the conversation go on and on... so much fun we have..

Then we took photos, head back home.. But it was only 9+ when we reach Marina bay MRT station. trying to recall more back memories, plan to play primary school games. *lols* but in the end, we sit down play true or dare.. well, at least we know some crush here crush there those type of things that some of us being hide in the dark.. haha.. see how they change in their life.. wow. i love the outing very much.. glad that they enjoy it.. =]

well, today is a real sucky day. woke up at around 12pm i guess.. very tired. =( and went out.. went to Loyang ta be gong for some praying.. and head toward bedok.. to pai my grandpas + san yi.. then head back to my dad place.. met up with my cousin, came home around 5+ pm.. guess what? SLEEP!! *lols* till around 7pm.. then watch tv all the way till 9pm.. Was out for dinner.. at changi village. waiting for my stupid brother to book out. but waited till around 11pm then came out. -.-" so long. i hate to wait..


Whoever that went tagging at my board, please grow up. if you're not happy with the way i am, i suggest you should just SHUT THE FUCK UP. mind your own business. its my blog, my life. why you care so much about what i type? dont give me those bull shit name. like i say, its my blog. why care so much about what i type? who i miss? who i love? you've nothing to do? please find yourself so activites to kill your time.. if you're bored, i cant help it.. *lols* stop tagging and my board, and fuck off? =] if you're looking for problem, please be that DARING enough to put your shameless name down. what a bitch or whatever bastard.. *yawns* loser!

Every day reminisce with the past, of a love that we thought would last. How we used to be when it was you and me? How did it all disappear so fast? There are days that I can't forget, there are things that I now regret. I was there for you when you were there for me.. And I was thinking we were set, I hear your voice going round my in my head think of all the things I could have done and all those things I could have said I really will make it up to you.. I know now what I've got to do, it took time but now I've realised how much I'm missing you..

Was out the whole day with my primary school friends. is like most of them didnt meet for about 4years.. wow.. manage to contact more then 10.. but sad, the outing only 9 of us turn up.. =( so yah, went to sentosa this morning, then to marina bay for steamboat.. so tired now, here are the pictures..(going in details later)

Sentosa
Karen, QingQing, Sharon, myself[on the way to Marina Bay]











Was having dinner half way, I snap some photos.



Its a girl thing.. *lols* [Jie Mei, Karen, Sharon, Myself, Victoria, Qing Qing and Jia Fang]







Group pictures.. Total there are 10 of us.. But 1 from other school. That's Sharon BF.. But all the pictures, I didn't see him at all.. -.-"




Some extras pictures taken..
Me & Victoria

Me & Jia Fang


Bradon & Daniel[look like he's really interested with Daniel's middle finger]

Some zi lian wang..

There I go again..





Went over to ChinaTown for interview.. Took 3 to Pungol to take NE line. I wait for 89, but 3 came first. The journey seems so short, but memories flooded back.. I've no idea why I start to cry.. Cry over what? I also have no idea.. The tears just keep rolling down.. Maybe because the memories are so sweet that I cant afford to lose..

Met up with Samuel at Bugis. The first impression was like "are you ok?" I aint alright.. Just because of the mood swing.. Just because the memories flooded back.. The interview screw up because I didnt talk much.. Went back to Adecco to look for the staffs that I used to know. But when both of us went in, look like none of them we know.. -_-~ So in the end fill up the form and stay awhile for interview and head home..

Giordano just called.. I'm selected for the job.. Briefing will be on 6th Dec. Mean while I guess I will slack. Tomorrow be going Sentosa with my Primary school friends. A long time since I've seen them, night time be at Marina Bay for dinner.. Did I say I'm on diet? Its a week.. I avoid fry food, oily food.. Having a slice of bread in the morning, noon time only some rice/mee.. Night time only 1/2 the bowl of rice. So tomorrow I've no idea how.. *sigh* don't ask me why I'm on diet. Its my mum suggested cause she saw my tights.. She claims I'm fat.. Hope that I can endure the hunger.. I'm fainting soon.. I'm hungry yet I walk around to look for you.. But in the end, I only disappoint myself.. <3 you deeply and truly from my heart..

Jay Zhou - Jie Kou.. [Translation (Seems broken but took from web)]

Flipping through our photographs

Thoughts of you are visible yet invisible

Last year's winter, we laughed very sweetly

Watching your tearstained face, telling me goodbye

I have yet to hear it when you've already walked so far

Perhaps you have already given up on me

Perhaps it is already very difficult to turn back

I know it's all my fault, please give me another reason

Say you don't love me

Even if I don't understand, can you forgive me?

Please don't use parting breakup as your request

I know wanting to go is your wound's excuse

Can you please turn back

I will accompany you until the very end

Even if there is no conclusion

I can still endure

I know your pain is the promise I gave

You said you gave me tolerance

and silence was because of acceptance

If you want to go, please remember me

If you feel sad, please forget me


The picture as promise.. Anyway, look blur. Cause the orginal picture is small -_____________________-" He's much more cuter then on TV so if you think he look cute on TV, well, when you see him in real person, you gonna "WAH! SO CUTE!!!" Alright, i'll shut up...



Another day gone.. Planned to stay at home and rest or perhaps SLACK. but look like everyone out.. so decided to go out.. called my primary school friend out.. just nice she's at town, so decided to drop by..
met her up at ps.. slack there. watch "the forgotten" i think its nice.. but in the end, most of my friends say not nice. -.-" ok whatever.. den walk all the way to hmv to slack again. -_-" saw jean danker and daniel ong.. haha, she's like shock of her life when i say "eh i saw jean danker and daniel ong leh" then she's like "har? na li?" then she look around.. *lols*
took prints.. and be posted later.. so walk around cine.. feeling hungry, walk towards cine to eat. was sitting at LJS.. near the doorway.. i was facing out.. guess what? I SAW SLY!! FROM SINGAPORE IDOL!! OMG! My reaction was like "EH SLY LEH!!" then she again "HAR NA LI!?" then i point out.. she look out.. the surrounding table look like can hear me. =X everyone seems to be looking out.. haha..
den we're discussing about to go out to take pictures anot.. haha.. in the end both of us agree to finish our food first then say.. *lols* lucky sly didn't go off.. =D And after our food, in the open air of LJS seems to be kinda crowded.. everyone know his location.. so, yah.. everyone was out there.. hmmm.. i've no idea what really happen when one of the girl cry.. i suppose its his fans. cry when saw him in real person? wth? *lols*
den he apologise to me about the delay.. LOL!! I was like "erm, its alright" omg~ he smell nice, his smile melts my heart.. omg~ but he aint tall.. =X i took the pic, i think he's around my height. which is around 1.67m? the most i think he's 1.7m ba? i'm not really into him, but just that i like him.. omg, what am i talking?
my skin are so damn dry. i've no idea why.. gonna avoid the sun.. going for some interview later.. have to reach chinatown by 3pm. sigh. just hope be able to get the job. didn't inform fila the changing of HP no. but i think mostly not gonna get the job. the person seems ain't interested with it.. ok who cares? i aint that sucks by right, so maybe jobs out there need me.. if really cant find work, the most at home slack and survive with my pocket money.. if really very jia lat, then go work with sam lor.. or maybe some low pay job. like wild wild wet? by then my color will be fading off.. and the people there comfirm laugh at me for making the wet pass.. ok whatever..
and did i say i went to metro for interview? the pay sucks. that's all i gonna say. $810? fuck.. after dec which mean on 1st jan 05, gonna cut CPF.. 20% which means you only bring home like $600 per month? alright, that sucks to the extream. working hours is damn long, pay is so damn little, rules are fucking strict. it sucks..... maybe i shouldnt complain..
*sigh* feel so tired.. tired of everything i guess.. wanna give up.. give up on what? i've no idea.. gonna remove all the piercing i have.. soon.. gonna smile and move on with my life.. shouldnt have sms u my new no.. just like me perish in your life.. in order to move on, i deleted your hp no.. i've no idea why.. dont ask me why. i just aint myself recently.. i give up everything including putting hopes that you gonna turn back.. darling, you're gone. yes i know.. ain't a silly girl anymore.. give me time, and i shall forget you like what you want me to do.. maybe we should't have start this relationship right from the start.. *sigh*
anyway, here's the picture taken with my friend.. first time written my name in chinese..

sly picture will upload later or what.. i not using color phone, dont forget. gonna get x500 soon. but sam say it sucks. cam really sucks. but now, still thinking.. *sigh* i'm craving for that!! alright, he gonna give me discount. maybe i can pay by installment? LOL!! the most take phone and run.. ok who cares. maybe he be chopping me off, den rape me.. if not, rape me den kill me. but i told him that i wanna die of being a virgin. haha, den he say gonnaa kill me first den rape me. but i say i dun wan to bleed. cause die liao not nice.. then he bth, dont know what to say. i feel like talking some singlish here. who cares? i'm tired like HELL! and i feel so fuck up.. just because of YOU!



**Note changing of HP no.** My m1 line is in use now.. So yah, number change.. 93622236. 24hour free incoming.. Don't call me when I'm sleeping, I swear I will skin you. =]
Sometimes, just wonder why am I so stupid.. Stupid of still clinging onto you. Like some FOC stuffs like that. *sigh* Wonder why am I still clinging onto someone who doesn't appreciate me, appreciate my loves for you. *sigh* maybe all i have to do is to let go.. forget every single thing. lead on with me new life, my new destiny...
or perhaps we didnt get any blessing from God above.. bless us will be stay together till eternity, bless us with loves and cares.. i think He trying to give me the best in my life.. maybe you're not the best for me, thats why He didnt give us any blessing for us.. maybe that's heaven will....
dont you know your on/off mode make me feel so tired? i feel like meeting you up, giving you one slap right at your face.. stop giving with me those "i-love-you-feelings" if you just wanna be friends...... shut up and leave my life!!!!!!
be slacking today.. everything seems to be not my way.. staying at home instead of going out.. anything just call me.. just bored. SG is so small, there's nothing much i can do without having money in my pocket...
got the invition from james.. 2nd dec be going over to fishermen village.. everything is on him.. a small gathering i suppose.. ladies are free.. so nice of him. free flow of drinks/beers/food. i guess i will be drunk on that day.. well, its a small gathering for us. cause he left gvss and now trying to gather his friends around.. well.. whatever.. gonna get my ass there not for the beers or what, just because 4words. "i miss my friend" =]
well, away for now.. anything just call me.. i think starhub line still in use.. so any number can reach me. don't call my house for those who have. lazy to walk towards it and answer. =]


A really very tired day for me.. Woke up at 645 to prepare to go to school for my last paper. Reach home, slack around, planned to sleep at around 11am, but someone called.. So in the end, didn't get to sleep.. Went to look for jobs..
Went to a couple of places, in fact most of the time we're walking.. So hell tired, my leg going to break soon.. Was slacking at Sim Lim. Thought I saw you. My eyes keep looking down the floor to look at you.. My heart beats faster and faster the moment you get closer.. But in the end I realise I saw the wrong person.. The guy look like the way you are.. Just feeling so damn disappointed.. Really disappointed..
*sigh* i'm tired.. dont feel like blogging..


YESH! FINALLY EVERYTHING IS OVER!! *RUN AROUND*
O level are over!! Gonna step into the next stage of life.. Either Shatec or Poly.. Anyway, job hunting now!!! =D My mood is damn happy now.. Months of struggling + pains while preparing for O level. Finally I've let everything thrown out of my life!!! Not gonna wear uniform ANYMORE!!!
I thought that I'm the only one who walk around the school with spray hair. But I didn't know tons of my classmates are doing that.. Haha.. Everyone seems to be bo chup even though part of the hair are red/gold. *lols* Ain't gonna care about anything out there anymore. Books, files, worksheets, uniform all are out of my cupboards!
Well, gonna get my hair highlight later. Be going to my aunt place. Since she suggested to me of letting her highlight. To make sure that she still be able to pass her hair dressing skills.. Her sons + husband hair totally can't dye.. Haha.. So I gonna be her model of the day? *lols* Just hope that everything turns out well. If not, gonna get my ass to saloon to dye.. -.-~
Anyway, Fila Interview was like SHIT. =X The interview time was around 1430 - 1700. But when I reach around 1500, no one was there? And its so empty. I'm refering to peoplpe who plan to work there.. Till now, I still didn't get any calls from them. I think mostly gone case? *lols* not really very keen to work there although that's my favourite brand + one shuai shuai work at TM outlet. *lols* Then XinDai seems to be very excited about it. Haha.. She say that "Wah, ni you ji hui he ni de shuai shuai yi qi gong zuo le wor.." *lols* Silly girl...
Well, another interview on Wednesday. Guess what? Its adidass.. Haha.. This job lobang is from my sister.. not really very keen with working about it. Not really into adidass.. Well, give it a try then.. I guess they gonna reject a girl with red hairs. *LOLS*
Prom is coming..!! WEE!! Very excited about it!! Gonna see the guy with the damn nice smile~ *lols* Ricardo~ =X *oops* I think I just expose out his name..
Feel so much independent recently. Look like no one called in the night. Except some idiots who called and ask "Eh, tomorrow paper what time har?" *lols* Well, no one makes me feel sleepy, makes me feel like saying good night to you.. I'm all alone.. I think I gonna be much more happy in this way.. I guess.. And I hope.. Everything seems to be out of the way I wanna things to turn out to be. But who cares right now? He/She don't even bother to SMS me.. Why did I put too much hope in hoping she/he be calling me at night? Oh well...
Gonna get some sleep now.. Didn't sleep well last night.. =] Night all.. Update once I feel like updating..


Realise that recently doesn't really blog much. I mean talk in details..
Yesterday went Wild Wild Wet. Have a great time there..! Know more people there[as in those people working there].. There's one girl who work there pissed me off. *scream* shall not go in details... Well, one of the lamest thing I did was, I pull one of the staff there to get down the slide, after around 4 times of trying, I still fail.. But I mange to get the pail there and splash him with tons of water. When I return them the pail, *cries* I get more then how much I splash on him.. -.-~
Then reach the bottom of ulah lah[that's the 6person rides in case you've no idea] I pull down the life-guard pants.. Then he say: "Oei, I never wear anything inside lah.." I was like *LOL* I feel like pulling it out man, make him ma-lu.. *lols*
I went home after that, thanks XinDai Hunnie for the long accomany.. =] *huggies* She tag me along for movies + dinner.. I so paiseh to join Nelson and her. Afterall, I've no idea how many times I'm a light bulb in between them.. =X So I head home for my dinner and went back to DownTown East again..
Reach there, was about to enter the enterance of the chalet, some idiots shout "CHAR BO!!" I turn back, it was the lifeguard who works there.. -.-" Everyone seems to be looking at us. So paiseh!! omG~ =x
Reach the chalet, it was so hell bored for the first 2hours.. Imaging I'm sitting there, listening to them talking. Somemore I'm the youngest there.. =( Kelvin is 23 this year, and his friends are his classmates. So the girls out there youngest is 20.. Oldest hit up to 26.. Feeling so extra? Haha..
But still ok, after going in the room, watch 9pm show till 10, then the room left me.. -.-" I walk out, Kelvin call for me. I walk towards him, saw 2 guys. I was like *open eyes big big* Not shuai. Relax. *lols* So ex-bengs I guess..
Sitted there, they joke around. I swear he tried his best to make me laugh.. Have a great laugh I swear.. =] Nice knowing him and his friend.. The nicest thing was that they know me in net. -.-" I don't even recall about who are they actually.. =X *some sorry here* He even predict me that 5 years down the road, I be some random wild girl + chiongster. I was like "erm? sir, are you sure?" Well, we shall see.. Haha.. They are nice people...
He has tattoo, and Kelvin told me that there are dragon in his body I told him that " so? Tattoo is an art to me, and piercing is a form of attitude" Haha, then that fellow was like "wah, xiaomei, I like you oh.." *shY*
Ok, shall stop all the craps here.. Anyway, get myself a new tagboard. The old one seems to be down at all times.. No idea why.. So yah, here it is.. =] Right hand side as usual..


That's yesterday color. I'm mad, i went to dye again. oh my god! this time really very red.. hahha.. =x Before..

After..


Can someone tell me how to take science paper 1 on monday??


Something that makes me ponder…

There was this girl who loved two guys at the same time but she didn't know which one she loved more. Someone taught her. Ask yourself this question and answer it honestly: "When you are happy, which guy would you want to share your happiness with?" The one you think of is someone you love. Ask yourself another question and answer it honestly: "When you are sad, which guy you want to share your burden with?" The one you think of is also someone you love. If you think of the same guy when you are happy and sad, that's the most perfect. But if you don't think of the same guy, I would advise you to choose the one you are willing to share your sadness with.

In life, there are more sorrows than happiness. There are too many people that you meet that you can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover. If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone. In sadness, however, there are not many people
willing to share your burden with you. If you are willing to tell someone your happiness, I am sure that person has got to be someone close and understanding person to you. But it shouldn't stop there. If that person only thinks of you when he is happy, but looks for someone else when he is sad, this lover is too unstable; he doesn't treat you as someone he can spend the rest of his life with. Of course, I will be very happy if I am the first person to share his happiness. But, if he is sad, I will be too willing to stay by his side and ease her pain. Only then, will I believe that I hold a very important position in his heart. If you are sad, who comes to your mind first?


Hahahahha!! I get my hair dye!! Its RED!? OMG!!~~ Gonna do some highlighting next week. After my Science paper straight! =D





I'm tired, so yah.. Oh yeah, I miss happy fish today..!! *scream* This color look nic? I need comments PLEASE!!!

I'm so tired now.. *sigh* been doing art the whole day. Cause tomorrow art paper? *lols*

Anyway, if I'm not wrong, tomorrow will be going over to Compass Point to change sim card + change number.. Will be using m1.. Cause I wanna use my late grandpa's number.. Just to tell myself or everyone how much we miss him.. :x

Yah, then be going to WWW on Thursday.. But wait a minute, Hunnie ask me go Sentosa on Wednesday!? OMG! How!? I think she will be understanding enough.. =D So gonna drag her to accompany me to find job! *jumps around*

Yeah, I gonna step into working life. I'm sure I gonna enjoy! The fun of having money at the pocket. Buy whatever fuck in the world. Wow.. How great. *lols* At TM Fila shop saw the note about hiring people and stuffs.. Just feel like giving it a try.. And Sembawang Music Store, Yap yap.. Bryan kor gonna bring me to go for interview..

Yah, just hope everything will turn out fine.. Still thinking if happen both job that accept me, still thinking which job to take up? Hmm.. Ok I'll shut up..! Yesh, tomorrow last 2 papers!! *run around* I doubt MCQ for science must study? Haha.. That's basic, I think mostly I be job hunting for a period of time then get my ass to sit down and study.. =D

So how's my VCH yesterday? *lOL* So bored! And the people sitting behind us was like so hell noisy.. Ended up William turn behind and say: "Excuese me don't mind just lower down the volume" *LOL* The kids just shut up and sit still.. :x

Muhahah.. Then we went to Bugis for our dinner.. *Got photos taken, but lazy to upload* Where else but Pastaminia again?*LOL* We're crazy.. Having 2 days of Pasta in a row.. Haha.. I just enjoy going out with William, so much fun!! He really makes me laugh!!

Ok I'm tired, I suppose I gonna sleep now.. Night people.. *missing ya* -oopS-

well, all i can say is that yesterday was a sucky day.. aint my day. everything just fuc* up with me..
went out with william for dinner yesterday. pasta again. went to play archard, a million years since i've step in. Went to play some lame games like Time Crisis 2? omG.. And J park.. -.-"
Then straight away go for dinner.. Eat oven bake pasta, then nua again at TM.. walk pass fila shop.. see the advertiment that they're hiring people. feel like giving it a try..
and shit william. giving me those short-tongue talking. -.-" i cant talk well, and he's making fun of me.. *argh* =S reach home around 11, i'm hell tired, but stay up till 2am.. chatting with primary school friends..
ended up asking them the outing they're going anot? and they are giving me those "i-dunnoe-leh-see-how-first-lor" attitude. wth? i aint gonna care.. just receive sms, say wanna change the place of going. wth? peole comfirm going say wan sentosa, now giving me those shit of foing for movies?
movies is more expensive compare to sentosaaaa!!! -_-" ok whatever. aint gonna care..
blah, gonna go shower now, and going to VCH for some morons performances by my sister. ok. bye.



I can't believe it. I let emotions to bring me down.. And stop myself from doing the things that I wanted to do.. *sigh*
One of the friend I have.. I can't belive myself.. She actually choose her bf rather then this frienship. Well, suits her. Since she like it, go ahead. I ain't gonna stop her.. This thing just bring myself to tears when she actually say that.. Maybe to her, this frienship is a piece of shi* I won't give a damn about it since she's like that..
Woke up at 9am by my alarm, planned to go to school. Ended up quarreling with this friend. *sigh* I'm just totally turn off, and feel like staying at home and rot.. I don't feel like saying anything now.. Just disappointed with this friend of mine.. *sigh*
Pe sh: Thanks for dropping by.. =] Left 2 papers to go.. Jia you oh..
jOYcE.jOYcE: Yeah.. But recently food just turn me off.. =( I guess gonna be some skinny hell person..
xiAo ReN: Haha.. Thanks.. Maybe you can save typing about *stay pretty* =]
lingg: Thanks.. Elena's has it too.. Is because Zax dotes you, that's why he don't want you to pierce.. Too bad, I'm single. Oh well, who cares? *lols*
el`: Yap, hear that song before.. why?
maysze: Yeah, again.. Just out of mind again.. Maybe you can help me to think a new place to pierce? Hope that on 18th Nov will be sunny!!
wandie: Yeah, gonna link up with you.. Nice blog you have anyway.. Take care too..


Took some pictures.. Lazy to update my blog.. =x Pray hard that tomorrow I will be able to wake up for my History class.. :x



Just get my tongue done.. *lols* so nice.. bought the stud at $9.. The guy gave me some discount.. Haha, if I go back there to buy, I'm sure I get more discount.. Lalla~
I plan to start my own shop during the holidays. To work there myself.. I'm sure my parents will support me if I ask them to pumb in money for me.. I've no idea what to sell.. Maybe clothes? lala~ I don't know leh.. >.<" But I scare I cant make it.. Money leh..
Anyway, met up with Samuel to go Ikea, bought 1 photoframe.. And met up with Victoria, she went to buy some clothes for her BF and she bought herself bikini at only $25!? OMG! So cheap!! I bought mine at $47.. *cries* somemore her one is so nice..!!! *scream*
Here's my tonguE!! =X

And this is the lame Samuel.. *lols* I hope he wont kill me..

This is the boliao me doing editing of pictures..


Ok, I'm waiting for someone call.. Then I gonna sleep. Tomorrow holiday!! Yeah~ But anyway, holiday for me.. *lols* Still thinking what hair color to dye.. Anyone wanna intro or something? Gonna format my laptop.. The virus is so bullshit.. =( Everything will be gone~~ *cries* Ok shut up and good night.


Woke up by 3 calls this morning.. Not HP but house phone!! My house phone is a real horrible, that ring real loud.. >.<" First call was, "Hello, xxxx kopitiam ar?" Then my reply was "[Knn wake me up from my dreams] WRONG NUMBER LAH!!!" Then I slam down the phone.. The second call was more worst.. "Hello? ah tiang ti bo?" I getting pissed.. "Ka sa la ho bay lah.." Then the fellow go.. "Oh, paiseh hor.."

My HP is in peace but not my house call.. -.-" I still cant sleep in peace.. Maybe I can start to ignore all the phone ringing.. HP can put silence without vibration, but not house phone.. Maybe I can pluck out the wire? *lols*

Ok, so how's my paper for yesterday? Can RIP[Rest In Peace] one.. Can you believe that I've been slacking last week? And I didn't touch chemistry at all for like a month or so? *sigh~~

Well, sweetie-hunnie going clubbing with Ron tonight.. She said she will look out for cute guys for me.. *lols* I think she can save it man~ but I really appreciate what she do. Afterall, everything needs fate plus chemistry to develope~ I'm sure someone out there will be picking me up soon.. Perhaps I should just sit down and wait for he to come out..

Blah! Today is wednesday.. I forget today got history extra class at school~ lalala~~ :x

Its a long time since I've reply tagboard.. *LOL*

~Qi: Then I think set on 2nd Dec.. Since Yuki San comfirm.. Anyway, I've told Sara and YiWen about it.. They say ok.. So now is meet what time? And at where? Maybe we can chat at MSN tonight or something.. Haha.. Thanks for wishing me good luck oh.. But I hope it help!!

Sam: Everything needs fate. Since you know what she bullshit about you behind you back, why can't you just let go? It might be a better way for you and her.. Maybe she will be happier in this way.. You're a good guy I'm sure you can find a better girl out there.. =]

sharon: She's good.. Hahaz, a very good mummy.. =D

jOYcE.jOYcE: thanks oh.. =] I hope I be able to keep my figure till prom.. Having too much food recently.. *lols*

summotay: Thanks.. =]

jiaqian: Taught already.. Don't forget you owe me a lunch! :x

Melv: Sad.. There's no respond.. =( *lols*

Dark_Knight: Hey, thanks for dropping by.. I didn't know posting up at friendster will cause you to read my craps.. =D

dream: Haha, thanks again. I hope I didn't bored you..

xiaoderek: Derek, test once enough, why test twice!! >.<" And you bluff me again!! WWW!!! :x When!!! If not I gonna bite you!!

lingg: That's nice of you, making me envy at you? Haha.. Anyway, thanks.. I gonna erase those thoughts and find myself a job! =)

Boystudio: I suppose this post I've reply what you say? =P

*argh* i hate it!! everytime I get to sleep people will start SMS/call me!! HELLO!! What's wrong man!! I change my number I SWEAR I WILL NEVER GIVE TO THOSE WHO WAKE ME UP FROM MY SLEEPING TIME!!
Since you know I going to sleep, fuck man. Then SMS me those bullshit. I ain't good with entertaining, I suggest you just fuck off and stop calling/SMS/MSN me.. I HATE IT!!! William know about this, I told him, now you replace him? HEY!! WHAT'S THE PROBLEM WITH YOU FUCKER!!
I'm angry! REALLY ANGRY!! REALLY PISSED BY YOU!! YOU!! ONLY YOU!! NOT OTHERS!! You spoilt my day, my entire day! Now you happy fucker? I hate you!! Don't give me those craps to SMS me ask me to check some stuffs for you. I ain't your slave either am I your maid. Really man, just freaking hell leave me alone alright!?
*argh* and stop SMS me with those craps, taken your dinner anot? wanna come out and eat nearby? or whatever shit. don't think i'm xiaoqi by it. i have enough of all these!! YES I'M REFERING TO YOU! If you don't know who you are, i suggest everyone just LEAVE ME ALONE ALRIGHT!!


Someone complain that my blog is so bored! =( So many pictures but not in details!! So sad oh~! Ok, I'm having exams now, that's why never go in details.. lalala~
Anyway, today was Maths Paper 2. I suppose that was ok, but I'm sure and comfirm I can't get a1.. So bye bye a1.. =( Mummy will misses you.. You must take good care alright? *huggies*
Ok, went out to meet someone.. Recently miss out contacts with her.. And she ended up telling me so much things. I'm sorry, name cannot be expose. I feel like crying when I see her crying.. I've no idea how to console her.. I feel like whacking myself up, cause I can't console her.. And she's crying and crying.. *sigh*
Went to buy the dress. Oh well.. How was it? Samuel say was nice, sweetie-hunnie too.. And Mel.. And Alex.. And~ and~~ :x so many~ Including my mum.. Lala~
Huang Na.. Today chu ping.. Just hope that she will rest in peace.. This little girl is cute.. I like her.. So many people send her off today.. ='( So many people cry and pray for her when the car left.. Ok I've no idea how to describe.
And bulletin!! So IRRITATING!! *argh* everyone is posting about the deleting of testimonials.. HELLO!? The fact is that Friendster is upgrading!! That's why testimonial are gone!! And deleting of accounts? That's totally bullshit yeah?
Anyway, gonna study now. Tomorrow science paper. I havent even touch them! And I feel like sleeping~ OMG!
Hey hey, I'm looking for BF!! Sweetie-hunnie said that she gonna ask Ron to intro.. *lols* that's nice of her.. :x or she wanna get rid of me.. Oh no!! Please don't sweetie hunnie.. =(
If you're..
1) Tall. Above 1.75m
2) Tanned. Belong to beach type. :x
3) Cute. For me I think cute can pass
4) Good in tolerating my craps. I'm good with it, please try your best.
5) Love me for the way I am.. Maybe my hunnies, love one too.. :D
Interested please apply.. *LOLS*


went to look for dress for prom.. i bought this dress.. :D i like it!!my cam skill just sucks.. oh well..





omG! I cant stand it.. I love this song so much! anyway, just update my friendster profile yesterday. Ended up so many people message me. Err? My pictures look horny or corny? Whaha.. =X My favourite song!! SO NICEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! So meaningful that describe my past.. Oh well..

LoneStar - Amazed

Everytime our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than i can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel howmuch you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts i can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life,
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of you skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me,
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time everytime
I wanna spend the whole night in your eyes

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you...

Anyway, my aunts and uncles came over my place. Then my mum play MJ! See I told you guys.. Then I went out study.. Then I reach home, slack awhile.. Then dinner time.. Settle down, have steamboat.. Then I'm the last one to finish everything.. Hur hur~ My uncle say I travel from Singapore to South Korea then back to Singapore. Cause got 2 steamboat, I walk here walk there to eat prawns, to find prawns. In the end I only manage to eat 3!! SO LITTLE!! =((( I don't care, I wanna have steamboat again! Marina Bay anyone!?
After dinner, as usual, blackjack.. Haha.. I only took $1 out, and I won $6.. =D Actually blackjack lose money, but the last round, we play tim.. Then my mum won $20 over... Then she gave me $6. She took $15 out, then she won $22.. Then she gave me back my $1, and addition give me $6.. Lalala~

LoneStar - Amazed IS SO NICE!!!


another bull shit day. woke up by lotsa prank calls. kaoz, how am i suppose to sleep in peace and leave this sucky world? *craps* my cosins are at my house! yes again! mj again? i've no idea. how am i suppose to study? i complain too much? i do.. =( i hate my mum for having these type of boliao things. she said to bring more peace with the familes? i find it bull shit. why cant go other places to have dinner or what? why our house!? shit man! i hate it!! *argh* Yuki san, Qi or Mei Fang, if you guys read this, well, complain if possible. so that these type of craps can stop RIGHT NOW!!
i be happy if they throw me out of the house, i be happy if i gonna live alone.. at any uncles or aunts house, or even at granny house. i be please, i be happy! real happy..maybe you guys can support me eh?
really lor, too much.. now exams fever. yet having these type of craps things around the house.. i dont even have a room of my own, how am i suppose to study? i pack my stuffs and head out, how will they feel? so bullshit man. *argh* whatever!!!


just sick of having this mum of mine! i hate her!! yesterday reach home, and she throw my things all over the place and ask me to pack again? wtf? telling me that aunts coming over the place during weekend but she never say when? i pack and she call me to wake up this morning? done with packing she ask me to clean toilet? wtf? done with everything to my surprise my aunts came down. i ask her for what? she say play mj.. ccb? study what shit? somemore tuesday is chemistry paper. fuck man..then now ask her dinner how, she say settle myself. just now ask her order pizza or kfc she say dont want. then i say i go out eat she scold me. then how am i suppose to eat? fuck sia. everything also wanna kp, dont know why i got this type of mum. what she want me to do, i do for her, now for no reason she yell she scream at me.. SOMEONE JUST TAKE ME OUT OF THIS HOUSE!!!!!!!
tell me how am i suppose to study where my cousins came in and out of the room and those majong sounds? i wonder why i have these type of mum with no brain and NOT UNDERSTANDING WELL ENOUGH!!!!!! I HAVE ENOUGH!!!!


Another day.. Woke up at around 8am by Danny's SMS.. Then went back to sleep. Next was Andy.. >.<" Then I realise I can't sleep anymore, so I woke up, slack around and head to shower..
Victoria called say that she reaching Pasir Ris soon. I was like HAR!? Then I pack my stuffs and head towards DownTown East to meet her.. Then we have our lunch at the foodcourt, and wait for WWW to open.. Is like 2 of the rides not in service, then still thinking wanna go and play anot.. But she insist, so I just tag along..
We went in WWW at around 1+ close to 3pm it RAIN!! %@^&&*@(# Then went indoor, wait for around 1/2 hour, around 4+ close to 5pm RAIN AGAIN! @&*#@ This time with lightening.. Kinda scare.. That's why we change and head towards my house..
Reach home, shower, and watch TV till around 615.. Then went to Loyang Point to have our dinner. Hey, the roti-prata ain't that nice anymore.. :x Then went home again.. Slack till around 845, then leave my house..
Went to Bedok to have our supper.. Haha.. Was like saw this guy who took 89. Saw him on bus.. Saw him alighting at Bedok.. Saw him taking 222.. Saw him dropping off at 85.. The worst thing is that when I'm on 17, I saw him too.. =S Singapore is small or is it fate? Ok, *craps*
Anyway, went there just to eat String Ray.. -.-" Meet Raymond, so just 3 of us.. Then we walk towards the bus stop whereby there's 17.. Cause Raymond friend fetching him, then Victoria taking cab. =( I'm broke, so I took bus..
We were walking, when we're about to reach the bus stop, I said "Eh, this bus stop no 17 leh.. SORRY!!" Then Raymond was like "Oh never mind, its okay.." OmG! I'm so paiseh!! :x I'm really paiseh!!
Then when we reach the bus stop, we were talking about O level.. Then to Science practical.. Then they were talking about Bio.. Which I didn't take. They talk about practical.. Opening of cow's eye? Then the water spilt out, then killing rat to do experience? OmG! My hair just stand! Just nice was that the bus came.. Then Raymond was like pointing telling me that the bus was here.. Haha.. That's nice of him.. =]
So how did I know Raymond? That's a long story I guess.. I know him thru Victoria.. Last time[that was years back] we used to confrence.. With Chin Mei as well.. Then Raymond called in, so we just confrence.. Then he chat about IRC.. So he introduce me channel.. Which is #112[I think closed down already]
Then I went in, saw Raymond and we chatted.. That's how I know William.. We were chatting in main, then William joined the conversation. Then William realised that my friends[Chin Mei & Victoria] he also know.. So somehow there's link.. What a small world.. Then the first time I met William was at Bugis, passing him some saga seeds.. Then the first time I met Raymond also at Bugis. But I can't remember in details..
Oh yah, I find that my template abit laggy.. I'm chaning blog skin to my precious one.. >.<" My hard work go down the drain just because of lag!! *scream* Ok I'm hell tired.. Good thing is that WWW for tomorrow is cancel! =D


Was packing my room the whole day. Planning to go WWW, ended up heavy rain. Fuck sia.. So pack my room, dump lots of things.. Files, books, worksheets.. And lots more.. Anyway, I've no idea how many tress I've kill.. These are the pictures of my worksheets only.. There are still alot...



Then meet up with Victoria to surprise Chin Mei.. Took 89 all the way to Hougang.. Then was like erm? So fast? Haha.. Reach there in about 1/2hour time, ended up waiting for this girl.. OmG~ Qian Qian is so CUTEEEEE!!! Photos taken today..





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