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ramblings of a young adult

oh yeah, the picture taken at ROM. hee hee.. bride's face being remove. cause there's some reason. =) tired, but didn't forget to SMILE!!!!


another day. sigh. woke up rushing and stuffs. totally forget about meeting the girls at bugis to study. rush there, as usual, pasta.. -_-" getting sick of pasta recently. been eating continous pasta for 3days.
anyway, was slacking the whole day. went over to bugis street to buy bag.. and seriously, i fall in love with that adidas dirty green bag! and bought myself a belt..
head to town to meet up with bibi~ was slacking all the way at Far East. did nothing but walk around.. looking for some random skirt, but didnt manage to get any.. alright, i'm tired. time for bed. shall update again..
PS: I FALL IN LOVE WITH THAT ADIDAS DIRTY GREEN BAG!

im tired, i shall do a quick update about today's wedding! woke up at around 515am bath, prepare and stuffs, took a cab down to Serangoon MRT to meet Bibi.. He's late. -_-" Its alright..
And we took MRT to QueensTown[if not Red Hill], then change to cab to Haze's place. Prepare the dishes and stuffs, and poor Bibi wait for me at the void deck like close to 2hours. I'm sorry!! Left there and head to Chee Siang's place.. And head to take photo outside.. Thanks God that I got the chance to accompany Bibi awhile. =) If not, I guess he'll be really bored..
Then head back to Chee Siang's place. Wait for Haze to change and head back to Haze's place to have our lunch.. After lunch, head back to Chee Siang's place to slack and stuff. Manage to catch a little nap. Haha, thanks Bibi for your shoulder.. =)
Head to ROM and busy awhile, and the dinner start.. While everyone is eating, I help Haze with changing of gown.. And she head out.. And I accompany Bibi.. *grinz* After that, we slack awhile and head off. Went to chill out somewhere.. And head home.
I know it's short, cause I'm very tired.. And I'm lazy to type in details. I only know that today, I've spend 3/4 of my day with Bibi.. And I really appreciate what he's done.. Cause he don't know anyone of them, and he just accompany me all the way.. Thanks Bibi~~ =)
MEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........... Taken at home before I head out..


another day. well, woke up at around 11am, went to pai grandpas and aunt with my dad & sister.. head out for lunch, and met up with Fid to slack before I go town.
Accompany him to East Point to meet up with Sean, and he's like.. The moment he saw me, his face is total blackness.. I know he ain't happy, but there's nothing I can do.. Oh well.. I remain silent and walk off after awhile. Didn't stay for long..
Head all the way to Orchard, Taka.. To take all my stuffs home. Jovi was shock when I do that.. I mean? She should know what happen..And the news already being spread around. The moment I step into the shop, people are giving me those "hey, what are you doing here?" Those type of looks.. Well... No doubts about having me to transfer. Yah, I gonna transfer. To which outlet, I still have no idea.
Anyway, met up with the girls at Far East, slack around.. And head home after that. No life yeah? That's us. Planned for the wedding things and stuffs.. Didn't manage to do any shopping at all. And head home. Well, later be meeting the girls and get our stuffs for tomorrow wedding...
PS: I don't any nameless freck out there to be tagging at my board. My blog doesn't welcome marons or nameless.. Other whatever. Stop tagging yah? Get a life whoever.. =)

Ludacris Feat I-20, Mysitkal - Move Bitch

[Chorus 2x: Ludacris]
Move bitch, get out the way
Get out the way bitch, get out the way
Move bitch, get out the way
Get out the way bitch, get out the way

[Ludacris]
OH NO! The fight's out
I'ma 'bout to punch yo...
lights out
Get the FUCK back, guard ya grill
There's somethin' wrong, we can't stay still
I've been drankin' and bustin' two
and I been thankin' of bustin' you
Upside ya motherfuckin' forehead
And if your friends jump in, "Ohhh gurrlll", they'll be mo' dead
Causin' confusion, Disturbin Tha Peace
It's not an illusion, we runnin the streets
So bye-bye to all you groupies and golddiggers
Is there a bumper on your ass?
NO NIGGA!I'm doin' a hundred on the highway
So if you do the speed limit, get the FUCK outta my way
I'm D.U.I., hardly ever caught sober
and you about to get ran the FUCK over

[Chorus]
[Mystikal over second chorus]
BITCH! Watch out, watch out, watch out
BITCH! Watch out, watch out, watch out, move

Here I come, here I go
UH OH! Don't jump bitch, move
You see them headlights?
You hear that fuckin' crowd?
Start that goddamn show, I'm comin' through
Hit the stage and knock the curtains down
I fuck the crowd up - that's what I do
Young and successful - a sex symbol
The bitches want me to fuck - true true
Hold up wait up, shorty
"Oh wazzzupp, get my dick sucked, what are yoouu doin'?
"Sidelinin' my fuckin' bussiness
Tryin' to get my baby child support soon
Give me that truck and take that rental back
Who bought these fuckin' T.V.'s and jewelry bitch, tell me that?
No, I ain't bitter, I don't give a fuck
But i'ma tell you like this bitch
You better not walk in front of my tour bus

[Chorus]
[I-20 over second chorus]
Bring it, get 'em

Too bad I'm on the right track
Beef, got the right mack
Hit the trunk, grab the pump pump, I'll be right back
We buyin' bars out, showin' scars out
We heard there's hoes out, so we brought the cars out
Grab the pills cuz we poppin tonight,
Beat the shit outta security for stoppin' tha fight
I got a fifth of the remy, fuck the Belve and 'cris
I'm sellin' shit up in the club like I work in the bitch
Fuck the dress codes, it's street clothes, we all street niggaz
We on the dance floor, throwin' bows, beatin' up niggaz
I'm from the D.E.C., tryin' to disrespect D.T.P.
And watch the bottles start flyin' from the V.I.P.
Fuck this rap shit, we clap bitch, two in your body
Grab ya four, start a fight dog, ruin the party
So move bitch, get out the way hoe

[Chorus]

[whistling]
All you faggot motherfuckers make way for 2-0

In other words, I wanna say move bitch, get out the way get out the way bitch, get out the way

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've alone afterall..
You cry I wipe away all your tears
You scream I fight away all of your fears
I hold your hands through all of these years
You still have all of me..

Enough of crying and i wont let the tears stream down my cheeks again.. A happy day at the begining, but late evening, everything change..
Well, met up with bibi just now.. Met at suntec and head to marina square to watch movie. day seems fine.. slack around after movie.. sitting down, stoning and crapping around till evening... Went to eat and head to school..
Was outside school, and got a call from shop.. I missed that call, and I call back. It was Nora who called me.. And I realise.. Sigh. Things change.. I don't wanna say anything until my break end..

i wont cry like a little girl even if im hurt.
i wont share even things are out of way.
i wont scream as if the world is mine.
i wont make noise even im in pain.

i will be a little stronger to prove you wrong.
i will be a girl living without worries.
i will be happier to let you know i can live without you.
i will be carefree even without you by my side.




its good that you and her patch up. sincerly i wish you guys all the best. since all along you guys love each other. im alright, really fine. maybe i shouldnt have fall for you right from the start. thanks for the memories, baby.. all the best..

there are so many things i wanna type out.. the moment i click onto this page, i've no idea where to start.. is like so many things happen to me.. im falling down..
went to school this morning, is like.. i dont even care what's going on.. i didnt see him at school, he has not been coming to class for the past 2weeks.. what's the point of bringing a bag whereby you're not going to school? i wonder you're wasting your dad money or something? i know i am no one to say you, but you fail once, you wanna let history repeat? sigh..
was heading home, and met up with his friends.. i didnt know they got no idea that we broke up. the moment i say hi, they were asking where is he. i was like "huh?" i've no idea if they're doing it on purpose.. and i just said "we broke up already.." they're shock, so am i..
sitting there, stoning awhile, and i head home.. was wondering how come he didnt let his friends know and stuffs. or is it because im just a toy whereby after playing he will just leave it alone.. letting his friends know anot is another thing.
was surfing the net around, reading his sister blog and stuff, saw the tag, and i realise his attach.. he can move on, so am i.. and why am i stucking at the fcuking place where he dump me back then?

bibi went missing.. being sms-ing him dont know how many times. there's no news of him.. and i just give up.. im sick and tired of everything. tomorrow meeting me anot still a big question mark. and there's no news and stuffs..
yesterday told me that he's sick, and today might not be going to work.. and is like, today going to work anot i've no idea.. i dont call.. i scare i disturb him.. even if i call him, he pick up, what should i say?
bibi is just a nick i gave him.. we're just friends.. and just friends..





i wanna cry.. cry like a baby..

was reading my testimonial.. and i realise alot of people are around me, cheering me up and stuffs.. those testimonials seem short, but sweet at heart. and is like when i'm attach, every are happy for me.. now everything is gone, i lost some of them, but i guess they still care for me.. let me know if you're still the angels beside me.. i mean all my friends out there..

I still can't get over what happened, tears still roll down my cheeks..

I'm hoping that you can be here with me right now
Patting my head and kissing me good night

I can't seem to do anything properly

The moment I wake up I find myself crying...

nothing to blog about, just that i'm really very tired..



Fun is over, time for the truth. Having idiots out there tagging at my board, and some moron out there messaging me in friendster. Ha, that's what I'm craving to see, the more angry you get, the more happy I get..
Hey, get this clear. Me and Xiang Long are just friends. And I'm just having some funs when he say his ex GF is stalking onto him, pulling him and can't let go. So he asid that he wants me to pretend to be his GF, and I agreed. We did nothing, just that friendster and MSN we change.. And she's out there feeling hurt and stuffs. And having whoever out there message me? Haha..
Time for medicine. :)

I'm getting piss. Friendster being flooded by messages from the fcuker. Who tries to act cute with his primary photo. Ha, its so FUNNY! Take a look..

http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=5920546

And this is what he say..

Ebel Gonna kick my ass? Or gonna kiss my ass? Ha, whatever. He's miine girl, WAKE UP!!!
Pls stop disturbing my sis RuiZhu.
Betta think b4 u say anything. So wat if XiangLong & u r now together? Who cares?!? Trying to show off to my sis? PLS WAKE UP U!!! Think ur pretty yea?!? Try to type more in my sis' blog & u shall c. Betta not mess up wif her/me.
She has e right to write anything in her blog as blog is an online "diary". U too haf e right to read or summit comments but ur words r IRRITATING!
Mind ur words girl..or should i call u a boy?

I'm still thinking, so what if I mess up with them? Hmm... Gonna kick my ass? Or gonna whack me up? Hey, try me? If you gonna do that, I'm sure you will be whack back too. If not, get prepared to staying behind the bars. Whatever.
Anyway, Haze & Chee Siang ROM date comfirm already. 29th May 05' and ha, I gonna be a bride's maid.. *smile* They need help, so I have no choice to help them. And, they dote me so much, I'm willingly to help them..
Be taking break, and I'm sick.. Being sleeping for the entire day, and I'm still tired.. Gonna go to bed now.. Night all.. =)

Sitting in the dark
I silently begin to cry
In my room all alone
I shed a tear for every lie
One for all the bullshit
And the pain you put me through
Another for the time
That you told me it was true
There goes another tear
Streaming down my cheek
All because you lead me on
I just felt so weak
The next few tears
Turn into a few more
And before you know it
Each one hits the floor
The thought came to my mind
Of every time, you said you loved me
I thought that you would be here
You said no one was above me
But what you really meant
Was no one but her
These tears fill my eyes
And my visions a blur
My eyes are red
And now they sting
Im dying inside
From the pain you bring
The tears just keep coming
One after the other they flow
Each one is for you
And that is something you must know
Though the scars will eventually fade
And the tears will someday dry
Your always in the back of my head
With each and every lie

Sunny day. Yet intend to stay at home and sleep. I'm tired. Yes I am. Not going anyway.. Though the sun is burning out there, I'm wearing a jacket right now. I guess I'm having flu.. Gonna rest more.. Kinda hungry right now.
Was on the way home when I saw him at Simei MRT. Still thinking is that fate or is it just "qiao he"? *sigh* This aint the first time I saw him outside without meeting him or knowing anythings about him.
When I'm dying to see him, he's so near, yet so far away from me.. When I feel like being left alone, he's in front of me, I can see him, I wanna touch him.. Yet, I can't.. I won't say that I don't miss him, either will I say that I miss him. I'm having doubts with myself. Oh Ebel. Wake up..
Every starting there's always an ending. I'm learning to accept the facts that he's gone, and I'm starting a new life. But is that what I want? No. I still want him back. But I know very very well that the person I love is dead after we broke up. Tears no longer roll down my cheeks, cause I know he's doing fine and good.
They might be together right now, and I not gonna care. As long as he believe what he do is right, then go ahead. As for me? No longer weep like a baby.. Be strong, stand on both feet and move on.. Learn to let go need time, if he's the one, he will still be the one..
Well, the emotional Ebel is gone, a brand new Ebel is here.. He will be back anot let God above do everything. No longer crying, no longer sad.. Smile is what I've been craving for. And the smile will be sincerly from my heart.
I met a better person, and praying he's the one for me.. Do wish me good luck, and hope to see many of you guys soon..

im fcuking tired & stress & piss right now. no idea what to blog..

i dont understand why you keep assuming that both of us are together? get this clear, WE ARE NOT. i still love the way i am now, so don't think that we are not. i hate it when you know nothing at all, and pretend you know alot. example : me and him.
i really dont wanna scream and yell at you, but you're the one who makes me do it. and i really hate it!!! if i didnt talk to guy, i'm not ebel. just causal talking you assume i'm flirting? hey, what's the problem with you? don't act as if you know me very well. GET THIS CLEAR..! I'm fucking piss with you!

just reach home not long. was out the whole day.. went to class with the girls, met them up for lunch and head back to class.. lesson in the noon cancel which means i gonna slack through out till 7pm..
was out of class when jit hao call surprisly he was at bugis junction and he saw me.. i was with the girls and he was with his friends.. chat awhile and head to bugis street. went to look around for stuffs and stuffs and stuffs.. and head to bugis junction..
went to giordano to find siti.. *smile* a long time since i've chill out with her. sat at mos burger for an hour or so, miss the conversation with her.. a long since i've really chat with her. talk about work, personal life and more..
was heading to pastaminia to meet up with the girls, rodneyy pal call me.. ahah, kinda surprise to see him there.. chated awhile and head up.. he said im sexy. oh well.. -_-" im having doubts man..
slack awhile with them and head off to PS to meet someone.. watched "House Of Wax" cool show, but please, no food when you're watching. is DIGUSTING! *scream* i nearly tear that someone skin off.. ahaha..
after the show, head home.. chill out awhile near my place, and here i am blogging.. oh well.. im taking 3weeks break starting from this coming week. which means i'm free!! taking break because of the june paper. [private school also got mid-year one k] *smile*
i gonna have a good rest tonight.. cause.. i'm happy.. =D

Blue - Breathe Easy

Cruel to the eye
I see the way he makes you smile
Cruel to the eye
Watching him hold what used to be mine

Why did I lie?
What did I walk away to find
Oooohhh... Why... Ooohh.... Why...

I... Can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
No I.. Can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air

Curse me inside
For every word that caused you to cry
Curse me inside

I won't forget, no I won't baby
I don't know why (Don't know why)
I left the one I was looking to find
Ooh.. Why.. Ooohh.. Why... Why..

Out of my mind
Nothing makes sense anymore
I want you back in my life

That's all I'm breathing for

Oooooohhhh--- tell me why

Oh won't you tell me why

I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air

I.. can't breathe easy
Can't sleep at night
Till you're by my side
Cause I can't breathe easy
I can't dream yet another dream
Without you lying next to me
There's no air

There's no air

thinking what to blog right now.. eyes are really very heavy, and im really tired.. actually today work till 9pm, but in the end extent till 10pm. sigh, really very tired. had my supper with jovi, xiang long and jit hao...

sean called. was wondering why he called. in the end, he just call to ask me if i wanna chill out with him and adam.. i went all the way to cine, hoping that he will stop whatever he's doing, and really chill out. instead, i sit there, wait, wait and wait like some fools..
i'm really tired and hungry, hoping that he will just accompany me to eat, but i guess his ass can't leave the chair. if happen you read this, listen and answer me.. who am i really to you? the last person you'll call on your phone list to chill out with? and i realise that i am no one to you..
do i really desereve all these from you? why when i feel like giving up, you're always near me.. and when i need you the most, you're no where to be found.. im angry with you whereby i wait, and i get back nothing. this is the second time.
why every week you gonna do this to me? im angry, yet i dont know why when i saw you on train, i walk up to you. when when my friend alight the train, i sat beside you.. yet you didnt say anything..

things aint doing good to me.. tired, sick and stuffs. catch a cold some days back. i guess because of the chalet. sleeping in air con room whereby its freezing and there's only 1 blanket being shared among 2 person.

ok, brain block. shall blog again if i remember.. im fucking tired, and im not OK! stop asking if i'm alright or not.. i just wanna be left alone.........

PS: alan kor, i remember the dinner.. =) shall contact thru HP again.

anyway, picture againn.. =) its me who rox the world..


Ok im kinda of tired.. shall do a quick update. Junior Chalet, I didnt stay over. But stay till kinda late. After work, rush down to collect cake, and rush down to chalet.. Reach there, drink, eat and slack.. Till cutting of cake. Finish cake and head home. Kinda bored there.. All girls, nothing really much to talk about. Didn't take any photos, cause I didn't bring cam..
Went for shop meeting the next day, and head home and change. Met up with Viven and Ann to go to Wild Wild Wet. Took some pictures, but lazy to upload all, so just upload one. Here it is.

After that, head home and took a nap. Wei Jie woke up me, and then met up with Xiang Long to go to chalet. Saw Jamie and Yohana at Pasir Ris interchange.. Went to chalet, but mood aint good. Went for a swim with Wei Jie in the middle of the night. I think around 12+ swim till around 1am..
Reach back chalet, shower and stuffs.. Had some food and drink, and head to bed. Didn't manage to sleep at all, cause no one puts me to bed. =( Head in and out of room, and went to the first room to hear Jovi and Wen Guang and the rest of the people talking rubbish..
Doze off after awhile.. Woke up at around 7am, and walk around the chalet. Zac came out of the room, and I head towards her room to sleep. Stupid Wei Jie sleep until so wide, that I can't even have much space to sleep. In the end, not only fight for space, I also fight of blanket.. The room is so cold, and I'm freezing..
Woke up at close to 1pm, and they went for a cycle, as for me, slack at the chalet. After awhile, around 2pm, I head home, for a shower and a nap.. Went back to chalet for the last night, and drink again.. I'm sure I enjoy myself. Talk too much rubbish there, and I enjoy every single moment I spend with everyone there..
Pictures explain everything..

Jun9, Wen Guang & Me

Giordano Junior! Sharon, Jovi & Me

Myself & My Senior Shop Manager, Kelly

Quarreling over taking of picture. -_-"

Andrew and me. PS: He didn't put hand over my shoulder, he's putting it on the chair.

Me & Zac. Haha, blur looking of mine, just woke up not long I guess.

Me & Kelvin. His face is forever like that onEeeeee

Zac, Wei Jie & Me

Wei Jie & Me..


Ok that's all, not last and not least. MYSELF!


More pictures to come[provided if i'm not lazy]

gonna go to chalet tonight. wont be home till tomorrow.. enjoy k.. =) lastly, i miss blogging. gonna type alot of shit tomorrow when i get home!!

not gonna blog.. those who are close to me know what happen.. not gonna blog for the time being. this week will be a busy week for me.. too much chalets going on.. sigh.. im tired..

imu

ilu

well, maybe should blog a little. Happy belated birthday Marc. and Happy Mothers' Day.
Oh well, hate today so much. Didnt get much sleep yesterday, and today's time passes so slow! And I swear i'm very tired. and i dont know why im still here blogging..
after work, walk around with zac, didnt get anything, head home after that. by the time i reach home, close to 9, and i dont know why, he ask me out since im at town. till i reach home, he still asking me out. but i just dont want. i've no idea why i reject him. maybe im just numb.
anyway, reach home, kinda piss with my siblings. first, say having dinner together, in the end? im the only one going down for dinner. hey? mothers' day celebration? wth is that? rush me home, keep insist me of coming home for dinner. i came home, and that's what i get? and for no fucking reason, i get scolding.
i dont wanna spoilt the day, i came home for dinner, and no one is around to eat with them? hello? im just a replacement or something? whatever. im fucking angry about this if i think back about it.
whatever, updated my profile. and i guess are just craps. tired of putting song lyrics. anyway, nice song by Simple Plan - Crazy, Perfect World, Everytime and Untitled. Check this songs out.
kinda tired. gonna offline soon. i guess around 2pm. gonna go for class, and im tired.. =(

a recent photo of mine. im alright.. i guess..


ive no idea what to type. but i know i aint ok.. not because of relationship. but because of family. sigh.. i cant believe it. they ask me to quit my job. things happen for reason, and i guess they insist me of quiting. i cant be getting my $6.50 pay, but instead say bye bye to $5.50. i just hope that they will really understand what i've been thru..
things happen at home really different now.. even though right now im at home, my mmu is at home, i didnt even say hi to her. she ask me what's on the table i just said "why cant you look yourself" i know i shouldnt have said that.. but why the words just came out of no where..
i know that i've hurt my mum, but will she understand how much she hurts me? i might hate her, for bringing me to this world.. whereby i dont deserve all these treatments for her. why cant they just be a little more understanding? a little more caring in a better attitude?
mothers' day coming, i doubt be coming home for dinner, or going out with them for celebration.. after work, slack outside till late, and then head home.. i dont wanna celebrate, cause my anger still there, and i guess my mum still has the anger with me..
i didnt misuse their trust, but why they cant give me a bigger space? why cant they try to understand what teenagers been craving for? is they ask me not to quit my job when school just start. and i didn't.. i work when im still with him.. after work sure head home after that, but now, i work a little more hours, and why they cant believe that i didnt went out to chill' out with friends? why are they like that??
i give up.. i give up on them.. if they dont believe me, i really got nothing much to say. if they still insist me of quiting my job, i will leave.. the house... i mean what i say..

boring day~

went wild wild wet yesterday. met up with xindai at 1230pm.. sky is dark, look like going to rain.. waiting for www to open, and it drizzle.. saw some of the faces i've met earlier on, chat with them and stuffs.. i realise its been long since i've went there.. i miss the life i used to have..
change and stuffs, and head for a swim.. went to play the rides and time flies.. 3plus, we went to pizza hut and eat. and it rains.. open up the locker and went for shower.. didnt have much tanning or any fun, sun is on off mode. *sigh* craving for a tan, but didnt get any chance to.
head back to school for chemistry, learn something new. and june will be mid-year exams. hope that my leave will approve.. =( craving for a long term break.. anyway, after class went to town to meet up with jovi.. and the rest, guess yourself. i'm hungry, gonna shower and head out for lunch..
something nice that i found in friendster.. you will never know the other party is thinking.. please DON'T ASSUM!

BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today

BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares

BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him

BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend

BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probablly really happy right now

BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry
GIRL: He couldnt even look at me

BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: He doesnt mean it

BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didnt mean it

BOY: I love her
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend

BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug

BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried

BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I still love him

well, today no school, no work. gonna relax myself for the day, and night time shall go for night class.. having doubts with myself, wanting to do things, but still thinking is it worth doing.. i've no idea what am i thinking, what do i really want in my life..
on the way home yesterday, jovi talk to me.. about relationship.. i realise that by waiting, down the road, how many guys will past by my life? and how many guys will be i ended up hurting? is it worth doing all that? you gain one thing, and you will lose one thing. its not worth.. really not worth.. all i know is that i gonna let go...
what he want now isn't love, he wants to be free, alone and enjoy life.. what i want is happiness.. different mindset how can we move on? all i can is to let go.. let it go....
life aint good this week, quarrel with my mum, stress at work, and him.. quarrel with him over wanting to play CS anot. aint that stupid..? i cant believe that i never change, and he change by not giving in. well, im no one to him right now, last time he gave in is because i'm someone. but not now.. never again..
he said i didnt change, and to my surprise i said "if i change, im no longer the ebel that everyone know." well, i wanna change, but to who i can change to? my attitude will change,but everything need time.. in 2 months how can i change? sigh, whatever..
cut my hair some time back at far east with jovi.. look funny, but everyone say compare to last time, nicer. ok well...

taken at store room with kelvin's phone. thanks kelvin for uploading it.. and whatever. gonna shower now, pack my stuffs, and Wild Wild Wet here i come.. =)

It was 3 AM
When you woke me up
And we jumped in the car and drove as far as we could go
Just to get away

We talked about our lives
Until the sun came out
And now I'm thinking about
How I wish I could go back
Just for one more day
One more day with you

Everytime I see your face
Everytime you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
Ever since you walked away
It left my life in disarray
All I want is one more day
It's all I need
Is one more day with you

When the car broke down
We just kept walking along
Till we hit this town
There was nothing there at all
But that was all ok

We spent all our money
On stupid things
But if I look back now
I'd probably give it all away
Just for one more day
One more day with you

Everytime I see your face
Everytime you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
Ever since you walked away
It left my life in disarray
All I want is one more day
It's all I need
Is one more day with you
Now I'm sitting here
Like we used to doI think about my life
And now there's nothing I won't do
Just for one more day
One more day with you

Everytime I see your face
Everytime you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
Everytime I hear your name
Everytime I feel the same
It's like it all falls into place
Everything, everything feels right

You walked away
Just one more day
It's all I need
Is one more day with you

I never could've seen this far
I never could've seen this coming
Seems like my world's falling apart

Why is everything so hard
I don't think I can deal with the things you said
It just won't go away

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through

I pictured I could bring you back
I pictured I could turn back time
Cuz I can't let goI just can't find my way
Without you I just can't find my way

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all

I don't know what I should do now
I don't know where I should go
I'm still here waiting for you
I'm lost when you're not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can't let you go

In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
Nothing, nothing at all
Nothing at all

i swear im fucking tired.. this week will be a very shiong week. whereby i guess i only 1 day not working. finally get to rest. if i didnt remember wrongly is friday. YAPPIEEEEE!!! no work no school.. get back to my own life. SLEEP plus slack at home.. thursday be going WWW with xindai.. its a long time since i've go there.. i miss tanning and of course i miss the people there..
i'm still wondering why people bother about what i've blog. its my own blog, i type what i want. and i didnt expect you to read it. and i didnt know you will read it.. i only thought that only my friends gonna read it.. hmmm.. whatever. no idea what am i typing..
i didnt know between us, there isn't any conversation.. except him..you should know why i didnt accept him, and i've no idea why you wanna talk about him.. *scream*


to all the people out there tagging. im lazy to reply all your tags.. thanks for tagging.. and im alright.. just fucking tired.. with this fucking shit life. ok whatever. work and study that's what i'm doing now. no time for anything else..

if happen that i say im fine.. its a lie.. that's all i gonna say for this post. off to work. happy public holiday. whereby i dont even know what the hell day is that.. im really very tired.. really tired..




PS: if you're reading my blog, please help me to get that book. i'm dying to read that blog. shall see you in sg in july. =)

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