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ramblings of a young adult

anyway, work seems fine today, just that a little bored, cause there isn't much people, and sad to say, there isn't any folding table around. so can't do much folding.. wore blue tank top today. everyone was so shock? just because i went tanning some time back? haha, everyone are so silly.. =)
had a early dinner today, around 5pm.. the staffs are actually more then customer. can you imaging how BORED am i? anyway, ate at foodcourt, and went slacking at starbucks with my 3rd incharge..
saw a couple of people like, xiaoyi and joyce.. thanks for dropping by.. =) hmmm... after dinner, crowd seem better. manage to close much better then yesterday.. =D kinda shock when ugly ducking was at my shop, waiting for me.. kinda silly of him whereby his class for tomorrow is 8am, and end at 830pm...
we went to eat, and he sent me home.. dont feel like going home that early cause suppose to go clubbing to celebrate vivien's birthday, but i guess she cancel everything. and we slack around at the bus stop..
when the bus came, he board the bus, and i took my time to head home.. when i'm at the door step, ugly ducking called... he said he's at my house void deck.. i'm like "wth? i thought u board the bus?" silly of him.. yet i appreciate it in a silent way.. =)
went down to to chat with him, and here i am, blogging.. alright i'm tired.. 1/2M tomorrow.. =) just pray hard that able to meet ugly ducking tomorrow after he finish school..

happy birthday my darling viven..



a very tired day for me. though nothing much really happen.. was on my way to school, didn't meet up with anyone, just me, myself. and i was sitting at class, and the lesson actually cancel when i reach there? what the hell? is like wasting my time...
met up with the girls to have our breakfast. then slacking around.. Then we head down to pay my school fees, then head to town.. went to take pictures, and met up with xindai.. =)) take prints again.. bought new boxers, and a top.. a book as well.. didn't really did much shopping and spend much money..
ugly ducking angry with lonely ebel.. in the end lonely ebel take stupid photos and mms to ugly ducking, don't know if he'll forgive lonely ebel anot.. =((( sorry ugly ducking..
went to samuel & kevin to disturb xianglong. bought a top there.. and saw william.. didn't saw weijie until xiang long told me..
hey, sherine, nafa is the art school that came across my mind. and right now, o level is something that i must aim first. pass, then go poly.. if not, be going arts school.. and to where, i've no idea.. if not, will be working all the way as incharge.. but i guess, its just a short term decision..
ok whatever. i'm very very tired.. here's the photos..




I'll really blog after my show!!

Ok, another day. didnt went to school today. kinda weird wherenby is not dad who woke me up, is my friend. -_-' anyway, went to town just now.. slack there and head to hougang to chill out at coffee shop. muahah, bored indeed. be meeting xindai tomorrow.. anything just beep me.. lazy to blog! mean while, enjoy all the photos..


look like i'm the one in army! not my brother. cause i look more tanned then him! haha..

anyway, saw the babes some days back.. the photo! last picture with my teeth =B braces!! ugly ebel will be gone soon.. muahaha








don't ask me why i call you.. i dont know why.. i just feel like calling.. maybe i miss you..

Bottled up inside
Are the words I never said
The feelings that I hide
The lines you never read
You can see it in my eyes
Read it on my face
Trapped inside are lies
Of the past I can't replace
With memories that linger
Won't seem to go away
Why can't I be happier?
Today's a brand new day
Yesterdays are over
Eventhough the hurtings not
Nothing last forever
I must cherish what I've got
Don't take my love for granted
For soon it will be gone
All you ever wanted
Of the loove you tought you'd won
The hurt I'm feeling now
Won't disappear overnight
But someway, somehow
Everything will turn alright
No more wishing for the past
It wasn't meant to be
It didn't seem to last
So I have to set him free

well, finally its end of the week.. can relax for the time being. sigh, tired of everything.. manage to close a top shop today. and everyone is proud of it. 3cheers to TM S&K team. =)
i'm very tired right now, and everything is blur, out of mind, nothing's on my mind. whatever. still wondering should i go to school anot. its a long time since i've go.. if i go, means i will be able to see him, why make myself tourture in pain? i should have just let it go..
and stick to my mind, going to nafa is what i want to. why back then i choose the path that he choose for me? regret? yes i did. but now regret isn't it too late? oh well.. since i'm in this path of retaking my o level, just focus, and go for it.
oh yeah, be taking my o level at greenview. yes greenview. its my school. haha, kinda weird to go back there.. sigh, whatever..
mon & tues wont be working. as for wednesday be working A shift, and thursday will be 1/2M. Friday be going zoo, and sat, sun be working A shift. easy shift to remember. ok time babe. update photos some other time..

I'm tired. super tired. full shift today.. anyway, went to my brother camp yesterday. ok, he took his red beret and we're there to witness everything. well, my brother from a little boy change to a men.. =)　i'm proud of him.. the pictures will update some other time.
anyway, met up with william for lunch, and as for dinner, i've skip it. chill out with the babes.. =) a long time since i've seen them.. is like 6months or something? shall update the pictures again.. ok, i'm tired.. tomorrow suppose to work 6-Cl, but in the end change to afternoon shift. as for sun.. *sigh* also change to afternoon shift.. tired.. need losta rest!

Its a month or less since I've left Giordano. Miss there, yes I do. Just miss the fun time when I'm there.. Looking back, 6months ago, when I just enter Giordano, I was at OG Orchard Point. Under my incharge, Joel, 2nd incharge Cecline. They taught me alot of things, and I've learnt alot of things.. I was there like a week or so, and I got transfer to Ngee Ann City.
The first day of work was 20th Dec' 04. At that time, was under Jolin, as my senior shop manager follow by Cheryl and Irene. First day of work seems so scary. Enter a big shop, and everyone look at me.. The moment I step into the staff room, everyone seems busy chatting, and the girls were busy doing make-up..
During that time were Christmas period, everyone were wearing santa hat, if not angel whatever that thing call. Joel told me to look for my incharge, Nora. I'm really blur at that time. I've no idea who is Nora, is she a nice person and stuffs.. My heart keep beating fast..
Afternoon breifing was by Jolin, she intro me to everyone.. Everyone were so friendly, smiling and waving at me..
Its fun there, whereby we practice giving High-5 to all the staffs. I was extremly blur at that time whereby people High-5 at me, I was wondering what the hell are they doing. Haha. Until Nora told me that if we don't high-5, we gonna treat others bubble tea..
On Christmas day, we even sign a Christmas song before we shout "afternoon sign in" having lotsa fun there.. We even have a gathering after that, but I didnt attend.. Lots of fun with the old team.
The team are strict, but of course having alot of fun at work. Have alot of gathering there, only remember that I attend my 2nd incharge birthday chalet, and Irene's ROM chalet. Everyone envy me, having a loving bf at that time.[You guys should know who am I refering to] Having him to fetch me everyday after work, sending me to work. Sometimes even surprise me during my break.
Not just that, having a wonderful buddy, Jee Jee, with me. Either she cook for me, if not I cook for her.. Bring lunch/dinner to work was a normal thing to me. Having it to share among the team. But after the team left, I dont bring anymore home-made food to work.
It's sad to see the team left, and I remember very clearly what Jolin told me. She told me that I'm a very good staff, bring alot of help to the team, and she cherish all the times with me.. She even hug me before she left, as she hug me, tears came rolling down our face.. She's a nice lady, and the team are in order.
There isn't any stress or any sharing session with just one of us.. We work hard for the team, she will give us benifits. Free drinks were the most comman thing in the team. Most of the time was being treat by Cheryl. Is not about the drink that make me remember the team. Is just that we work so hard for it, chiong sales and stuffs, of course there must be award.. That makes us work more harder for it..
The team left, new team came in. And not long, I quit. I type this post is because I really miss the old NAC3..
Jolin, for being such a wonderful lady. Who taught me alot of things.
Cheryl, for teaching me alot of things and all the drinks.
Irene, for being such a caring lady who fight for me when things are wrong. Understanding at all times.
Gina, for being a caring person. I was sick, and she took care of me.
Wendy, for being such a funny person. Ah-lian at times, but you're such a cutie lady.
Andous, joke cracker. Day is never down when he quarrel with Wendy.
Ijah, for being such a nice lady at work.
Siti, for being such a nice babe at work, and being a good listener.
Wei Ming, for being such a funny guy. Who never fail to talk cock with me.
Alvin, for being that cute little ah boy.
Angel, for being my 3rd incharge in Junior team. And having the same thinking with someone to "shoot" at. You know what I mean.
Xiu Yun, for helping the junior team out when we need help.
Wen Guang, for being so funny when he's so piss with Max.
Max, for being funny and talking cock.
Zac, for being my darling at all time.
Xiao Jun, for being such a nice lady to talk to, and helping the junior team out when we need help.
Shawn, for being so quiet, but at times you crack a little joke, suprise me.
Kelvin, for sending me home at all times, supper at Changi Village is comman.. Whaha..
Chee Yong, for making fun of me at times. anry last time, but now I think back, look fun.
Jasmine, for being a nice lady, teaching me alot of skills at work.
Yao Mei, for making fun at. Crack alot of jokes.
June, for giving the whole team lame questions to think about.
Da Cat, for teaching me alot of skills at work.
Xiao Cat, for being a nice lady
Auntie Cat, for teaching me alot of things in life.
Nora, for being such a wonderful incharge.
Jee Jee, for being such a wonderful darling.
Neil, for being so funny at work.
Lastly, Joanne Ong, for being such a nice lady. Without you, there isn't NAC3. Thanks.
I hope I didnt miss out anyone.. I miss you guys.

pictures taken earlier on..

tattoo on my leg. =)

airbrush tattoo at m13. bugis street.

a closer look.


all my darlings are waiting for me at zouk, but i'm at home.. there isn't anywhere i wanna go.. just wanna be left at home.. tired, indeed i am.. restless, yes i am..

britney spears - shadow

your body's warm
but you are not
you give a little
not a lot
you coup your love
until we kiss
you're all i want
but not like this
i'm watching you disappear
but you, you will never here

it's only your shadow
never yourself
it's only your shadow
nobody else
it's only your shadow
filling the room
arriving too late
and leaving too soon
and leaving too soon

your body gives
but then holds back
the sun is bright
the sky is black
can only be another sign
i cannot keep what isn't mine
you left and it lingers on
but you, you were almost gone

it's only your shadow
never yourself
it's only your shadow
nobody else
it's only your shadow
filling the room
arriving too late
and leaving too soon
and leaving too soon

i cannot tell if you mean what you say
you say it so loud, but you sound far away
maybe i had just a glimpse of your sould
or was that your shadow i saw on the wall
i'm watching you disappear
but you, you were never here

it's only your shadow
never yourself
it's only your shadow
nobody else
it's only your shadow
filling the room
arriving too late
no, no, no
it's only your shadow
it's only your shadow
nobody else
it's only your shadow
arriving too late
and leaving too soon

it's only your shadow

Went to town instead of eating steamboat. ate pizza.. been craving for it for a long long time.. =P anyway, thanks william for the company.. anyway, took some zilian photos today. lazy to blog!!
smilEeeEee~


super long didn't take this type of no-see-cam-face



not bad ar? i love it.. especially the 2nd and the 3rd picture.. =）

Did myself a test and these are my results. http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/

Its kinda true about some part.

My choice: 1) Green 2) Yellow 3) Black 4) Grey 5) Red 6) Blue 7) Brown 8) Purple

You are very ambitious and because you seek and need recognition, you try in your own way to impress people and you want to be looked up to - to be both popular and admired. You feel that there is a gap which separates you from your fellow man, or woman as the case may be, but this anxiety is an unnecessary one. Keep on the way you are going and you may surprise yourself.

You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operandi doesn't seem to work, then try something different.

Everyone, sooner or later gets that feeling that one has been cut off from reality, cut off from everything that's going on around them. It usually happens when there is a complete lack of understanding and co-operation - be it from friends, family or loved ones. So what can one do about it? Instead of pondering as to what the future may hold, do something different. Make a cup of coffee. Have a shower. Read a book. Watch your favourite soap opera. Because as soon as you become involved in something different, the original disassociated feelings will dissipate.

For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.

You are being very dogmatic, insisting that there is to be absolutely no equivocation whatsoever about your achievements and accomplishments.

kinda tired right now. woke up at 7am shower and head all the way to national dental centre. was kinda piss while waiting. took such a long time to wait for my turn.. pretty fine, comfirm doing braces, it cost around 2.8k, and i guess, another $100 more to dig out from my pay. gonna work more shifts and what so ever. today spend around $200 over dental fees + xray and whatever. kinda ex, but worth doing.
went down to aljunied to have my lunch, dad cut his hair, and i'm went slacking.. feel like dying my hair, but any recomandation? [andy, this i'm refering to you] haha, and my uncle wanna buy my hp, still thinking if i should let go this phone. too much memories inside, but i guess, sometimes letting go will be better..
alright, i'm sleepy now. gonna pack my room and meet up with william for steamboat later. I guess.. haha..
oh yeah, elina, see you on thursday.. my mum force me go. =(((

empty spaces fill me up with holes
distant faces with no place left to go
without you within me i can't find no rest
where i'm going is anybody's guess

i've tried to go on like i never knew you
i'm awake but my world is half asleep
i pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without you all i'm going to be is incomplete

voices tell me i should carry on
but i am swimming in an ocean all alone
baby, my baby
it's written on your face
you still wonder if we made a big mistake

i've tried to go on like i never knew you
i pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without you all i'm going to be is incomplete

i don't mean to drag it on, but i can't seem to let you go
i don't wanna make you face this world alne
i wanna let you go (alone)

i've tried to go on like i never knew you
i'm awake but my world is half asleep
i pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without you i'm going to be is incomplete

incomplete

another day. super tired right now. though work afternoon shift, i've no idea why i'm so tired. new staffs start work today, they look fine to me, kinda friendly.. ok whatever. i've nothing in mind to blog!　i'm super tired!! anyway, exodus came down to say hi. lols, went to eat together and stuffs. then went back to work.. manage to close better then last week, and is like, ok i'm tired. no idea what to blog.. one full shift gonna kill me. no work till friday.. friday full shift. super sian, then sat & sun 6-CL. ok whatever. bye

I give you my heart
Mind, body and soul
I give you my love
For you make me whole
I give you this promise
The promise to try
I give you each breath
And the tears I cry
I give you my past
My future and now
I give you my thoughts
My hope and this vow
To give you my voice
And the music I sing
I give you forever
I give you this ring
I give you my world
All the pain and strife
I give you my hand
Learn to share my life
I give you this kiss
And these words I say
"I'll cherish you always..As of this day."
I give you my faith
That these words are true
I miss you

another day. went to bugis to cover jenson shift, then rush back to tampines to work. was waiting for crowd to leave, and i've no idea why i was stoning, and i actually saw them.. is like, hey God, why are you doing this type of things to hurt me? i've enough hurts, so don't do this type of things anymore.. i can't take it..
work seems fine, everything look cool today. manage to kick off $100 as my first customer that i've serve. *grinz* after that request for 1/2hr break. super hungry. didn't take any real meal today.
After meal, as usual work all the way till 1030pm. Last customer was around that time. Do some closing, and my in-charge actually ask me to think about the focus of the week. ahaha, gonna prove to them why i worth so expensive.. *evil smile*
met up with william after work. just had a meal and head home. thinking what went wrong and stuffs.. and here i am blogging.. i gave you a call to check out if you're alright, but you didn't pick up. i wonder if you're doing on purpose of not picking up the call or you didnt know your phone was ringing.
just wanna to know if you're ok, cause i've read your blog, and realise you're sick.. and today you're suppose to work A if i didnt remember wrongly, and i actually saw you online.. so i guess you're on mc. but after reading your post today, you actually went swimming, and i guess you're alright.. so there isn't a need to call me back. just take good care..
anyway, met william few days back. just know him only. he's just my customer.. and denise.. hmmm.. was on the way to bugis, and he actually took my number. haha, that day was a real sucky day. i was working 1/2M shift, and was wearing dirty green t-shirt, with a 3/4 walnut pants, adidas bag and slipper. super messy hair. cause i'm freaking tired. and he actually took my number. *lols* wondering what went wrong..
i think i did talk about my injuries at work. and i'm so freaking bored, plus lonely =( so i've took a pictures of it..
the cut. super long and deep.. =(

my blue black.. can't wear skirt anymore..

and of course, not forgetting to take picture of myself.. damn, big pimple on my nose!

super tired, not forgetting to smile in front of cam....! alright, gonna go to bed now.. oh yeah, tuesday be going for dental check up, braces!!! here i come...! and wed, thur will be off.. XINDAI READ THIS!? as for friday, full shift.. =( sat & sun will be 6-CL. why this type of kuku shift? *lols* but i like it..! which means i can slack around with my friends, or maybe go clubbing then can sleep till late..
aww.. elina, i heard from YM that wed zouk is cancel. =( no more zoukie.. =(

yesterday seems fine, and is like, kinda quiet for a saturday. anyway, i was at bugis street working yesterday. $2.50 more to hit target, didn't manage to do a nice closing. kinda piss with that, and is like you're late, you make me more piss. and some idiot call me asuming that i still angry over him?
get a life or something? is like 1 year plus ago thing, now still talk about it? and you even came up to my place to take my address? wth is that? you''re a stalker, and you make me real PISS. yes i'm really very piss with you..! get it? i don't need you to do this type of things, you turn me off, i'm not angry about last time, but now, hey i'm real angry with you.. get out of my life or something?
after work, boss fetch us to cine to have supper cum celebrating evelyn birthday.. angry though, but i try my best not to show my anger. cause is happy birthday, not angry birthday. everyone in the car trying to entertain me, still angry, but they're really making a fool of themselves just to make me smile.. thanks boss and jenson.
not forgetting that i've met you, you really make me smile. and hey, sorry about the pinching thing and the smacking thing. *lols* i feel bad when i see blueblack on your hand. i'm sorry.. >.<"
i'm tired right now, gonna go over to bugis to cover jenson shift till 5pm, and gonna rush back to tampines to work..

tired, yet i'm missing you badly.. =(

gonna go to work now.. tired.. + bored..

something that describe me right now..

Akon - Lonely

Lonely im so lonely
I have nobody
To call my own
Im so lonely
Im mr. Lonely
I have nobody
To call my own
Im so lonely

Yoz
this one here
goes out to all my players out there
ya know
got to have one good girl whose always been there
like ya know took all the bullshit
then one day she can't take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side
coulda sworn I was dreaming, for her I was Feeling, so I had da take a little ride
back tracking over these few years, trying figure out wat I do to make it go bad
cause ever since my girl left me
my whole left life came crashing

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Can't believe I had a girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life
after all I put you thru u still stuck Around and stayed by my side
what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right
I Really wanna make things right
cause without you in my life girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't never met a girl
that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up
and run and I would be out chasing you
Cause aint nowhere in the globe i'd rather be,
aint no one in the globe i'd rather see
then the girl of my dreams that made me Be
so happy but now so lonely

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Never thought that i'd be alone
I didn't hope you'd be gone this long
I just want u to come home
stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home)
baby girl I didn't mean to shout
I want me and you to work it out
I never wished I'd ever Hurt my baby
and its drivin me crazy cause

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely)
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely)
Mr. Lonely

work seems fine, and is like having fun around and stuffs. just that injured myself.. too much scars and blue black.. =(((

Elina is right, expect too much in a relationship will get back nothing.. But feelings is one of the things that need in a relationship.. I'm really having doubts with the relationship. How can a relationship last? *sigh* whatever..

Weijie, i hope you'll read this post, i wont appreciate what you've done.. its over. dont wait, just move on.. and is like.. if you're at TM, just drop by and say hi to me.. we're still friends, if you dont want, its alright..

i'm tired, time for shower and bed.. Morning shift again tomorrow..

22nd June ZOUK ZOUK ZOUK!!

There's something bout the way you look tonight
There's something bout the way that
i can't take my eyes off you
There's something bout the way your lips invite
Maybe it's the way that
i get nervous when your around
And I want you to be mine
and if you need a reason why

Its in the way that you move me
and the way that you tease me
the way that I want you tonight
its in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
when I can't find the right words to say
you feel it in the way
you feel it in the way

There's something bout how you stay on my mind
there's something bout the way that
I whisper your name when I'm asleep
Oh no
Maybe its the look you get in your eyes.
Oh baby its the way that
makes me feel to see you smile
And the reasons they may change
but what i'm feeling stays the same

Its in the way that you move me
and the way that you tease me
the way that I want you tonight
its in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
when I can't find the right words to say
you feel it in the way
you feel it in the way

I can't put my fingers on
just what it is that makes me love you
you baby
So don't ask me to describe
I get all choked up inside
just thinking bout the way

Its in the way that you move me
and the way that you tease me
the way that I want you tonight
its in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
when I can't find the right words to say
you feel it in the way
you feel it in the way

Its in the way that you move me
and the way that you tease me
the way that I want you tonight
its in the way that you hold me
and the way that you know me
when I can't find the right words to say
you feel it in the way
you feel it in the way

there's something bout the way you look tonight
there's nothing more to say then
i feel it in the way

another day, work seems fine, kinda slack today. there isn't much people and is like, sales are pretty bad.. learn cashiering.. fun and at least i've learn something new. thanks to bubu, michelle, kelvin and kai sheng for dropping by.. i'm sorry if i didnt entertain you guys..
alot of things to blog, but no idea where to start. i'm kinda tired.. and my legs are in real pain.. aint in good mood, but tears didnt stream down. wanna cry, but cant..
working morning shift tomorrow and on friday as well.. saturday will be at bugis street helping out, and sunday be at S&K.. T.T 6-CL which means SATURDAY NIGHT I CAN GO CLUBBING.. provided if i got money. oh well..

all i can say is that i'm single. maybe i cant let go, or maybe i cant move on.. i guess i'm standing at the place 2months 15days ago.. i miss him perhaps..


i know i've hurt you deeply, but i hope you can understand.. when i need you the most, you're not with me, instead some other friends are with me.. yes i know you're busy with school and work at the same time, but why cant you dig out some time for me?
i know whatever i say is no use, so i shall end this post here..

Gonna work later. *sigh* no life.. No class today, postpone to Saturday, but doubt be going. Gonna go shower and stuffs now, its so boring... Boring.. Indeed boring..

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

Guess I didn't know you
Guess I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling now
That I don't here your voice
Or even touch or even kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here

Cause baby
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're lonely now'
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the staion
SO I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface

I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of elemnt
I'm throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pian reflected in this osng
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life bab

When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please cause
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sin comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

Baby
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
Cause we belong together
Who am I going to lean on
When times get rough
Who's going to talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's going to take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh baby, baby
We belong together

Today seems fine.. Just that a little up and down mood.
Woke up at around 830am, expect dad to call me to wake me up, but he didn't.. I guess he give up hope on me or something? Lesson at 9am but ended up having breakfast at Burger King with the girls. Then went to class at around 1125am.
Sat down there and stone till 1140am, class end. *lols* Do nothing, he's not teaching, I'm not doing my work. Just stone.
Head home after school, pack my stuffs and get myself tanned at Wild Wild Wet. As usual, alone. Didn't really turn like some red crab, but getting a little tanned. Pack my stuffs, and head to Tampines.
Saw Joanne there. Had a little converstaion with her. Asking me how's work and stuffs.. Everything seems so cool, whereby I told her "Eh Joanne, wo he ah boy mei you le" Her respond is big "HAR!? Wei shen mo? Ni men hen en ai ar.. Aiya, mei you jiu suan le, zai zao yi ge lor.." No need to say who, can guess ba..
And I just keep quiet, and head out of shop.. The next I know is, I saw him with her.. Is like.. Why God is doing this type of things? I wanna be happy and lead on with life, why things just aint getting my way? I'm really sick of it...
I wanna be left alone.. Alone..

saw this funny post at my bulletin. i've repost it, in case you're not my friend, you will not know what am i talking about. haha.. anyway, here it is.

You'll hate him, but he's right
Message: : 096* - a brillant proposal-
Started by Samuel Wong Jun Hao; Singapore-
You'll hate him, but he's right.

Okay.
I'm sick of this.

Friendster has been chewed up and spit out likebad bacon by Singaporeans. Why? The bad use of English, the act of retardedism and most importantly, the disgusting and unfathomable pictures of you guys acting cute.

Puffing up your cheeks DOES NOT make you look cute. It just emphasises on how you're trying to hold back a burp. You look like a pufferfish. Amoronic pufferfish.

Taking a shot from the top is alright, but do notever open your eyes super wide and act cute. Never. It freaks people out, gives hentai lovers adescription of how you're begging to get your face sprayed all over with cum. Oh yeah, you look like a dog too. My dog. So bark?

DO NOT EVER DO HAND GESTURES. It just symbolises on your stupidity and how you are trying so hard to speak 'Retard' in sign language.

euu; miie; blahblahblahinserthereenlongatedword.They are creative, so to speak, but when you write compositions, you don't spell them like that, do you? I'd rather you take the time to spell every word correctly and leave a good impression on foreigners, than leave your dimwit-slime all over.

Get your grammar and vocabulary right. "Lovehurts", not "Love hurt".

What is up with the how "moii" thing? Moi is a french word - stop abusing that word, lest the french invade. Do you actually use that word in your real life conversations? Do you know how to pronounce it? And if you do, it's not "mu-oi".It's "muah", you moron.

I merely want you all to change for the better of not only the country, but for your own sake too. But hey, read on.

Whoever doesn't sign admits the fact that he/she has condemned himself or herself to my list of so-to-speak dumbpricks and/or crackheads. Inducing on that fact, you are also welcome to my full list of insults, garbage and junk. If I have offended any ofyou, you are a loser as you are easily agitated by just an internet mail.

To my friends: If you do type/act like the above, please try to change. I'm not forcing, just requesting. If not, meh.

i dont need nameless people tagging at my board. =)

shall do a update. start working already. saturday was my first day. everything looks fine. the in charge there are cool, people there are fun loving.. everything just my way.. everyone out there are equal. one thing i dont like is that, ITS SO HOT WORKING THERE!! anyway, quit my job at giordano, no longer a giordanoian. now working at samuel & kevin. Tampines Mall that outlet. =)
alrite gonna talk to bibi now.. =]

work is fun, and i love my job.. kekek.. and of course, i love my bibi.. =)

i'm tired.. and seriously, breaking down.. i guess..
work all the day long, having fun and stuffs, but what i realise is that, i've left out all my freedom. i dont meet up with my friends that often. i'm sorry all my darlings'
i still wonder by coming down to find me today is an excuse or something? cause you ended up meeting your friends? sigh, i dont wanna say anything else.. see you soon..
i'm tired, good night..

i dream about you last night, and things seems fine.. i miss you already.

Sitting in the dark
I silently begin to cry
In my room all alone
I shed a tear for every lie
One for all the bullshit
And the pain you put me through
Another for the time
That you told me it was true
There goes another tear
Streaming down my cheek
All because you lead me on
I just felt so weak
The next few tears
Turn into a f ew more
And before you know it
Each one hits the floor
The thought came to my mind
Of every time, you said you loved me
I thought that you would be here
You said no one was above me
But what you really meant
Was no one but her
There tears fill my eyes
And my visions a blur
My eyes are red
And now they sting
Im dying inside
From the pain you bring
The tears just keep coming
One after the other they flow
Each one is for you
And that is something you must know
Though the scares will eventually fade
And the tears will someday dry
Your always in the back of my head
With each and every lie

tired~ tired~ tired~ tired~ tired~ tired~ tired~ tired~ tired~ tired~ tired~

change my blog template.. again.. anyway, i need those who i used to link to let me know your blog links.. *argh* silly me deleted everything away..

i know all along i've been a fool, i didnt know i'm just a playtool to you. all for the past 4months, i've been loving you deeply, and i ended up hurting myself.. thank you for all your bullshit.. and i'm just someone who you make use of. fuck off asshole. =)

i love my bibi~ =P

update update update~~

yesterday was the last paper! wee~ finally! haha! science paper were killers! i swear, its so fcuking hard! anyway, "manage to finish", sleep throughout the paper. very tired, plus my head were in pains.. =((
went to work after that, and sales are not bad! *lols* manage to close $228. =D~ got extra cash.. haha, boss came back to singapore already, and she ask me to work with her.. comfirm staff in other words. *lols* =P
i keep complaining that my head is in pain, and silly bibi, after school head down to bugis, which take him a long time to reach here, pass me some pain killers and my precious MILO!! and head off.. so sweet of him yet so silly. :x
me me~~ in snowcap. Whaha.. taken some time ago while slacking with the girls.. taking a look at my adidas bag!!

me again. *lols* taken during Chee Siang & Haze ROM. at private whatever. muhaha, bibi took this photo~


PS: I fall in love with dirty green!!!~~ *lols* and my next target to buy is adidas $45 slippers!! =PpPpPp~

I finally got my adidas dirty green bag..~~ =D~~ thanks!!!

Elina, i doubt be going Chinablack this wed too.. no money ah.. =( i waiting for my pay!! my boss coming back SG on 12th June.. So I'll get my pay on the 13th.. the lastest 14th.. this week really no money liao, left $30 at bank. =( poor ebel~ too much dirty green stuffs.. someone please scold me.. whahah.. i guess i'll see you on 22nd!!!
ZOUK!! ZOUK!! ZOUK!! ZOUK!! ZOUK!! ZOUK!! ZOUK!! ZOUK!! ZOUK!!

was packing my room the whole day, and saw alot of stuffs that he gave me. left everything inside a box, and kept it inside my cupboard. i dont know why, my eyes are wet. is it because memories flooded back? or is it just because i miss him?
he move on with his life, and why am i staying at the same spot where he left me 2months plus ago? this aint what i want, but there's isnt any choice for me.. think about the pains he put me thru, i have to hate him in order to forget him.. but i realise, the more pains i recall, there's nothing i feel.. i become numb.. yet tears never fail to stream down my face..
i'm attached now, yet i still think about him. call me a bitch, call me a fucker, call me whatever.. i cant help it, i cant fail to think about him. everywhere i go, will always have memories between us.. whereby i dont wish to have new memories craving on it. but hoping that memories will happen again.. yet.. i'm dreaming.. just a dream..
i dont know what else to say, but i only know im in pain.. real pain..

i'im still wondering how many people are reading this blog. anyway, page down, sigh, lazy to do. and i guess i've no time.
anyway, a quick update. quit my job at giordano. went down some days back to say farewell to everyone.. and silly serene cry.. she makes me cry too.. i dont wanna leave.. but i have to.. thanks to that person who got me transfer and make me feel like qutting. found myself job as well. pay is much more higher then giordano. shall not name out the place where am i working. i've no idea how many of you are reading.
anyway, went to double o yesterday. damn, cant get in.. -_-" in the end, was outside.. wait, wait and wait.. went to MOS to find bibi~ and i swear this will be the first and the last time. ITS A TECHNO PUB! and its so annoying. the music simply just not my type. and i get headache till now. -_-" saw jazz and jamie there. but didnt say hi. cause there's not my place. *grinz*
will be going chinablack this wednesday i guess. and ELINA!! please get back to me asap!~ i wanna go chinablackkk~~ ho ho~~ cause i cant get in double o yesterday and you need to make up for me.. =X
ok, gonna go shower and head out for dinner. i will get my blog skin done asap. miss many~ =)

i hate the life i'm having.. the person i trust the most backstab me.. i didnt say anything, i wont say anything.. either will i weep like a baby.. just to let you know, i hate you...

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