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i'll blog.. but maybe later at night..

was out the whole day. went to sentosa in the morning with xindai, then follow by i went to town with jennifer, then went back to tampines to have a farewell party.. transfer list were out. my precious faidah transfer to lucky plaza. she's the only lady who treat me the best, my best listener is S&K, the one who give me support, the one who teach me alot of things.. i cried when i hug her.. wee hao transfer to lucky plaza too. the guy who always joke around with me, having fight whenever we work.. joanne, my 2nd incharge, the one who always talk rubbish with me, and the one who always give me whatever i want.. thanks for the precious 2-3months that we spend together..
met up with xindai and bedok, and we make our way there. reach sentosa at about 11am, its so SUNNY!! reallly.. and we only had an hour tanned, and our skin are actually red, and burnt. shall use pictures to do everything. =)
this taken at MRT while waiting for NE line to HBF MRT


these few pictures are taken at the beach. while tanning i took the sky picture. its really very cloudy, yet so sunny. =D



myself.. i ask xindai to take for me.. kekeke..

there's nothing out there for your info. haha




US! haha, we only stay there an hour, so there isn't much bikini's pic. =P

on bus towards MERLION!!!


we walk.. don't forget to take picture..


YEAH! WELCOME TO SINGAPOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeee!!!

we finally reach.. here's the merlion..

my lovely lady.

US! on top!!

here's the view about what we see..



on the way down..


next stop, images of singapore! its real fun there!








Ok i gonna explain about this. HAHA! its about war part. and i suppose to act IM SCARE! i'm camping!! BOMB AHEAD!! WW2

bare with those funny boliao pics.



Singapore!!



The note behind read "do not rest" LOL!


want some fruits?

ARGH!! ITS BURNING ME!

the old movie..

ARGH! fire crackeR!

darlin is helping her with the dish.

hmmmmm.....

cheesE!!!

21st century SG!

finally finish everything.. was outside.. walking towards.. CABLE CAR!!

CheesE!!

im scarEEee!! =(

yah' right. =D

The views. dont ask me what am i taking.






didnt take any pictures at town.. and we head to S&K TM.. we order pizza & kfc. everyone is like so freaking full, in the end we play games to finish up the food.. have a great time with them, and of course, i cherish each and every second that we spend..
gal power!

myself & joanne

myself & faidah!

me & jen

me & choloe


ok time tired. time for bed. now is 215am. =) i miss you so.....................

be going to ChinaBlack this saturday. No Momo for the time being. (= Not sure going with who, but mostly is Viven.. i think she's gonna be crazy about it. cause most of the time I always make her go Momo with me.. Gonna change environment for some time.. Hey Elina, YM say that going dlb o next sat.. let me know again. i mean comfirm with me.. I just pray hard that my friend,Kelvin, is going there, so he can bring me in! (=

my hair. its much better compare to the past. (=
backview

right view

left view[ignore my stupid face]

front view[i'm freaking tired, no feeling to smile]

i will not make the same mistakes that you did
i will not let myself
cause my heart so much misery
i will not break the way you did,
you fell so hard
i've learned the hard way
to never let it get that far

i lose my way
and it's not too long before you point it out
i cannot cry
because you know that's weakness in your eyes
i'm forced to fake
a smile, a laugh everyday of my life
my heart can't possibly break
when it wasn't even whole to start with

i watched you die
i heard you cry every night in your sleep
i was so young
you should have known better than to lean on me
you never thought of anyone else
you just saw your pain
and now i cry in the middle of the night
for the same damn thing

because of you
i never stray too far from the sidewalk
because of you
i learned to play on the safe side so i don't get hurt
because of you
i try my hardest just to forget everything
because of you
i don't know how to let anyone else in
because of you
i'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
because of you
i am afraid

Sun:
Was working at S&K from 12-CL. a long shift, yet i enjoy working every sec at there. incharge, chloe seems fine, and we're having fun around. we = ben, zen, chloe and myself. doing closing all by myself, and i finally pass my closing and day start. (= and guess what? i pass my alteration too.. just that i need more practice, and with more speed, i can do a faster job. im happy!
Mon:
woke up at around 730am, shower and head to S&K for shop meeting. an hour of meeting and went to East Link mall to have breakfast with faidah, joanne, ben, zen and wee hao. sitting there talking about prayers and stuffs. tired indeed i am..
head home after breakfast, wanted to take a nap, but i scare that i will sleep too long. in the end stay awake till around 130pm, head back to greenview to take my oral.. well, i gonna say it SCREW UP! and im the last person who took the oral, imaging how stress and bored i am!? all thanks to my dad whose surname is Yong. but hey, i love my surname. (=
didnt head home after oral, instead went down to bugis. met up with han quan for dinner, and head to suntec to walk around. guess what? i finally found my book! Stephen Leather - Private Dancer. it finally arrive at singapore! i gonna get it tomorrow!! yes tomorrow! [provided mum lending me cash..]
Tues:
which is today. i pretty piss. indeed i am. head to school at around 930am, im late, but i realise that no lesson? wtf? i mean chaning of time, but no one tell me. so i met up with saren.. and she also dont know about changing of time.. so both of us actually walk around bugis.. getting bored with bugis..
appointment with Toni&Guy at 2pm.. went to have a hair cut.. yes again. this time round.. whaha, no comment. saren didn't wait for me cause the haircut need 2hours to finish... but hey Saren, i appreciate you of accompany me today.. =D
finally get to meet up with xindai after soooooo long...! walk around bugis, and bought myself pooh bear top at giordano. finally, at last.. and we head to bugis street to walk around. actually nothing better to do, so we went there to look for bikini actually.. bought myself dirty green bikini.. whahahahah~ ok, im mad & crazy over green..
ok that's it. im tired.. good night... =)

she dont expect to see him again. but before she finish work, she saw him again.. this time round, the girlfriend of his was wearing formal wear, as for him, t shirt, and the addidas slipper that they bought together before going to sentosa that very fine day.. she think that she did it on purpose by putting her hand around him when she was looking at his direction.. tears roll down her face..


im a good girl today. i stay at home today. i have no plans, though someone ask me out, but hey, im at home blogging. and im feeling tired.. time for bed..

Well, tomorrow I gonna wake up early to pray for my grandpa. its a long time since i've step into the temple to show respect to him, so I guess I shall do a fast and short and in details post.
Woke up at 0930 today, suppose to go Hupavilla[Like that spell?] with Saren. In the end, raining plus both of us keep dragging and dragging. So in the end, we didn't went anywhere. Met her at Chinatown MRT, have our lunch and start "touring" Singapore.
2 funny us walk around Chinatown like some tourist, and like some corny people, keep looking out for nice things and stuffs. Anyway, head to IMM when I got sms from the rest of the girls that they're not going class.. Went there to buy keke.. BOX FOR MY EAR RINGS!! Finally man, I mean after so long of looking.. =D I'm freaking happy, thanks SARENNNN!!!!
Met up with Viven also, she's like kinda shock to see me at IMM. Cause its damn far from my place.. Have some conversation and I went shopping with Saren. Had our dinner there and went to Giant to buy his laogong "pig's tail" *LOL*
went to city hall to meet up with jerry, walk around and I SAW NEW BOXER COLOR!!!! PEACH COLOR AND THAT BROWN!! I think i dont have that 2 color.. any idea girls? i've lost count of my boxer, and i dont have enough time to wear them either. whaha..
anyway, we took some prints yesterday but didnt have the time to upload it, shall upload tomorrow. ok, im tired, i think i did some updates. nite all..




i dont know why you're telling me all those things.. is like, i'm numb by what you said.. you said im the one for you, but why are you telling me to let go in order to be happy? whatever.. suit yourself.. if you're happy now, go ahead.. i believe you are, cause i'm happy too...

even if things go out of way, dont bother about it.. move on. =)

im sorry, i cant be perfect...

ok, im freaking bored right now. nothing to do. and thankful enough that i there's something known as internet. if not i guess.. i will rot to death. no class today, and no work at S&k today. so gonna help out andrinna at bugis street.. be there at around 530pm. right now is only 235pm still got so many hours to slack around. feel like sleeping. i swear..ahaha. though i wake up at like close to 1pm today.. keke..
have a great day yesterday.was at bugis & suntec slacking. didnt do much things, but just walk around, talking rubbish.. its a real long time since i've do that. and is like im care-free? i really miss those days......going out with whoever you want in your life.. but look likei can only do that once in a while.. =) but i still cherish those moments.


I don't understand why
See, it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something
I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I love you
I just, I feel like this is coming to an end
And it's better for me to let it go now
Than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart

Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do, but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways

Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting', baby, I ain't happy, baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

When the feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go
Cause the party ain't jumping' like it used to
Even though this might hurt you
Let it burn (Yeah)
Let it burn (Ooh)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself, but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn (Let it burn, whoa)
Let it burn (Let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Sending' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feeling ain't the same
Find myself calling her your name

Ladies tell me do you understand
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain
It's the way I feel, I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late, I know she ain't coming back

What I gotta do now to get my Shorty back
ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Man, I don't know what I'm gonna do without my Boo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours,
I'mma be burnin' till you return, oh...oh...

When the feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go
Cause the party ain't jumping like it used to
(Cause my party ain't jumping like it used to)
Even though this might hurt you (Let it burn, let itburn)
Let it burn (You gon' learn)
Let it burn (Gotta let it burn, whoa)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself, but you
(Know what's best for yourself, but you)
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
(Someone else but you)
But you know that it's over (Know it's over),
we knowthat it's through (Know it's through)
Let it burn (Let it burn)
Let it burn (Ooh, girl, now)
Gotta let it burn

I'm twisted cause one side of me is telling me that
I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry, ooh
I'm twisted cause one side of me is telling me that
I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry, yeah

Hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo
Hoo, hoo, hoo, can ya feel me burning
Hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo, hoo
So many days, so many hours,
I'm still burning till you return

When the feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go
Cause the party ain't jumping like it used to
Even though this might hurt you
Let it burn (Let it burn, let it burn)
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn (Ooh)

Deep down you know it's best for yourself,
But you hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over, we know that it's through
Let it burn (Let it burn, let it burn, let it burn,burn)
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

you're beautiful. you're beautiful
you're beautiful, it's true
i saw you face in a crowded place
and i don't know what to do
cause i'll never be with you

happy birthday saren.. =)

he move on, he's attach.. she didn't move on, yet she's attach with someone who she believes that can help her to move on. but things ain't going the way she wants. whenever, she feels that she move on, he will always appear somewhere..
she dream about him last night, saw him standing right in front of her. walking towards him, wanting to give him a real hug, she woke up from her dreams. tears stream down her face, she try to sleep again, yet tears seems to be overcoming everything..




im just wondering how come these few days aint my day.... woke up at 9am today, suppose to go sentosa with him, turn out to be quarreling over small little things.. problems are with me, yet left it unsolve..
went to wild wild wet alone instead. get a little tanned, but i believe the tanning ain't alot, cant see any difference. only manage to find cody there, the rest of the team, i've no idea who. and he said that alot of new staffs joining them, hence the previous batches of lifeguard resign. thank god that my wet pass expire this coming september. =)
reach home slack awhile and went to cut hair. look real SUCKS. funny.. really funny. didnt know the hair doesn't suit me. well... i regret. lols.. anyway, i'm a mummy's girl today. stay at home and join my parents for dinner.. and here i am blogging. i'm tired.. gonna face my new incharge tomorrow. just pray hard that she's not someone nasty..!





i know im unreasonable, yet this isn't the way you should treat me. and is like i dont deserve it. and hey, am i someone to you? look like you put your friends first.. well its normal perhaps, but you should know that this isnt the way i want.
why the way you treat me are totally different from the past? am i right to say that the attitude that you gave me are gone? the wonderful memories seems to be gone, and i believe the guy who i really trust are gone too.
do i really deserve the way you treat me right now? once in awhile i can keep quiet, but why? most of the time i must be the one giving in? you want to study and dont meet me, i can understand, but why are you telling me that you're meeting me and for no fucking reason you're not picking me up? are you treating me as a fool or something?
i make my way down to your place to meet you, yet you're telling me that you're on the way to meet your friends. you know, and why aint you telling me that you're meeting your friends soon? do i really deserve all these fcuking things?
whatever.......

i feel so unappreciate at times. i dont wanna go in details.. i'm a fool.. towards you.. i've enough..

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like

To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

she just finish her food, outside her shop, lighting a cigarette.. he walk pass her.. she turn back, but he didn't.. standing beside him was actually the current gf.. so concidentally that both of them are wearing white... he didnt turn back, he continue walking down the street, happily walking and holding the current gf's hand.. her eyes turn red.. continue smoking.. walking alone..


another day.. no class today, and working afternoon shift. sales are so bad, everything are so bored.. no people, no customer.. so boring...... is it because of the raining season? hmmmm.... darling pick me up just now. didn't do anything, and head home.. kinda tired. maybe because of the nice weather that makes me wanna sleep. ahaha..
gonna meet darlin' tomorrow. and be going to my dental together and head back to hougang for chin mei's son first month.. oh well.. i hope i gonna enjoy myself.. =D

she called him.. informing about the changing of class lesson..
her: hello xxx
him: ya.. who is this?
its me..
ya, what is it?
just to inform you that lesson on next tues is cancel. postpone to thursday. 18th of august. time is 2pm to 630pm.
oh okie.
just for your info, there's another replacement lesson. but not sure of the date and time. will comfirm with you again.
alright. thanks.
ok, bye..

the phone went dead.. tears stream down her face, non-stop.. she cried cause she didnt expect he to delete her number.. he will never understand the love that she has for him. but in his eyes, all he see is only the other girl that he love. as she remember vivdly that the memories that they had, tears can't stop flowing down..
..to be continue...


was reading other people blog, and i realise that people do blog about things that they imaging and stuffs.. and hey, i guess i gonna be blogging about some other stories that i can remember. about this girl who love a guy deeply.. he knows, yet he choose to leave her.. well.. any comments? about this part? if you guys don't like me to imaging, haha, i wont blog about any sad sad things. lols
a good day for me i guess. woke up at around 1045am, went to bugis to meet up with edna & joyce. had my lunch at mac.. TWISTED FRIES ARE BACK!! WHAHAHAHA!!! and i'm enjoying it.. I CAN EAT!! loL! went to class after that.. 2hours of maths seems cool.. after lesson, as usual slack around bugis street and head to bedok.
been there today. look cool and stuffs. and fuck, the air con there is so COLD! WHY TM NOT LIKE THAT!? but hey, i still love TM!! =) ok that's all for today. UGLY DUCKING!! REMEMBER THAT THIS WHOLE WEEK YOU'RE MINE...! =D still making plans for this sunday. might be going to sentosa with him.. keke.. SUN-TANNINGggggggggg.. ah.. don't envy.. xD

she was working, and she saw a familar person walking pass her shop.. its him.. the him who she always wanted to see.. the him who she love.. the him who she always wants to be with.. but tears stream down her face when she saw someone beside him..


ah rubbish.. what a post. ok im bored. enough of chocolate. time for bed. :)

i want you to come back and carry me home
away from these long, lonely nights
i'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
does the feeling seem, so right?
and what would you say if i called on you now
and said that i can't hold on?
there's no easy way, it gets harder each day
please love me or i'll be gone, i'll be gone

i not gonna blog today.. i'm disappointed in you.. really.. like what i say, call me when you're 100% free.. i hate the way it is now.. fcuk, i mean what i say.......

i wish i could carry your smile in my heart for times when my life seems so low it would make me believe what tomorrow could bring when today doesn't really know, doesn't really know..

Momo was fun! But not really lah' ahaha..
After sign out, I straight away go to Bugis to met up with boss, evelyn, janson and nisa. have my dinner there, guess what? pork porridge again. i'm sick of it.. anyway, eat already went to meet viven..
then both of us head towards momo. before 10pm free entry.. =) drinks are 1 for 1. *lols* then found a place to put drinks and didn't really dance till around 11pm whereby boss they all came. i'm surprise that jerry came down too.
was there, and saw alot of people like stephy and june. both are my secondary school senior. glad that they still remember me.. its SUPER pack yesterday or is it because I too long didn't go there? hmmm... anyway, have fun after 130am, cause R&B all the way till around 330am.
Didn't stay for long, but manage to hold on till 245am. its so crowded, and its so hot.. everything just didn't go my way. and is like PEOPLE KEEP STEPING ON MY LEG...! just so HURT!! at dance floor saw YiHan.. and he intro me some other guys. who i manage to say HI only. and stupid YiHan keep saying "Yuming lai de Yuming lai de.."
a fun day i guess.. thanks to viven who accompany me all night love. love ya sweet heart. =) and i hope that they guys there didn't scare u.
alright i gonna go shower now, working later. and i'm super TIRED.. *yawns*

i'm sick, SICK SICK!!! mouth full of uclers, and right now, having flu & cough.. =((( anyway, suppose to work 1/2M today, but in the end realise that there are too many M shifts people. So I gonna go home.. Didn't went home, met up with Ming Wei to go back to school to collect cert, and make my way to work..
Sign out with Wei Hao to have our dinner.. Saw Jit Hao. And I guess he know that I'm working there, that's why he look into S&K that direction. I guess.. Kinda long didn't see him, still like last time, always read The NewsPaper. Maybe I'm just the one who change.. And not long after I sign in, Pat ask me sign out. So today I guess I only work for like 6hours or so? Met up with Xiang Long.. We head towards J8 for dinner, and took bus home..
Boring life, but I'm enjoying it. =) Oh yeah, Andy left Singapore to head to Austr, hope he enjoy himself, and remember to get me RIP CURL STUFFS!! Hey, read this!? *lols* see you in 3weeks time.. =)
ITS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... My green teeth =D



Happy anniversary darlin' I love you!

Shall do a quick update. Just change my template, how is it? I'm so bored the whole afternoon, and decided to change my blog template...
Just sign up a singtel line, and have 1000 free SMS. That's alot, and hey, only certain people got my number.. :) Met up with xiang long just now, and took alot of pictures. I mean kinda alot. And tomorrow onwards, say bye bye to bunny ebel.. muahah..
this picture taken sometime ago.. last week

taken today..



blah.. cant wait for saturday to come!! meeting my darling vivi to club momo~~ just pray hard that gonna get our ass in there before 10pm!! Haha.. free entry!!

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