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ramblings of a young adult

It's always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I've never been so sure of anything in my life

I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I'll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I'll let nothing come between us
And I will love the ones you love

He made the sun He made the moon
To harmonize in perfect tune
One Can't move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it's true
You're for me and I'm for you
Cause my world just Can't be right
Without you in my life

He must have heard every prayer I've been praying
Yes He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me

Now I know how realistic this world is. I'm on high fever, yet no one wanna cover my shift. Especially YOU. I've no idea how many times I've cover you, and whenever you wanna change shift, I will do it for you. BUt now? Sigh.

Sometimes, because of my postion, I lost alot of wonderful friends. I wish, I am a junior right now..

Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I be wishing you would
Call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do

I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do..


I'm such a fool for you..

Is meeting up everyday a must for a friendship/relationship?

There will be time in my life whereby I can be meeting my bestie for continous for days. There wil lbe time whereby I will meet my partner for days. But, if happen we doesn't meet, will there be a gap in between us?

To be frank, the answer is YES.

Its pretty awkard whereby we don't mee tup that long. Plus, out timing doesn't seems to be telly with each other. Let's say, if happen I off on Thursday, she will be off on Friday, whereby on Friday, I'm a freaking full shift.

Sometimes, I wonder is it because of "Commitment" this word. Sigh.

Its been real long since I've updated. Firstly, I'm pretty lazy. Secondly, I doubt I have enough time to blog. Thirdly, I guess I've nothing to be blogging about.

And yeah, I'm fine, I'm still breathing. Work doesn't seems fine, but I gonna endure till bonus come. When bonus come, I will see what happen, and I will figure out a solution. Sometimes working in an environment for too long will cause BORED-NESS. But this bored-ness seems to be growing very long ago. Until one day...

Whatever. I'm just bored. Time for work. Shag. I WANNA CLUB SO BADLY!! PAY DAY FASTER COME I'M DAMN DRY NOWWWW!!!

Keep coming blessings!!


PS: i miss you..

Its a couple of days since I've blog. I get the answer towards my request of transfering. And right now, gonna wait for the correct time, and do the correct thing. Well, endure is what I can do.

Xindai been asking me if I want a short trip on my birthday. Seriously, I really want to. But the new AGM doesn't allow. What to do? Gonna endure and shut up. If happen my leave approve, I would like to go.. I don't know either.

You've been sweet. Pick me up 6days in 1 week. Whenever I crave for something, you will always appear with it. You appear at the wrong time. That's all I have to say. And seriously, I appreciate all the things you've done.

I'm still awake at this hour. There's alot of things running around right now. All I know is that I'm feeling very tired. I will get wear out too. I am a human. Do I deserve a long long break?

I wanna be on leave.. Will they allow me to? Things doesnt seems to wrk out this way. Getting promoted is not easy. I will choose to give up if I'm given a chance again..

This is not me. The old Ebel doesn't give up. But right now, all I want is to give up. Cause, I can no longer take it anymore.. Its been long since I've feel so lost. Are you gonna be the one who gonna lend me your shoulder.. again?

Was doing fine recently. Busy busy busy! But thankful enough manage to catch movies to relax myself. And today is my off day! Be going out later. Catch movie again. Step Up. And then be going to BS, follow by gathering! TM S&K gathering. Its so years since we meet up. And its like.. 9months plus since I've left TM. I miss TM team. Argh.

Anyway, I've countless nights of not sleeping well. All thanks to my sister for studying her freaking O's paper. And its like I woke her up when I reach home, all she did was "HEY, GET OFF! AND SHUT UP!" I'm like "wtf?" Anyway, forget about all these. Still thinking how many countless sleep-less night I gonna endure more. Its just the begining of her papaers.

Ben being sweet. Went all the way to Tanjong Pagar to get Chocolate muffins for me Whereby he stay near CCK, and he works at PS. Seriously, he's just sweet.! Thanks dude. (:


And this is where my name came from.


Lastly, Happy birthday to Bubu & Huey Wen. (:

I have a dream yesterday. A nice dream.. I saw him in my dreams.. Its so nice, so sweet. I dream that we were stil ltogether. Doing silly things together.. For another moment, something just stab my heart, cause I saw.. Sigh, never mind. I want to have more dreams please.. NOT NIGHTMARE....

I bought the bag at last. And thanks to PS staffs for making the effort to call me regarding the bag. And I REALLY WANNA GET THE WATCH! Its really sweet of someone there. Wanted to give me staff discount. But after discount, I still find it too expensive...

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it wont leave me alone

When you'd cried I'd, wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd, fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now i'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts, my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away, all the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you'd cried I'd, wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd, fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

It hurts when you know the truth.

i miss you babes.


The first photo taken with braces.

I miss this skin color.

Graduation day. I miss uniform. I miss the class.


I miss these 2 dudes.

Giordano.



Bugis Village.

REef.

PWP SK

And lastly, my feelings..


I thought you'll call/SMS me. But you didn't.

Over and over again, I'm the one taking the move to call/SMS you. If happen I forget to call you to wake up, you said "thank you" in a very mean way. If happen I remember to call you to wake up, you said I'm very sticky. Than what am I suppose to do? Call or never call also get negative comments.

I'm tired of taking the move. When will you take the step for this relationship? Let me..........


I'm very tired.. Spare me please... It hurts so badly when I know the truth. Let me weep, let me do whatever I want, and leave me alone... I just.... Wanna cry.. Who will be here to lend me a shoulder to cry on? Will it be you again? I know, its a no..
I miss grandpa.. I miss wu gui.. and I miss...












*YOU

I want this watch.. I saw today. Style Code: A2056G 'Core' Green one please!


And this! I saw it twice! AND I MISS IT TWICE!! Style Code: LSBSBB


This look nice. Haven't seen it in Singapore yet. Just pray hard that it will come in soon! The staffs from PS told me that they're coming in NEW STOCKS!!


I bought this recently.. Black one of course. Choose by XINDAI!


Xindai bought me this. In green color.


Suppose to have BS(Bible study) today, but Zhen Ying had to rush her assignment. Met up with Bubu today, as usual, craps, craps, and craps.. I have fun. I hope Bubu do. Its been REAL LONG since we really meet up and chat. Aww..

Met KS for dinner, to break fast. And yeah, tomorrow will be the last day of fasting. As usual, Sakae. Our favourite. This time round, 2of us, ate close to $50. Haha. 11color plates. I guess, I'm very hungry, but FASTING IS WORTH IT! (:

Anyway, was walking home instead of taking bus. Firstly, to save money, secondly, to exercise. Was walking pass one block whereby there are alot of people gathering at the lift. I'm like "Hmmm.. Lift broke down or something?"

But as the lift door open, happen that we're walking pass it, I saw a couple crying, and when the other lift door open, that's this lady sitting down, in a wheelchair or something, being push out by someone.

Thoughts came up my mind. This used to be me. Thoughts of killing myself used to be linger around me. Evil questions keep pop-ing out. Keep asking myself why am I living in this world whereby nobody understand me? Why nobody knows what I really want? Why this.. Why that..

But right now, these thoughts are gone. Think back, if happen I really jump down, I will die VERY UGLY. And, what will happen to my loved ones? Especially friends and family members who love me so much?

Yes, I might end my sorrows, but my sorrows will bring on to my parents, my friends, and whoever who loved me. Is that fair to them? Seriously, no. I'm dying to end my life, whereby certain people who are fighting will illness are having the spirit of "killing" the cells. Why can't I be them? Be brave and fight for the own life.

Its easy to talk, but in terms of actions, its still a long road to learn. Cherish what you have right now, before its gone.. Yah..

A nice video clip to share. Its my favourite song right now. Wang Li Hong - Ai Cuo.



Living in the world without you
I can't seems to find the feelings
I don't want to say goodbye
All the past
I never think about all these
The things that I've done
Never fall in love before
That's why I've done all these
I fly off from here
Landed at here
Alot of unforgiven mistakes
But I'm unable to start all over again
Please forgive all the things I've done

Prayer meeting yesterday. Bible study after work later. I guess my time are real pack. Cause I know, spiritual will break through. (: I trust God.

fasting, fasting, fasting..

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