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I've been tired. Real tired. Busy with whatever stuffs I'm handling. I've been so stress, till at times, or in fact most of the time, I can't sleep. And I even dream about my work. How bad can I go. Get to off tomorrow. I hope that I be fine after a rest. Having fever right now, gastric, flu whatever you can think of.. I need more rest. I wanna sleep with peace.. Please sends Angles over me.. (:



He looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see. That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be, I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about and she's got everything that I have to live without.

He talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so damn funny, that I can't even see anyone when he's with me. He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right, I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night.

He walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe? And there he goes, so perfectly, the kind of flawless I wish I could be, she'd better hold him tight, give him all her love, look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky.

As I turn out the light, I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar the only one who's got enough of me to break my heart. He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do, he's the time taken up, but there's never enough and he's all that I need to fall into.

Love is a strange and beautiful thing,
It spans time and space, distance is no object to love.
You will wait forever for the one you love,
Travel wherever you need to be with them.
When you are in the arms of the one you love,
That love can make a moment last a lifetime,
Yet make a lifetime seem no more than a moment.
When love is distant it grows strong,
When it returns it flowers.
People crave it, strive for it, fight for it, and die for it,
And when they find it, they know they are complete.
For in the arms of the one we love is wholeness,
Belief, completeness, passion, and security.
The one we love is someone for whom we would do anything,
And never ask for anything in return.
It produces a love of all that person is and will ever be,
Regardless of what that may mean to me.
Love knows that when you are away,
That you are still loved, cherished, thought after, and missed
By the one you love,
And they know that you love them back.
That is Love.

I realise I did change..

Was chatting with one of my work mate. And he/she been telling me that yes I indeed change. It makes me wonder alot. Have I change to be better? Or worst? In fact, yes I did change to the worst.

I used to be easy going, without weekend off I'm really fine with it. And right now, No matter what, I "die die" want a weekend off. If not the shifts that I want. WHat happen? Why am I becoming like that? What cause me to change?

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I tried to call you to talk things out with you, yet you didn't pick up my call. And you're busy over the other line. 15-20mins later, I sms you telling you that I did call to talk to things, no call/sms from you, all the way till now. Did I owe you anything?

Yes I admit, its my bad for being giving you a cold shoulder, I just want you to know how it feels to be treated in this way. It does not feel good at all.. I hope you understand how I feel..

Sigh

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I'm tired. I still have a long week to go.. I hope things will turn out better..

Been falling sick since last saturday. Food disorder. Don't feel like eating, whatever I take in 100% puke out. I guess I'm getting slimmer as time goes by. And yeah, I did lose weight. Yes again. I'm only 49kg now. I want to get back to 52kg!

加油 加油

I just hope that I'm able to take in more food as time goes by. And seriously, the medicine that the doctor gave, doesn't really help. I rather have those craving for food, and I be able to have them. (: I'm really thankful that my "sister" bring me to 85 for some porridge that I've been craving for some days back!

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And right now, there's nothing on my head, rather then I wanna sleep. Night world..

In thoughts..

I've been bored the whole afternoon. The rain makes me so emo, and I've no idea why. And been so bored, I've been looking at all the photos in my computer, and I really start to think what have I been doing after I leave Greenview. For the past 4years, I realise I've change so much, until, maybe I can't even recongise myself.

Greenview life.


Prom night.


I move out of secondary school. My very first job. Giordano.


My very first few photos taken with Xindai. Since Giordano, till now, she's always a best girlfriend of mine.


My very first clubbing GF, Vivien. That was long ago. Really long ago. At Momo.


Not long later, I move over to Samuel & Kevin. First outlet at Tampines Mall. And those people that I met over there. I have fun with them, seriously. At The Reef.


My first Pet. WU GUI!


At the same time, retaking my O level at Queensfield Private. Thats where I met those girls that celebrate my birthday for me for 3years.
My 19th birthday.

My 20th birtday.



By that time, I already have my braces on. Its gonna freak you guys out.


The very first BF that I bring home. Till now, at times still miss him. Those time were sweet.


Chloe & Terence. Taken at TM Starbucks. That's when I transfer to Parkway.


Miss Chan and I first oversea trip to Bangkok. I remember its 1st Sept. (:


Sis. We hardly meet up, but you're the sis that I love & cherish.


One of those Long Beach days..


One of those clubbing days at MOS.


They've been with me for so long. Though we hardly meet up, really thank you guys for being part of my life.


Not long later, I start to go church. My cellgroup members at my best friend's wedding.


Sze & Zhen.


Brisbane. Just to take a look at how Ben been doing.


We went Ubin together. We have so much fun!


The very first Easter I celebrated. Ben & Miss Chan were there too!


Singapore Zoo.


Sentosa!


Those dudes from Bugis to Parkway with me.


Not long after Chloe leave S&K.


My farewell to S&K.


The most SLACK job in my life. The Natural Source.


Those days that I spent with him, makes me feel like a child, who smile without worries. Thanks Augie.


The sweetest photo that's always keep inside my heart. See this photo I wanna smile. I love you girl, though time doesn't allow us to meet, but you're always dear in my heart.



And I join Cotton On.


The friends I meet at Double C.


One of those BORING day at PS. Last day of sales.


RJ last day at Wisma.


My 21st Birthday. Cellgroup.


Queensfield.


S&K.


Greenview.


My primary schoolmates.


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Of course, my sweetest girl.


Miss Chan & Queenie.


Buds for life.


The new friends I met thru Queenie.


My "sister" birthday. (:


Not last and not least, Andy


And the me now.



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I've change so much through out these 4years. Sometimes I wonder who have I change to. To someone good? Or someone bad? Or someone so hard to recongise? In terms of charater, looks, behaviour and every single thing.

People come, people leave. People appear in your life for a reason. Who the next one to be the passer by of my life? Or who is the one that gonna leave me with memories. (I prefer happy memories please.) Or who is the one gonna make me cry?

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I'm sorry if I've NOT been contacting you. KS, Ong, Jo, YongXi and even Xindai. I've been busy, I really tried, but sometimes, time is just not enough.




I stop with this post, cause tears starts to stream down..

When glass breaks, the sound created is resounding.
When your heart breaks, there's complete silence.
No one hears it except you.
And to you, it's so loud that it's deafening,
And all you wanna do is to stop it
But you can't and it hurts.

Its been a hard week for me I guess. Work, and personal life. Trying so hard to maintain balance up, but sometimes, work just don't allow. I guess, I really have enough of this company, or perhaps this shop. I need a break real badly.

I'm just so damn sick of every single thing that happen. Roaster, all over again. I believe I'm not the one that make noise, alot of us make noise. Seriously, its enough. More then enough.

Everyone is getting real tired of everything. Saturday, no part timers wanna work just because extended hours till 11pm. What's next, afraid of over budget, that why cut short man power. In the end, no staffs turning up. How great my SM is doing his job. Not the first time though. Its been happening for weeks.

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Week been busy with nothing. Satuday was a tiring day for me. Did nothing at all, other then sleeping. I've never been so tired before, woke up a few hours, then head back to sleep all the way till Sunday. I even forget about turning up for Zaki's wedding. How tired can I get.

Sunday, woke up and slack around. Pretty reluctant of going out. In the end I still go ahead. Head over to Andy's place to cut hair. And head to Kallang Leisure Park. Nothing exciting happen there. Its a real cool place to chill. Seriously, you want what, there's what. But if you don't have your own transport, its very hard for you to go over there.
Thanks Andy.



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Was out with Albert, in celebration of his birthday. One of the net pal I met, nice guy, funny guy to hang out with. A mini celebration for him. And silly guy, so much close to tears. He was saying that its been long since he blow a birthday cake, and thanks Queenie for helping me to buy that cake. And make it a surprise for him.. (:




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Planning for a oversea trip right now, I hope, this time round, I be fine.. I know I will be..










But not so soon.

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