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Went to Double C last night alone. After work though. Had a jar and left. Anyway, not much of stuffs to blog about. Really very tired these few days. And finally get my weekend off.. I'm like hoping, I have somewhere to go, something to do. Seriously, I hate weekends off. Every where is crowded with people. But at least, weekend is the most shag place, and yeah, I get to slack at home.

And I guess, right now, I gonna catch some sleep.. And...... Might be continue..

I wish I could open up your heart, and take a good look.

Seriously, I've no idea what's on my mind, what do I really want. Everyday is like the same thing that happen. Just that I ate different food, wear different clothes, meet different customers everyday.

Everyday wake up at 1015am, shower and leave house at like 11am. Take train to town, and start work. Break time is always at 4pm, and then, sign in at 5pm. Work till 10pm, close shop, EOD(End Of Day) leave shop. And that's it.

Throughout this July roaster, to be frank, I'm afternoon shift all the way. Its only Wednesday that I'm on morning shift. I was the one who planned it, and yah.. Maybe because afternoon seems to be busier and stuffs. Or perhaps, I just can't face the fact that I've no where to go after my morning shift.

Well, starting to get a life now. At least I meet a bunch of new friends and everything. And I hope, right now, YOU will also get a life. You let me go, don't be like yesterday, coming down to my area, it ain't helping.. (: Because, I've learnt how to let go. So must you.


爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
不会再让我(你)心疼一等再等
你就是我等的那个人

男人男人
女人女人
多么希望你是对的人



Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived. Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others, including Love.

One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. Love was the only one that stayed. She wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment. When the sland was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave. She began looking for someone to ask for help.

Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you anywhere."

Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." "I can't help you," Vanity said. "You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat."

Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now."

Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, "Happiness, please take me with you." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him.

Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, "Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder.

Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" "It was Time," Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?" Love asked. Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."


Have you understand how great my love is?

Don't wanna close the door
Don't wanna give up on it
Don't wanna fight no more
We'll find the way around it
Where's the love we had?
We can make it last

So tell me what it's for?
If there's no winner in it?
Nobody's keeping score,
Let's start from the beginning
Can we make it last
Where’s the love we had

Do I gotta stay in the cold of night
Till the morning light
Do I have to say
I will let you get away

What I gotta be,
Tell me what you wanna do
Cause I can't live my life
The way you want me to
You know I can't go on
Living like we do
Do I have to cry for you?

Ming Hui

Rachel


Thats all. Too lazy to upload the rest.

Was at Double C again last night. Sobber till now. I'm glad that you came down and fetch me home. Thanks. *lurves. Really apprecaite everything you do..

Went to Double C last night after finish work. I had so much fun. Really. Though its a little disappointing that some of them didn't turn up. But I have fun. Drink, sing, games, laughter and even tears..

Saw a familiar face there. Was expecting more, but I know they won't be there. Talk to that familiar person, told me so much things. He help me to sing that song that someone used to sing. I weep when I heard that. And I can't help but cried.

Photos will be upload soon..


如果你眼神能夠為我　片刻的降臨
如果你能聽到　心碎的聲音
沉默的守護著你　沉默的等奇蹟
沉默的讓自己　像是空氣

大家都吃著聊著笑著　今晚多開心
最角落裡的我　笑得多合群
盤底的洋蔥像我　永遠是調味品
偷偷的看著你　偷偷的隱藏著自己

如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會發現　你會訝異
你是我　最壓抑　最深處的秘密

如果你願意一層一層一層的剝開我的心
你會鼻酸　你會流淚
只要你能聽到我　看到我的全心全意

聽妳說妳和妳的他們　曖昧的空氣
我和我的絕望　裝得很風趣
我就像一顆洋蔥　永遠是配角戲
多希望能與妳　有一秒　專屬的劇情

你會鼻酸　你會流淚
只要你能聽到我　看到我的全心全意

I'm at the post where I always dream about it. Right now, stress are pilling, and I can't even stand strong. Who will be there to hold me, and give me a hand? Whatever I do, it doesn't seems to please someone out there. Its either I didn't hand over properly, or either I didn't do a awesome job.

So much things are on my head. I don't have a strong senior to support me, everything has to be done by myself. I'm a human too, I need my rest, I need my time for my own. Why must I give up so many things just for the shop. In the first place, is there anyone out there who appreciate all the things I've done? The effort I put it?

If I could, I rather give up the rank I'm having right now. Sometimes in life, people will make mistake, I only mislead once. Whereby crowd control me. And turn out, you gave a piece of me. Make me so upset, make me feel so helpless and worthless. Make me wanna give up everything..

When are you people gonna appreciate me again?

I used to love Tuesdays and Fridays. But right now, its Tuesday. And seriously, I don't like this day anymore. Roaster for July already out. Another 4weeks of BORING tuesdays to go.

Sigh.

Wanted to go tanning, but then.. Its cold out there. Not much sun. Might as well stay at home. Wanna catch some sleep.. But then.. so much of noise all around. Seriously, I'm bored like fcuk.




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Its goodbye for us. Thank you for being so nice to me for the past 7months. Appreciate every single thing that you've done for me. Thank you for loving me back and every single thing. Spend time with me when you can, trying so much to compromise to me, my attitude, my stubborn-ness, my demanding and every single thing. Its goodbye, no longer see you later..

I aint sure when will be the next time I see you, either will I know when will be the time I get to see you down the streets, or maybe around my area. Been to your area once, didnt get to see your dad's car, go to the place where I know I will see you, but I know.. Fate has play us out.

I hope one day, I will see you at my area one more time. I miss you




goodbye my dear.

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