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Ebel Yong
22years old
1.7m, 52kg
17th Jan 1987[Birthday]
4th June 2006[Spiritual]
Believes that waiting will creates miracle
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
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ramblings of a young adult
Ebel Yong
22years old
1.7m, 52kg
17th Jan 1987[Birthday]
4th June 2006[Spiritual]
Believes that waiting will creates miracle
Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty
Didn't you want to hear the sound of all the places we could go
Do you fear the expressions on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road when you wake up
and I don't think that I have the strength to let you go
There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
and I'm here to sing
about the things that mattered
about the things that made us feel alive for oh so long
about the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong
And someday, I promise I'll be gone
And someday, I might even sing this song
To you, I might even sing this song, to you
and I was crying alone tonight
and I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So Just come back I'll make it
better than it ever was
Maybe it's just me, couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
I want it all, don't leave right now
I'll give you everything
I know I be fine. The storm of mine will be over soon. Stay strong Ebel..
I didn't know by working too much OTs will cause us to quarrel.
I didn't know by meeting less will cause too much misunderstanding.
I didn't know by putting too much in career will cause the break up.
I didn't know by giving each other too much space, we take things for granted.
Grandma hospitalis yesterday. She's fine, not too much of worries. I realise its been long since I've seen her. The last time was like CNY, and its then I realise that she age so much.. Till I hardly could recongise her.
That's when I stop, and I really realise that I've been putting too much time on work. Mum keep wanting me to visit grandpa back then, its always work, friends, bf, sleep that keep stopping me from going to find her. I guess, sometimes, its too late to realise everything.
Bro leaving this monday, and I hope that everything will be fine. Can tell that mum is very upset about it. I don't know how long I can endure everything, but I know I'll be fine.. (i hope)
Finally..
The sales started, getting real tired as days pass.. Off on tues, get back to shop. (like again.) Thankful its only a few hours. Head to dental after that, forget to bring retainer, gonna come back another day. Seriously, its like wasting my time.
Head to sentosa get myself some tanned, and head for window shopping. Baby pick me up at night, head to 85 for dinner, and then to Changi. Suppose to be like watching planes pass by, turn up, he's PSP-ing, and I fall asleep.
How great I am.. Haha.
Eddie called me on Monday, asking me to spare him 5mins.. Turn up, and YES I MADE IT!
Finally I promoted to SHOP MANAGER of Parkway! Damn happy lor!
And yah, I need to sleep..
I'm still breathing, still doing.. okie I guess.
Been away for Wisma for 1week. And yeah, I'm still staying at Parkway till.. I don't know.
Been so tired. Really very tired. Was on off on Thursday, had shop meeting in the morning, head to Sentosa by myself, get tanned, and yeah, out of there, Vivo shop, and Friday, morning shift, conversation.
Sales started on Friday. Reach shop at 730am, change VM, fixtures everything all by myself. Get things done by noon. And what's worst, Eddie came down. Change so much things, and ended up, I stay till 1130pm. Thats like 16hours of work.
Indeed tired. And I cab home.
The next day, woke up late, like 1130am. Whereby I suppose to reach shop an hour later. Shower, and yes, cab again. Reach shop at 1240pm. Busy, busy, busy. Rush here and there. Get things done, Nigel(Cotton On owner) came down that day. Was a bad day though. Zhiling was on off. And I run the shop. Not enough staffs, shop over messy. Worst still, I break down.
But I'm glad that things turn out better then I expect. At least he said "Hey, you did a great job." And I relief. I'm so glad that things turn out the way that it suppose to be. And yeah, I'm happy.
Chatted with Jayden, Eddie, Ming Ming outside shop for like 1hour or so. And that day, I finish at 12am.. Another shag day. I wonder, how long more can I endure? Its not mentally tired, its physically tired..
And I thought, you'll understand me.. But you didn't..
First day at Parkway. Seriously, almost dead there. So much things not sort, so much things like.. Its totally in a MESS. Helpless. I don't know where to help. Things say over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again, no one gets in the head.
I wonder how long more can I endure.....
Anyway, cut my hair on Saturday.(thanks Andy) Follow by head to Wisma to pick up some stuffs and head over to Parkway. Was there looking at this big shop. So many new staffs, yet I can't even let them know "hey, nice to meet you. I'm Ebel, your ASM." I'm like a stranger, and I just walk pass them.
Gave instructions for one last time, and and glad that things go in the way.. And, with a smile, I walk out. I wonder, how long will I walk out of here.. How long more will I go back.
Part of me don't want to go back, because I wanna fly alone. I'm so cosy for so long, its time for me to move on.
Part of me want to go back, because of my team mates, the surrounding, the everything.. And I... Dont know.
Sigh.
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...
So much things are at my head. Somehow or rather, I feel that
I'm alone.
Though baby being here for me 24/7. Trying his best to cheer me up, but afterall, I'm the one who walk through this life all by myself.
Mum suffer minor depression. I feel so helpless. Somehow, I don't know what to do. Thankful enough, at least I have a friend, who face the same issue as me, stand with me firmly. Help me, at least, makes me stronger.
Mum never ask about what I want for food when she knows that I'm at home. Maybe because since young, she doesn't dote me at all.(Thats my point of view) But recently, she keep asking me what I want for dinner.
She never allow us to have chips, especially LAYS. Because its expensive, and not healthy, and it help us GAIN weight. But recently, she bought so many packets and store at home.
(And of course, I finish it.)
She gets real tired as days goes by. Tired until she didn't have the energy to nag at us, or even wait for us to come home. There was once, about 12+(midnight) she called me, with a sleepy tone, asking me where am I?
I told her I was with Marcus, and with the worried tone of voice, asking me where's my sister. I called my sister straight, and she said she did inform mum that she will be home late due to watching midnight.
I wonder, what's on mum's mind?
The moment I came home, check on her, she's on her bed. The next moment after I came out from shower, she's not on her bed. It really freak me out. And I realise that she's sleeping on the floor.
I question her last night, she said, she doesn't like her bed anymore. She prefer sleeping on the floor. Sometimes, she came over to my room, with her pillow and blanket, within 10mins, she get out of the room, saying that we're too noisy. Whereby me and my sister didn't speak at all. And she head to my bro's room to sleep.
The next morning, I found her sleeping at her own bed.
I don't know how to help. I feel so helpless. I weep when I think about what happen at home. Its affecting me so badly.
Receive a call from my regional this afternoon. (Wasn't feeling well the moment I step into shop. Puke out all my medicine after I took it.) Yes I'm sick. And I really detest that.
Informing me that I be transfering over to Parkway for 2weeks the most. Just to train up all the staffs over there. Turn that shop to be as awesome as Wisma. Because I've the potential with doing that. And seriously, I don't know why I feel damn down when I hear the news. Its a good thing isn't it? Maybe because I'm over sensitive towards these type of things, or perhaps, Parkway had too much beautiful memories? Because the current Cotton On shop, is the previous Samuel & Kevin outlet.
I hope I will do a awesome job.. And right now..
I wanna weep.
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty
{/ --
Sunday, September 28, 2008 ( 9/28/2008 11:55:00 PM )
Didn't you want to hear the sound of all the places we could go
Do you fear the expressions on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road when you wake up
and I don't think that I have the strength to let you go
There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
and I'm here to sing
about the things that mattered
about the things that made us feel alive for oh so long
about the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong
And someday, I promise I'll be gone
And someday, I might even sing this song
To you, I might even sing this song, to you
and I was crying alone tonight
and I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So Just come back I'll make it
better than it ever was
Maybe it's just me, couldn't you believe
that everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
I want it all, don't leave right now
I'll give you everything
{/ --
Wednesday, September 24, 2008 ( 9/24/2008 10:52:00 AM )
I know I be fine. The storm of mine will be over soon. Stay strong Ebel..
I didn't know by working too much OTs will cause us to quarrel.
I didn't know by meeting less will cause too much misunderstanding.
I didn't know by putting too much in career will cause the break up.
I didn't know by giving each other too much space, we take things for granted.
Grandma hospitalis yesterday. She's fine, not too much of worries. I realise its been long since I've seen her. The last time was like CNY, and its then I realise that she age so much.. Till I hardly could recongise her.
That's when I stop, and I really realise that I've been putting too much time on work. Mum keep wanting me to visit grandpa back then, its always work, friends, bf, sleep that keep stopping me from going to find her. I guess, sometimes, its too late to realise everything.
Bro leaving this monday, and I hope that everything will be fine. Can tell that mum is very upset about it. I don't know how long I can endure everything, but I know I'll be fine.. (i hope)
{/ --
Thursday, September 18, 2008 ( 9/18/2008 11:35:00 PM )
Finally..
The sales started, getting real tired as days pass.. Off on tues, get back to shop. (like again.) Thankful its only a few hours. Head to dental after that, forget to bring retainer, gonna come back another day. Seriously, its like wasting my time.
Head to sentosa get myself some tanned, and head for window shopping. Baby pick me up at night, head to 85 for dinner, and then to Changi. Suppose to be like watching planes pass by, turn up, he's PSP-ing, and I fall asleep.
How great I am.. Haha.
Eddie called me on Monday, asking me to spare him 5mins.. Turn up, and YES I MADE IT!
Finally I promoted to SHOP MANAGER of Parkway! Damn happy lor!
And yah, I need to sleep..
{/ --
Sunday, September 14, 2008 ( 9/14/2008 10:14:00 PM )
I'm still breathing, still doing.. okie I guess.
Been away for Wisma for 1week. And yeah, I'm still staying at Parkway till.. I don't know.
Been so tired. Really very tired. Was on off on Thursday, had shop meeting in the morning, head to Sentosa by myself, get tanned, and yeah, out of there, Vivo shop, and Friday, morning shift, conversation.
Sales started on Friday. Reach shop at 730am, change VM, fixtures everything all by myself. Get things done by noon. And what's worst, Eddie came down. Change so much things, and ended up, I stay till 1130pm. Thats like 16hours of work.
Indeed tired. And I cab home.
The next day, woke up late, like 1130am. Whereby I suppose to reach shop an hour later. Shower, and yes, cab again. Reach shop at 1240pm. Busy, busy, busy. Rush here and there. Get things done, Nigel(Cotton On owner) came down that day. Was a bad day though. Zhiling was on off. And I run the shop. Not enough staffs, shop over messy. Worst still, I break down.
But I'm glad that things turn out better then I expect. At least he said "Hey, you did a great job." And I relief. I'm so glad that things turn out the way that it suppose to be. And yeah, I'm happy.
Chatted with Jayden, Eddie, Ming Ming outside shop for like 1hour or so. And that day, I finish at 12am.. Another shag day. I wonder, how long more can I endure? Its not mentally tired, its physically tired..
{/ --
Monday, September 08, 2008 ( 9/08/2008 11:32:00 PM )
First day at Parkway. Seriously, almost dead there. So much things not sort, so much things like.. Its totally in a MESS. Helpless. I don't know where to help. Things say over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again, no one gets in the head.
I wonder how long more can I endure.....
Anyway, cut my hair on Saturday.(thanks Andy) Follow by head to Wisma to pick up some stuffs and head over to Parkway. Was there looking at this big shop. So many new staffs, yet I can't even let them know "hey, nice to meet you. I'm Ebel, your ASM." I'm like a stranger, and I just walk pass them.
Gave instructions for one last time, and and glad that things go in the way.. And, with a smile, I walk out. I wonder, how long will I walk out of here.. How long more will I go back.
Part of me don't want to go back, because I wanna fly alone. I'm so cosy for so long, its time for me to move on.
Part of me want to go back, because of my team mates, the surrounding, the everything.. And I... Dont know.
Sigh.
{/ --
Saturday, September 06, 2008 ( 9/06/2008 02:43:00 AM )
I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone
My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...
{/ --
Thursday, September 04, 2008 ( 9/04/2008 10:13:00 PM )
So much things are at my head. Somehow or rather, I feel that
I'm alone.
Though baby being here for me 24/7. Trying his best to cheer me up, but afterall, I'm the one who walk through this life all by myself.
Mum suffer minor depression. I feel so helpless. Somehow, I don't know what to do. Thankful enough, at least I have a friend, who face the same issue as me, stand with me firmly. Help me, at least, makes me stronger.
Mum never ask about what I want for food when she knows that I'm at home. Maybe because since young, she doesn't dote me at all.(Thats my point of view) But recently, she keep asking me what I want for dinner.
She never allow us to have chips, especially LAYS. Because its expensive, and not healthy, and it help us GAIN weight. But recently, she bought so many packets and store at home.
(And of course, I finish it.)
She gets real tired as days goes by. Tired until she didn't have the energy to nag at us, or even wait for us to come home. There was once, about 12+(midnight) she called me, with a sleepy tone, asking me where am I?
I told her I was with Marcus, and with the worried tone of voice, asking me where's my sister. I called my sister straight, and she said she did inform mum that she will be home late due to watching midnight.
I wonder, what's on mum's mind?
The moment I came home, check on her, she's on her bed. The next moment after I came out from shower, she's not on her bed. It really freak me out. And I realise that she's sleeping on the floor.
I question her last night, she said, she doesn't like her bed anymore. She prefer sleeping on the floor. Sometimes, she came over to my room, with her pillow and blanket, within 10mins, she get out of the room, saying that we're too noisy. Whereby me and my sister didn't speak at all. And she head to my bro's room to sleep.
The next morning, I found her sleeping at her own bed.
I don't know how to help. I feel so helpless. I weep when I think about what happen at home. Its affecting me so badly.
Receive a call from my regional this afternoon. (Wasn't feeling well the moment I step into shop. Puke out all my medicine after I took it.) Yes I'm sick. And I really detest that.
Informing me that I be transfering over to Parkway for 2weeks the most. Just to train up all the staffs over there. Turn that shop to be as awesome as Wisma. Because I've the potential with doing that. And seriously, I don't know why I feel damn down when I hear the news. Its a good thing isn't it? Maybe because I'm over sensitive towards these type of things, or perhaps, Parkway had too much beautiful memories? Because the current Cotton On shop, is the previous Samuel & Kevin outlet.
I hope I will do a awesome job.. And right now..
I wanna weep.
If we; Should be getting under
These sheets; We could lie in this bed; But it's Empty
These sheets; We could lie in this bed; But it's Empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard; Maybe we're torn apart
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