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I'm back in SG. Really tired. But it was so fun over there.

Upload afew photos. Shall update the rest soon.. Right now, I need my bed badly..

The hotel that I'm staying with. Sugar Palm. The service there is real awesome. Other then free internet, there's also Gym room, free suana, steam room, and even rental DVD for free. How awesome can it get? (:





The beach. Known as Kata Beach.



Thats all for now.

Right now at the so call internet cafe, surfing for free. That's nice isn't it? And yah, doing nothing much today.

Reach here like 3plus(SNG timing) and check in and stuffs, went for lunch cum dinner and follow by spa. Tummy aint feeling well. All thanks to my gastic. But thankful I'm feeling much more better now.

The sad thing is that, THERE ISN'T ANY NIGHT MARKET HERE. That's why I'm sitting here, typing all these, blogging, surfing and stuffs. And the internew connection is DAMN slow.

MSN unable to sign in.. BOO-HOO..

I guess that's all, and hopefully able to update tomorrow..

Cheers.

Goodbye Singapore....

I hope I've hell lots of fun over there.. Take care all my friends. (:


Shall update when I'm back, if not, update little bits of memories over at Phuket..

Sometimes in life, when things happen, you then realise that you're at wrong.
But often, there isn't any turning back especially when you lost something/someone that you really love.



請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久？已不屬於我
默默低頭那時我很多話哽在喉嚨
妳的笑妳的快樂 或許我愛太多想太多
我能感受 他比我適合
愛放了手 我偽裝冷漠
逼妳先說分手

請原諒我 原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口 好讓妳離開我
請原諒我 好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受　
換妳過更好的生活

請不要分了以後還記得親吻過的承諾
妳的永久？已不屬於我
默默低頭那时我很多話哽在喉嚨？
妳的笑妳的快樂
或許我愛太多想太多 我能感受
他比我適合 愛放了手
我偽裝冷漠 逼妳先說分手

請原諒我 原諒我不成熟
不愛妳是藉口 好讓妳離開我 nono
請原諒我 好想自私將妳佔有
妳的寂寞就給我承受　 換妳過更好的生活

愛過恨過哭過也笑過
親吻過妳的脆弱
其實我比誰都要懦弱
原諒我 必須假裝愛錯
別讓時間逗留 我怕說不出口 誒
原諒我 沒有解釋太多
心痛 別無所求 徹底忘了我
愛原來有舍得



I hope after this holiday, things will get better. And I hope, I'll be happy smiling..


Phuket, here I come. (:

Perhaps I'm wrong. I hope, I dont regret with the things I said, and the things I do..



Its been long since I cried, this time round, I did..

I feel so unappreciate. Being a fool once, never twice. Now I know the whole thing, I've seen a clearer picture of what type of person you are, and I won't turn back.

Was like planning to go drinking/clubbing/movie what-so-ever just to enjoy myself. Ended up, a phone call from your friend telling me that you guys met an accident. Push away everything, and make my way down to hospital.

You didn't want me to, either can I rest assure that you're really fine, which you doesn't sound okie to me. The moment I saw you, you seems ok, just depress. I didn't know by being there, I get some emotional hurts.

You speak less then 10sentence to me. No eye contact, no nothing. Thankful enough that I'm not that dumb to buy you that Porter bag whereby my friend said that its not worth.

Well, I guess you're to depress to talk to me, more over that's your car. You asked me to reach home, give you a text, I didn't, either did you call..






Good game Ebel. Game over.

Grandma discharge from hospital last night. At least now, things get better for her. I'm glad that friends keep occupied me, trying their best not to let me thank so much. Work seems alright, other then I've another open door.

Is it a passion or my dream job? I don't know. I'm afraid that if I take up the job, I will regret. I don't know.. I'm just too tired of thinking..


This song, just make me weep..




你的绘画凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散乱了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呐
伴你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了

一开始的不快乐
你用卡片拭写着
有些爱只给到这 真的懂了

怎麽了 你累了 说好的 幸福呐
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心 一一叙说着 你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得

你不等了 说好的 幸福呐
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着 要怎么停呐 

This song keeps playing in my heart over, and over again. I don't know why, but it makes me feel so down.


一盏黄黄旧旧的灯 时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸 不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生 静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影 失去平衡 慢慢下沉
黑暗已在空中盘旋 该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端 无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去 试著抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界 想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去 试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意 这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知 还来不来得及
想回到过去

思绪不断阻挡著回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁


沉默支撑跃过陌生 静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影 失去平衡 慢慢下沉
想回到过去



I'm so tired, I'm looking for my holiday that's coming soon. Not sure if Xindai manage to get her days off, and not sure where are we heading to. I just realise that its been ages since I last travel.


I'm tired. Mentally tired. Ain't sure when will I fall. But I know that will be soon.


Its grandpa death anniversary on Thursday, its been 5 long years... I realise I miss you, grandpa..






And I miss you too..

A phone call from you, will be able to make me smile.. (:

I've been down. Real down. Its like my tears gonna fall off anytime..

Glad to bump onto Jo and Augie this evening at Vivo. Had a little catch up with them, both of them claim that I lost alot of weight. I look pale, tired, wear out blah blah blah..

Tired, indeed I am.. I'm like running out of breathe to breath, too little time for me to rest, not much of food intake..


I'm running out of idea about what to blog, and I'm tired...


三公分陽光　三公分空氣　堵在眼前　像一面玻璃
擋住了你表情　剩下只有腳印

一直向前走　走不完距離　一直向後　退不出回憶
很高興有心事　幫我困住自己

你頭髮上淡淡青草香氣　變成了風才能和我相遇
你的目光　蒸發成雲　再下成雨我才能夠靠近

我懷裡所有溫暖的空氣　變成風也不敢和你相遇
我的心事　蒸發成雲　再下成雨卻捨不得淋溼你

感謝我不可以　住進你的眼睛　所以才能　擁抱你的背影
有再多的遺憾　用來牢牢記住　不完美的所有美麗

感謝我不可以　擁抱你的背影　所以才能　變成你的背影
躲在安靜角落　不用你回頭看　不用珍惜


I realise its not you who never try to understand me, its me, who never even bother to try to understand you.......




You'll always be my baby..











He said "I know that when you're sick you don't like to take medicine, but it will help and don't stress over yourself and take care of yourself. Thanks again I once felt the happiness you gave me and I really miss it. Take good care of your mom and don't drink too much next time. Cause I will not always be there to save you again. Love you always.."



And guess what, tears just fall. I always thought that he's just someone around me that dote me and love me. Someone that I feel comfortable with. And I didn't realise that, this time round,

I'm hurt, deeply hurt.


He's here, always here. Never too far away from me at all. Just that I always flare up at him, he humble down, and let me flare up every single thing. He can take my attitude, my mood swing and everything, I realise that I take him for granted..



And I'm sorry



It's my fault I didn't love you enough.

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