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ramblings of a young adult

Its being long since I've blog. Well, no time, not much things to blog about. Things has been doing well for my side.

I'm going on a holiday later. I really hope that everything will be doing good over there. And I hope that I enjoy myself to the fullest, whatever unhappy things that happen all these while, I will learn to let go.

Perhaps, its time for a new changes.

I didn't know things will get out of control.

I'm like so tired. These 2days at shop, seriously is killing me. First was 55cartons, plus tons of HORRIBLE customers, and worst, VM change. So does today. Although today only 15cartons, but it took me forever to get it done. I'm tired, physically. And mentally wearing out.

Was hoping that someone will be there for me (physically) yesterday, but turn out that someone was busy with washing she/his bike. And joke with me telling me that I miss that someone too much. I kept quiet, hide at a corner and weep. Hoping that someone will be accompanying me for dinner, waited till like almost 7pm, ended up I went for dinner alone.

Anyway, that was yesterday.

And today, that someone was busy fishing, a slow SMS came along for the day. And ended up I was busy at store, and that someone still busy fishing. Called that someone when I was having break, but that someone seems so busy with her/his friends. We didn't exhange much conversation, and I felt so alone for that moment.

Time pass, Queenie and Joshua came down. Asking me to play MJ whereby they said that yesterday I already agreed to play. (Well, I can't really recall if I did agree to play.) I've no choice but not to meet that someone. Ended up that someone got piss. I just humble down and apologise. Seeking for that someone's forgive-ness.. And, I get back nothing, but a "ok... bye..."

I was piss. Of course I am. If not, its not Ebel.

Reach home, hurried MJ, finish around 930pm. Text that someone a couple of times, asking if that someone finish his/her fishing.

No reply.

Asked again if wanna meet.

No reply still..

A SMS from that someone asking if I did call that someone, I replied, "No."


A phone call from that someone, ended up quarreling over it.

You said that you're tired, and wanna head home to rest just because of fishing and lack of sleep. You said I don't understand that you're tired.
You said that 3times in a row I fly your kite because of my friends. You said that I didn't understand how you feel.

Well, I didn't argue back. (I'm so closed to tears right now..)

Seriously, I don't know why that someone gets angry or perhaps a little upset about it.

*My point of view*

Since the first day that we've been hanging out, do I get enough rest and sleep? Everyday, wake up rush to work, after work, meet that someone till pass 1am. Its a daily thing-ing. I didn't even say anything. Even though I'm working morning shift the next day.

I guess its not really fair whereby I put it in this way. But I'm really tired.

That someone don't like to play MJ anymore. Why must force that someone to play whereby he/she doesn't like to play? And what's wrong with me playing and he/she fishing? And we meet after that? I know its my fault whereby this morning I told that someone that I will meet he/she after I finish work.

Who should I reject? Whereby both side I will hurt. Why it cant be a win-win thing? I play my MJ with my friends, and I meet that someone after that? And why is that someone so angry about it? And pushing those blames to yourself?

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Perhaps, things shouldn't meant to be in the first place.





I don't know what am I talking, but all I know is that, I'm really tired.




From To Leave Duration State
26/3/2009 27/3/2009 Annual 2 APPROVED

Went SG flyer last week with E.t. Had fun there. A great expierence that I have. The 30mins is really worth, and of course thanks to Cotton On for giving me those tickets to enjoy. (:











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I'm kinda down. =( I just weigh myself. And I realise that I'm like 2kg heavier. It might be small issue to guys, but girls do take note of their weight. I'm so down till the extend that I cried. How silly can I get? And... I'm running out of words...

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