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Its been awhile again.. Its 330am now, and I'm still here. I've just get to surf net. Really doing nothing much, other then the song, keep playing around my hear. The song that shop always play, and everyone in the shop been singing along etc etc..

Been living well, doing well. Health getting better either. Was down with very bad flu, cough, sore throat. And what's next? Fever. Sounds so damn like H1N1. But its just a normal flu etc.

Was pretty scare at that time, moreover I'm in town, get to interact with tourist more. (Maybe higher chance) Oh well, I'm really fine now..

Just feeling a little hungry now.. Nothing much happen these few weeks, just get my house painted. I guess, next week will be my room turn to get paint. At least its better, where by its not HOT PINK.(I detest PINK)

Thanks to BF for coming my place to help my parents with painting the house. He's tired, can tell, but he really put in 100% with it. Never get to see him get so serious before.


Hmmmm... This relationship been going on for 5months. Didn't do much things. Less shopping(but I manage to get 1 Gucci wallet *HEE HEE*), less tanning. Still movie-ing, like most of the fridays/saturdays night. Fishing, MJ-ing, slacking. Travel. (Next up place, TIOMAN!!!) Sounds boring, but its not! I never really like fishing and prawning. ITS BORING CAN! But with BF around, things just turn the other way round. The laughter from him never makes me bored.

We've been meeting everyday through out the relationship(only 2times whereby he's working night shift, and the other time whereby we quarrel), almost doing same thing every weekend, but I never get bored!

We've been thru thick and thin. Under the sun and under the rain(due to taking bike) but I'm really thankful he has been here with me. Walking with me thru ups and downs together. Though most of the time I upset him alot, he'll still hold onto my hand and continue walking with me.







Will update soon, I promise..



PS: This song doesn't imply anything. I'm just falling in love with it. (:



Can't wait until your arms are wrapped around me tight, all night, every night. We'll watch the stars turn into the morning light, right there side by side. The things you say, the little things you do, make me come, make me go ohh ohh. I need you close, I'll be home soon. And when I get back, I'm gonna stick like glue.

I gotta get back to where I never feel alone, back to the best and only love I've ever known. To the familiar face, that smile, you make me laugh until I cry, where I'm in love, cause you're my honey.

I'm running on back to you, I love what you do to me baby. The touch of you makes me go crazy, I figure there's only one thing to do, I gotta get back to you. I need you to whisper in my ear, and tell me the things that I want to hear. The moment that I got here boy I knew, I've gotta get back to you.

Its been awhile again..

I guess I'm well, just tired that all. BF's grandma pass away. After work, head down to the wake to accompany him. Hoping that my presence will make him feel better. And I hope I did. Monday I heard the news from him. I felt so lost, whereby I don't know what to do. Moreover converting the shop to sales. New VM, mark downs etc. Its killing me. And that week before, I only get to have 1 off day. So its really tiring.

That Monday night, I didn't manage to get some rest. I guess its because I over work myself, or perhaps, I didn't get to see BB. Its really weird whereby I didn't get to see him at all. All the way till Wednesday, head down to the wake, still till 1plus, head home, shower and rest. The next day repeat the same thing again.

Stress. Just stress. Hoping that things are doing well for everything. Ain't sure how does the boss think of my side, but hoping that things are really well.

I'm just tired. I wanna have a holiday. I dont know why so fast craving for one, but I just wanna have one. Its like I gues I've over work myself in some ways, sometimes I don't even have time for myself. Just like now, whereby I enjoy blogging, but now, I'm stuck with wanting what to blog.

Sigh.

night world.

Its been awhile..

Was down with Flu, Fever recently. On Thursday was like MC-ing. Resting at home.. Sat till today was off day. Did nothing much. Just stay at home slack, BB's place. Oh yeah, I head to TTSH on one of those resting day, due to grandma hospitalise. Well, glad that she's getting better.

Its heart-aching to see her being hospitalise. Was like celebrating Mothers' Day with her, last sunday, and she was hospitalise like on Tuesday. She lost so much weight within 1week. Its only 1 week since I've seen her.

I've been hook up by prawning. Although I don't like that last time. But right now its nice. Whereby we've nothing to do in the middle of the night. 4of us, BF, Joanna and Zhong Yue will head to Pasir Ris interchange there and start prawning. For like 2hours or more. Before that we're so into playing lan. And before that? I guess, MJ..

Well, life now being good. Though at Plaza Sing seems far. At least I wont bother my BF and say "BB why you never bring me to town for shopping?" There was once when he wanted to head to town, ended up I told him off "I don't feel like going Town.." He was very surprise. And saying "Next time don't say I never bring you go ok.."

I wonder whats so nice about town? Hmmmm.....

Ever since we've been together, I've not been clubbing, drinking. Well, that's good isn't that? At least I won't hurt my lung.. Haha. We've been doing crazy things together.

Happy moments always end so fast.

Well, just get to see a friend used to being so closed to me blog. Seeing how her/his life being doing. So much things been happen. And I reaise its been awhile sine we last meet up and spoke. Abit weird to see both of us doing like that.

If you're reading, my mum been asking about you, like how things going on for your side. And sincerly, hoping you're doing fine and good. (: Take care my dear. You're always the dearest to me.

Been MIA-ing for awhile. Was kinda busy with work and personal life. Haven't been online for like almost a month. Ain't able to blog, or check mails, or perhaps reading friend's blog.

Life still doing alright. Too much things to handle recently. Work especially. Too much work load, too much expectation from Regional above. If I'm unable to even handle Plaza Sing, I guess, I'm not worth to be a store manager.

Too muh things too talk about, doesn't feel like blogging anyway.


Night world.

For a moment, I felt so much pains within myself. I've left Tampines Mall. And I guess, I left for good. I didn't expect people around me will do this type of things to me. I dote them like my own kids, I treat them as adults. I don't expect them to do these type of hurtful things to me.

Well, I'm now at Plaza Sing, where I started when I just join Cotton On. Actually plan to keep everything down to myself. But instead, I need some "moral" support with the things I've been doing. Or in fact, things doesn't seems to be moving well for my side.

Anyway, just came back from Redang with E.t. 4days 2nights there. Its fun, just that the journey there is a HELL KILLER. I rather go to Phuket since everything there seems to be the same.














I need something that really motivate me. For some moment, my heart hurts, and tears just roll down my cheek without me knowing..

Its being long since I've blog. Well, no time, not much things to blog about. Things has been doing well for my side.

I'm going on a holiday later. I really hope that everything will be doing good over there. And I hope that I enjoy myself to the fullest, whatever unhappy things that happen all these while, I will learn to let go.

Perhaps, its time for a new changes.

I didn't know things will get out of control.

I'm like so tired. These 2days at shop, seriously is killing me. First was 55cartons, plus tons of HORRIBLE customers, and worst, VM change. So does today. Although today only 15cartons, but it took me forever to get it done. I'm tired, physically. And mentally wearing out.

Was hoping that someone will be there for me (physically) yesterday, but turn out that someone was busy with washing she/his bike. And joke with me telling me that I miss that someone too much. I kept quiet, hide at a corner and weep. Hoping that someone will be accompanying me for dinner, waited till like almost 7pm, ended up I went for dinner alone.

Anyway, that was yesterday.

And today, that someone was busy fishing, a slow SMS came along for the day. And ended up I was busy at store, and that someone still busy fishing. Called that someone when I was having break, but that someone seems so busy with her/his friends. We didn't exhange much conversation, and I felt so alone for that moment.

Time pass, Queenie and Joshua came down. Asking me to play MJ whereby they said that yesterday I already agreed to play. (Well, I can't really recall if I did agree to play.) I've no choice but not to meet that someone. Ended up that someone got piss. I just humble down and apologise. Seeking for that someone's forgive-ness.. And, I get back nothing, but a "ok... bye..."

I was piss. Of course I am. If not, its not Ebel.

Reach home, hurried MJ, finish around 930pm. Text that someone a couple of times, asking if that someone finish his/her fishing.

No reply.

Asked again if wanna meet.

No reply still..

A SMS from that someone asking if I did call that someone, I replied, "No."


A phone call from that someone, ended up quarreling over it.

You said that you're tired, and wanna head home to rest just because of fishing and lack of sleep. You said I don't understand that you're tired.
You said that 3times in a row I fly your kite because of my friends. You said that I didn't understand how you feel.

Well, I didn't argue back. (I'm so closed to tears right now..)

Seriously, I don't know why that someone gets angry or perhaps a little upset about it.

*My point of view*

Since the first day that we've been hanging out, do I get enough rest and sleep? Everyday, wake up rush to work, after work, meet that someone till pass 1am. Its a daily thing-ing. I didn't even say anything. Even though I'm working morning shift the next day.

I guess its not really fair whereby I put it in this way. But I'm really tired.

That someone don't like to play MJ anymore. Why must force that someone to play whereby he/she doesn't like to play? And what's wrong with me playing and he/she fishing? And we meet after that? I know its my fault whereby this morning I told that someone that I will meet he/she after I finish work.

Who should I reject? Whereby both side I will hurt. Why it cant be a win-win thing? I play my MJ with my friends, and I meet that someone after that? And why is that someone so angry about it? And pushing those blames to yourself?

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Perhaps, things shouldn't meant to be in the first place.





I don't know what am I talking, but all I know is that, I'm really tired.




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